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It was around 3 in the afternoon and somehow I found my way back in the treehouse. I was reading a book that I had found lying around the house. I brought a pillow, a blanket, and packed a lunch. I heard the birds chirping and the wind was soothing. It was relaxing. I bought the wedding dress. The likelihood of me finding another dress as beautiful as that. I probably will never get the chance to wear it but it's nice knowing that if. Suddenly the smell of apple cinnamon hit my nose. He was here again. A part of me was upset, a little bothered. But most of me was happy, excited? I guess. He climbed into the treehouse and his eyes were cold and filled with anger. I was confused about where this was coming from unless Amber told him about our little tiff at the shop. It was awkward and silent, and I wanted to say something but I needed to know what was wrong first. "When were you going to tell me?" His voice was almost quivering like he was about to cry. "Amber told you." That's all I was able to get out. "Yeah, yeah she did. Said his name was Akoni. He's an alpha? That's what you like? Alphas." He scoffed at me and he sat down at the same spot he was at yesterday.
"Two and a half years? Long time to be with someone. I thought about you everyday. Every single day you were gone. And the whole time you were with someone." I saw the tears start to roll down his face causing me to feel extremely guilty. "Were you fucking him? You had your first time with him? Huh? Was it magical? Was it everything you hoped it would be?!" He started yelling at me. "No! You don't get to guilt-trip me. You had your first time with Amber and I know for a fact you didn't stop screwing her. AND YOU STILL ARE! What was I supposed to do to sit around and be miserable? Waiting for something that was never going to happen? I fell in love with someone. So what. You were here, planning a wedding. You get to have a family, a life. That all was taken from me." I stood up and started to pace back and forth. I needed to say this, and he needed to hear it. "I bought a wedding dress today. I tried it on and everything. I felt so beautiful. But then I remembered that the one person that I want to see me wearing this dress, never will. And that's a sad life to live. So yes, I found someone who made me forget." I leaned back on the wall and closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
"Bell, I don't want you to be with anyone else. I don't want to be with anyone else. We were supposed to have our first time with each other. We were supposed to go on couples vacations. You and I were supposed to be having our wedding this weekend. I was supposed to see you in a beautiful dress, walking down the aisle." He started walking toward me and my heart started beating faster. "You were made me for me. Every curve, every freckle. Your laugh, your smile, your personality." He was inches away from him. His scent invading my nose and his body heat slowly consuming me. "I am miserable every day I am not with you. I just want you." He reached his hand out for me, but I pushed it away. Barely ignoring the sparks it brought. "Well, we can't. I can't. Just leave me alone." I said taking a deep breath. "Is that what you really want? For me to leave you alone?" He asked me.
"Of course not, you idiot. Why would I ever want that? But I can't have you! And you can't have me. What don't you understand? You didn't fight for me! And because of that, I had to leave. You weren't even there when I packed up my room, you didn't come running to stop the car. You didn't try and hop on the plane and come with me. You stopped trying, stopped fighting. You don't get to have me now." I took a step back trying to calm myself down. He was silent and just sat there staring at me. He knew I was right. "I think it would be best if we just rejected each other." I heard him suck in a breath and I could feel my heart stop. "Don't act so surprised, it's long overdue. I can't keep doing this, and you need to move and forget about me." I was trying to walk past him but he grabbed me and pushed me against the wall. His head was hovering right next to my ears and I could feel his stubble on the side of my cheek.
"No. Please no. I would die." I felt something wet slide down my face, but it wasn't from my eyes. "Bellamy." Was all he said. It was getting too intense and I could feel my body heat start to rise. I didn't move away, but I didn't want to. I guess I also wanted one last time, for us to be together, just one last time. "Just this once? Before you reject me? Because I'm not rejecting you, ever. I would rather die than reject you." He leaned his head back and his lips were so close to mine. This was bad, I shouldn't do this. We shouldn't be together like this. It'ss only make it 30 times worse. He slowly started to lean forward and his lips brushed against mine. Then they were fully pressed against mine. My body didn't know how to react, I stayed there stiff fighting every instinct that I had not to kiss him back. My face went numb from the euphoric feeling. But I gave in, and slowly kissed him back. My hands went around his neck and his hands went to my waist. It was magic.
He licked my bottom lip and I gave him access to all of me. His hands went up and down my sides with a trail of sparks following wherever he touched. They slowly went underneath my sweatshirt and lifted it off of me. I went to his button-up and started undoing the buttons and took off his shirt too. His hands went to my thighs lifting me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist and my hands went to his hair. His hand ran up my back and unbuckled my bra and it slowly started to fall off. He laid us down on the floor, where the blanket and pillows were. It was such an amazing feeling to be skin to skin with him. He started kissing up and down my neck and I slowly moaned out in pleasure. His hands went and grabbed my breast and he ran his fingers over my nipples, causing shivers down my body. His hands went to my pants and unbuckled my jeans and were about to pull them down, but then he stopped. "Can I?" He asked looking at me with lust in his eyes. All I could do was nod, lust clogging my ability to speak.
"You can't mark me. You're going to want to when we, you know. But you can't. It's just sex, that's it. That's all it can be." When I said that I could feel the mood change and he leaned back. I immediately grabbed a blanket and covered myself. "Just sex? That's what this is? There was no meaning behind it?" He growled at me. "What part of CANT don't you understand? You're getting married!" I yelled at him. "You're getting married and I am going back to Hawaii and I am done repeating myself." I grabbed my bra and my sweatshirt and put it back on. "You should go. I'm sure she's waiting for you." He stood there very hesitant, not moving. I know he wanted to stay and so did I, but this was a mess already and we needed to stop while we were ahead. "Okay, fine. I'll go."
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I was relaxing in my room and trying to recover from all the past events. I shouldn't have kissed him, or let me touch him in general. Plus tonight was the rehearsal dinner and I needed to get his scent off of me. I took another shower and since it was the rehearsal dinner I needed to wear a dress. I didn't want to wear something too fancy or that would draw his attention from his mate. I didn't want to be seen as trying to get his attention. I found a white silk dress with spaghetti straps. It was simple and sleek I put my hair into a sleek straight ponytail and a pair of white strap heels. My phone started ringing and I saw that it was Taylor. 'Hello?' I said grabbing my purse and my keys. 'Hey, listen are you okay? When you left today I tried following you but you kind of disappeared.' She asked me. 'Yeah, I had a feeling of what was going to happen, but it's fine now. Tomorrow is the wedding and right after the ceremony I am going back to Hawaii.'
It was true, I was planning on leaving right after the ceremony. I didn't want to stay for the reception, I knew it would hurt too much. 'Wait, you're seriously not staying? I thought that-' I cut her off. 'You thought what? I would stay and watch them grow old together? No. I am going home. I'll see you at dinner.' I hung up the phone and put it back in my purse. I took a deep breath and leaned against the wall. One more day. One more day. One more day.
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The rehearsal was in the castle. It was beautifully decorated. There were people from all over coming for this dinner. Almost like the engagement party. Which should have been mine in the first place. I love Hawaii but soon Akoni will find his mate and move on, Australia seems nice, I probably won't meet anyone and live the rest of my life alone. But traveling is something I have always wanted to do. I walked into the ballroom and everyone was sitting in their perspective areas. There was light classical music playing in the background and light chatter. I found the table I was to sit at with the other royals. I went and sat next to Jonathan and his mate, but there was one more empty chair. "Who else is missing?" I asked them, but before they could say anything, the question was answered already. It was Connor, Ambers mate. "Hey, Connor," Jonathan said while he came and sat down at the table. "Hey, guys." I looked at him and his eyes were slightly red, and his face flushed. Like he was crying? I leaned over closer to him. "Are you okay?" I asked him and his eyes were filled with so much pain. "Are you okay?" He asked me back and I knew that was his answer.
Amber walked up on stage and cleared her throat in the microphone. "Hello everyone! Thank you all for coming. Vincent will be here in a minute, currently, he is talking with my future in-laws. But we have some news. It isn't 100% confirmed yet. We have the doctor's appointment in two days. But, we are pregnant!" The cheering overtook the room. People got up and were jumping up and down. But for me the world stopped, the sound left and I went numb. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak, and I couldn't feel anything. My eyes began to swell and I could feel the tears fall down my face. I didn't make a move to wipe them. I didn't care anymore. The cheering stopped and I felt a hand grab mine. I slowly turned my head and made eye contact with Connor. Everything I was feeling, he was feeling too. "Thank you all so much for all of the love! We will hopefully be having a boy which means a Beta baby." Vincent walked onto the stage and there was a look of confusion on his face. "I thought we were waiting?" He laughed and wrapped his arm around her. "Well, I am just so excited." She gave him a kiss and hugged him. "Look, it isn't confirmed yet, but the possibility is there."
They continued talking but I just tuned out. "We aren't getting them back are we?" He turned and looked at me when I asked him that question. "I guess not." He said softly, I could hear his heartbreak in his voice. "I leave tomorrow," I told him. "Where are you going? Back to Hawaii?" He asked me. "Yeah for a month, but then Australia, then maybe Greece. But I won't be back here, ever again." I sighed and leaned into the chair. The wedding coordinator started talking and was telling people how the wedding tomorrow would go and what we all need to do. "I don't blame you. I'm also doing the same. I am moving to Canada, I have a cousin there and they said they would be open to me moving there with them." It was best if we both left and forgot this place ever existed. "When do you leave?" I asked him. "Tonight, I just came to say goodbye. Maybe one day we will cross paths again. Let me come with you to Greece?" I laughed lightly at him. "Yes of course. It'd be nice to see a familiar face."
"Bell, tomorrow after the reception we were thinking of a girls night!" Rhen yelled out. "I don't think I'd be able to make it." They all looked at me confused. "Why not?" Augusta asked me. "I am leaving tomorrow after the ceremony." Their faces when I said that, broke my heart but I couldn't stay. "You're gonna stay in Hawaii instead of being home?" Jonathan asked. "This isn't my home. There isn't a single picture of me anywhere in this castle. My home is Hawaii, my home is wherever I say it is. I know this is hard to understand but your parents don't hate you for something you can't control. I didn't want this to be a sad night but I might as well say it now. But this might be the last time you see me for a while. I can't come back, not until I have my own life to live." Connor gave my hand a light squeeze and smiled at me. I'm glad there is someone who supported me. "Should I even try and change your mind?" Rhen asked me. "It seems like your mind is pretty made up with what you want. Nothing we are going to say is going to help. I guess the only thing we can do is let you go." Taylor yelled and slammed the table and stomped off. I knew she was going to be the most upset. She is my best friend but I can't stay just for her. Yes, she is important, but I am important too.
They all started talking to each other again and whispering, I am sure they were talking to their mates about me. "I feel guilty," I told Connor. "There's nothing selfish when it comes to your wellbeing. Don't ever feel guilty about that. We will get through this, soon this will be a distant memory buried underneath a life of happiness."