Ester, With you, my every ravage becomes memorable.
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“..-I hit you, I ridiculed you, treated you like trash but you were by my side and deep inside I knew you were the one who could save me from the darkness but I was scared and Henry's words echoed in my mind.`` I sniffed, pausing for a moment to take my breath.
“But when you asked for a divorce, I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to apologize for my mistake and start things anew with you, I began to desire you but Henry threatened me he will tell you everything about Grace but I cannot be away from you,” I began to cry loudly.
“I had no choice but to force you to be with me without showing how much I love you but slowly, I tried to change and show you how much I love you, what you mean to me but then he showed up. I had no choice but to break you apart.” I whispered, telling her what I faced all this time.
“That day...before our anniversary. I was happy to start things anew with you. I was delighted to have a normal life with you but then..”
“Henry gave me two choices; Break your hopes.. or else he will tell you everything and since I was insecure about it... I broke you.. I never wanted this to happen.. I am so sorry to ruin the day you were looking forward to... and after that you made the right decision and left me.” I cried, releasing the anguish I buried in my chest.
“A pathetic guy who couldn't even protect and love properly.. but after you left my life fell apart.. I cannot live without you Ester. I love you so much. Please don't leave me ever again.. I know what happened is my fault because I am a coward but now please be at my side Ester... I will be the perfect guy you dream of. I will do whatever you say just be with me..."
I buried my face in her neck more with my tears drenching her neck. I could feel her controlling herself to not cry but it was so hard for both of us. I held her shirt, not looking up as I whispered desperately.
"Please take me out from this swamp. Please save me.." I begged her to take me out of this deadly life, from this unbearable heartbreak and show me light of guidance. I cannot take it anymore.
"Please save me!" I cried, clutching her shirt between my fingers tightly, letting out my distress in the form of tears, breaking apart slowly and painfully, pleading to her to stop this pain. To put a halt to this fate of mine and let me live a normal life with her.
"Please don't cry Desmond. I will be your redemption. Don't worry. "
"There's nothing to be afraid of. I am here."
"I will heal your scars." She whispered sweet nothings to me, trying to put a halt to my continual cries and heartache. I tried to control my feelings but after such a long time, I had a shoulder to cry on and I wanted to let out my feelings. I want to take this all out.
The screeching sound which sucks my life, deafens me to the calls of liberation.
I want it all to stop and take me to the world where there's no good or bad, where the grace of light is another charm and the moment where I can close my eyes and say this is what I have been waiting for; Solace.
The next day, I slowly woke up to the chirping sound of birds, humming a certain melody and waking me up from the sudden deep slumber of mine.
The sleep filled with equanimity- exactly what I needed in this dire phase. I haven't been able to sleep peacefully at this time but now I think, after such a painfully long time, I was able to receive a lull. I am thankful for this life, to have her by my side.
I am glad that what Henry said was a lie and Ester decided to stick by my side even after knowing how much of a bad person I am. The content and benediction of having her divine presence beside me, helping me to get out from this endless devastation is beautiful.
The happiness of having my heart intertwined with hers and becoming one to receive immense power to overcome the biggest obstacle of my life and move ahead to a life of undying love.
The bond forged with unbreakable restraint of adore will never be broken, she is by my side. I have everything, my strength. I suddenly feel more powerful than anyone.
I slowly shifted and sat up. I looked at my side and saw no one. My eyes searched for the one but she was nowhere to be found.
After a few moments, I stood up and stretched my arms because they ached. I then freshened up and walked out of our room and saw Ester sitting on the couch, deep in thoughts. A smile came to my lips as I walked closer and called her,
"Morning, Ester." She turned to me and smiled brightly at me.
"Oh, Good Morning. How are you? I am sorry, I tried to shift you to bed but you are so heavy." She said nervously.
I chuckled and sat beside her. I held her hands in mine and rested my head on her shoulder. I remained like that, flawless to hold her hand.
The way her hands fit in mine, so perfectly- I love it. "Thank you, Ester.."
I spoke up finally after a while and kissed the back of her palm. She laughed off and replied, "For what?"
"For being at my side." I said sincerely.
"What are you saying? What faults do you have that I will leave you?" She said faintly, tracing her fingertips over the line on my palm.
"I guess my name is carved in your destiny." She said, moving her eyes to my hand.
"Not just in my destiny but in my everything." I replied, looking into her eyes.
"Just like you are in mine." She said, smiling at me. I hummed and called her, "Ester.."
"Hmm?"
"Now what?" I asked. I Want to know what we should do next.
"What?" She asked, not understanding what I was talking about.
"What are we going to do next?"
"What do we need to do? You let him manipulate you because you were afraid to let me know about it so now when I actually know, there's no need for you to restrict yourself to his orders.... and about this insecurity inside you..." She turned to me and cupped my cheek and smiled widely at me.
"One day... I will make you realize that it's not your fault." She said reassuringly and kissed my forehead. I felt secure when she kissed my forehead.
"Breakfast?" She asked. I nodded and we went to have breakfast. As we were eating our food in silence, Ester spoke up, "Desmond..."
"Yeah..?"
"Why is that girl helping Henry? Who is she in the first place?" She asked. "I don't know. She just told me her name it's Tamara White. God knows what she wants and why is she doing this."
"Do you think Henry has also tricked her?"
"Maybe."
"I think we should talk to her." She suggested.
"I don't even want to see her face after what she did." I said, getting angry.
"You cannot avoid it. We need to do it." Ester insisted.
I glared at her but she was eating her food and not even looking at me, "No." I said sternly.
"Fine then. I will meet her."
"Don't be stubborn Ester." She finally stopped eating and looked at me.
"Your rules ended long ago, Desmond la Corte. Shut up and let me do whatever I want." She smiled cutely.
My eyes went wide for a second to hear this from her. I didn't expect her to say this, the way she is developing slowly from that vulnerable girl to a strong girl, I really liked it.
"As you wish, My love." I said, laughing a little.
After breakfast, I left for work. A sudden boost of encouragement was given to me and nothing can break this strong wall of escort.
My broken instrument which produced lost sounds was found by her. The voice stuck inside me broke the silence, taking me to light as she became my shield, protecting me from the world of abhor and becoming my salvation.
I don't think anything could harm me anymore, there are no more fears inside me. This is the first time in my life when I smile this genuinely, after knowing her I came to know about the existence of my life. When I looked at her, my shattered life which was not even mine was offered to her.
I entered my workplace and took a deep sigh, it's been just a day and all this happened. I want to give Henry a good beating for doing this to me but I am thankful because of this I finally told Ester everything and there's no darkness between us anymore.
I looked around and saw Ester's purse. I picked it and put it aside and began to work. My mood is filled with vivid colors; full of life. I took my dairy and wore down,
Ester, Even if we live or not, I want to write the story of our love in the sky so this world will remember our tale forever..