“Wow!” nausal na lang niya pagkatapos.
“Good?” nakangiting tanong nito.
Marahan siyang tumango. “Yes. But it was a bit scary. A-Akala ko mamamatay na ako.”
“Le petit moiré,” nakangising usal nito at kinintalan siya ng halik sa dulo ng ilong. “A small death.”
“Because of too much pleasure?”
“Yes,” anito at kinintalan ng halik ng labi niya. “Otherwise known as the orgasm.”
“I thought you need actual penetration for that. You just use your…” aniya at tumingin sa daliri nito.
“Ah! Then you must start revising what you know. Or what other people know,” he said with confidence. This man definitely knew what he was doing. And with the sparkle in his eyes, she felt like he still had a lot in store for her.
“You are still dressed,” bulong niya dito at hinila ang waistband ng pantaloon nito. “Let me do the honors.”
She didn’t know where she got her boldness. This was her honeymoon, too. Didn’t mean she was a virgin, only Francois could run the show. But when she pulled down his pants with his briefs, she back out. He was huge. Beautiful and manly huge. Okay. Sabi sa kanya ng mga kaibigan niya, huge was good, especially if a man knew what he was doing in the bedroom department.
Napalunok si Amira. She didn’t know if she could take him. She was tight enough with his fingers a while ago. Paano naman kapag…
“Don’t worry, mon amour. It will fit,” anito bago angkinin ang labi niya. Then he claimed her lips to sooth her worries away.
When she was calm enough she found him poised above her. Ready to take her. “It will hurt.”
“I know.” Binasa niya ang labi niya habang pilit na kinakalma ang paghinga. “But it will pass, right?”
“Yes.” Hindi naman siya ganoon kainosente pagdating sa pagniniig. She knew about claiming of the virgins. Inalam niya iyon para takutin ang sarili niya kung sakaling may umakit sa kanyang lalaki ngayon. But this time, it prepared her for something big in her life. Figuratively and literally.
Yumakap siya sa leeg ng asawa. “I don’t mind getting hurt but make it a good kind of hurt. I trust you can do it. Take me.”
He took her lips in a mind-blowing kiss as his thumb played with her clit. It was enough to drive her wild. The pleasure was so intense. Di niya alam na posible palang maramdaman iyon. Saglit siyang nawala sa sarili. Her body was humming with pleasure. Then he surged and tore her maidenhead. She arched and cried out as she gasp for air. She felt like he was tearing her in two.
Tumigil si Francois sa paggalaw. His body was tensed above her. “Do you want me to stop this?”
She knew that he was holding back. Natatakot ito na masaktan siya nito. “Move or I will kill you. Where is that pleasure that you promised me?” Habang tumatagal ito sa paggalaw, pakiramdam niya ay lalong di lilipas ang sakit.
He gritted his teeth when he slowly pulled out. Then he pushed back with lazy thrusts. “You have to get used to me, Amira. Can you feel me?”
“Yessss,” she hissed. Gusto sana niyang ipikit ang mga mata subalit naktia niya ang intensidad ng mga mata ni Francois. He was watching her – the pleasure and the pain on her face as he claimed her. She could feel every inch of him. His eyes never left hers in a silent worship.
Nang tuluyang mawala ang sakit ay unti-unti iyong napalitan ng sari-saring kulay at emosyon. The pleasure started to build up. Pakiramdam niya ay nakasakay siya sa isang cable car at paakyat siya nang paakyat sa tuktok ng isang mataas na bundok. Sinubukan niyang humawak sa balikat ni Francois. There was something missing. She was trying to grasp it but she couldn’t find. At alam niyang si Francois lang ang maaring magbigay ng kailangan niya.
“What do you want?” bulong ni Francois sa kanya.
“I want you. Don’t hold back,” she bravely answered.
His movements became faster. The fire he lit within her roared through her veins. Pakiramdam niya ay ipinaghahagisan siya ng hangin hanggang makarating siya sa tuktok ng bundok. When she reached the top, she saw the most beautiful view on Earth then she screamed when she started to plunge down. Nakakatakot noong una. It was the unknown. She was new to this sensation, but in the end, Francois was there to catch her.
Then she heard him scream his release. And she watched as pleasure etched his face. It was beautiful. Dahil alam niyang siya ang nagbigay ng pleasure na iyon kay Francois. She claimed him the way he claimed her.
“Thank you,” bulong nito nang gumulong sa tabi niya. Hinapit siya nito sa gilid ng katawan nito at kintalan siya ng halik sa noo. “Thank you for giving yourself to me and trusting me.”
Sumiksik siya dito at inilagay ang kamay sa ibabaw ng dibdib nito. “No. I should thank you. That was beautiful. Imagine, ilang beses mo akong tinanggihan noon.”
Inalok niya ang sarili dito noong dapat ay ipapakasal siya kay Sikandro sa Lambayan pero tinanggihan siya nito. Inalok din niya ang sarili dito para lang magrebelde sa ama niya pero tinanggihan nito. Na-delay ang inaakala nilang honeymoon dahil sa tradisyon. Napakahaba ng pasensiya nito sa kanya.
“Dahil hindi iyon ang tamang panahon at ang tamang rason,” paglilinaw nito. “I want it to be perfect for you. And I will definitely hate myself if I didn’t claim you at the right time. You are worth the wait, Amira. And it will get better next time.”
“The… the petit moiré,” the French word just slipped through her tongue.
“Orgasm.”
She let out a throaty laugh. “Now I know why it is called little death. I felt like I was in paradise for a while. It was wild and scary but I want some more.”
Kaya naman pala maraming sumusugal sa sex para lang sa orgasm na iyon. It was wild. It was exciting. But she was glad that she didn’t achieve it via sexual adventure. Regalo iyon ni Francois sa kanya. And she experienced it for the first time as his bride. It was more beautiful than any meaningless sex.
Niyakap siya nito. “I promise more petit moiré next time, mon amour.”
“Can I get on top this time?”
“Next time.”
“No. This time.” And she rolled him over until she straddled him. Then there was a thriumpant smile on her lips. “I think this is exciting.”
Nanlaki ang mata ng binata. “Amira, it is too soon.”
“You mean you can’t keep up?”
“You are still too sore.”
Itinaas niya ang baba. “I am tough, Francois. I am not made of glass.”
Umungol ang lalaki. “I created a monster.”
Ngumisi si Amira. “Don’t worry. I will be gentle with you.”