I couldn't believe it when he just left me alone and left without saying anything. But why? I ran up and still paid the bill and when I got my car I got out in that rain.
And just remembering his face as I talked about our future, he was smiling and away. And that bitch.
Can't it be? Besides her is pregnant now he's running after.
I was driving so fast and thinking I was going to end all this. And I went straight to the office and at this point she would be, so I was going to watch her since I didn't know where she was from.
And when I get to the door of the building I stopped and breathing with air of hate and down my face to look. The rain took over the city, it was a flood and I waited and looking at the car clock I was scared to see the scene.
Enzo was opening the fucking car to her and still touched her waist all smiles. I almost faint when I see the scene and she laugh all melted. And when she was going in, he stroked her hand and I screamed:
"You bastard, I'm going to kill this bitch and then you'll see who your wife is."
There standing watching the scene I already took the first action, and it would be the right time, so I would end them both at once. Her and the bastard.
"Richard, I need you and don't give me any excuses.
"Calm down Cecilia and we've talked about your rudeness.
"And what about the old man I told you to find? And then you tell me I'm thick and these services are going to cost me.
"I've found it and stay calm. I know my obligations are in need of sex. He still laughs, thinks I'm joking. "What's the dirty job this time?
- I want to eliminate my enemy.
VALENTINA TOMMASO
Something was changing in Enzo; I saw his looks at me and I was embarrassed. I arrived before him and saw when he ran in the heavy rain and had wet hair and I laughed. After he picked me up from the service, he changed out of nowhere, he was angry, and he kept his mouth shut. I got scared when I saw him in front of me and waiting for me and when he opened the car door I ran out of action. I didn't understand anything.
But I know you left her to pick me up. You must be a beast with him and me, but I was glad to know he remembered me.
"Wow, what a rain!
"Did you walk? I laughed and he just got in the car, and we went home together and quietly.
He changed his mood too fast and there looking at the rain I was trying to understand the attitudes and when I look at him, I see that even he didn't understand. He seemed confused. We've been working all week and he's avoiding me and me doing the same thing. And actually, we lived in the same house and only had casual and cold dates. So, we were spending the days, avoiding the other. I realized he was late so I wouldn't meet him and I'd come home early so I wouldn't meet him. But on the weekend, it was day to meet his family and as he has not yet announced the divorce, it was a critical moment. I didn't even know how to behave and how to act before his family and even more so now that he's erased me from his memory.
Already in the car feeling dizzy and afraid of this weekend, I knew it was going to be difficult and I look at it and I can't take it, I say right away.
"I don't even know how to act in front of your family, Enzo. He shook his head and stared at me again as if he thought of something. "I'm serious, they're going to be asking a lot of questions.
He looked at me and said:
" Relax Valentina, let's be friends and forgot that we have committed to make it work.
"Yes, I know that, but that's okay. No, it's not that. What if she shows up there?
"No, she's not going to show up. It's a weekend with my family and you know my grandmother wants you to go. And for business, you better be there and not care about anything. We made a deal and we're going to stick to it.
"I will do my part and try to be friendly.
It didn't take long for us to arrive, and I was angry, but i smiled when I saw the whole smiling family waiting for us and grandma arrived, hugged me, kissed me, all smiling, passing love in my belly. And when I raise my face, she's behind his smiling parents and I look at Enzo. And his mother turned her face and went out to the pool calling the damn thing and I couldn't believe it.
I looked at Enzo and shook my head, not believing that she was going to be there and I still in denial wanting to kill the two who laughed and hugged all the time and I turn my face.
Today was going to be a rough day, but if she made me angry, I'd get my stuff and leave. But I wasn't going to stay, I can't believe they're acting like a couple, I was terrible, and I got so angry. I went out greeting everyone and I went to the kitchen, I was hungry and I still breathed filling my mouth with chicken pie. And I get scared when I see her in front of me and I leave the little plate on the iron table in the garden and look at the pool.
"There, you here? I didn't think you were invited.
"How can i not? I'm his wife, just to let you know.
"And I'm his fiancée and I'm getting married. Very pleased, ridiculous your attitude Valentina to running after male.
I still laughed in her face, tired of looking into this girl's face. I just ignored her and left her alone. I sat from the coast to the pool and was talking to Enzo who told me about Carol. And they were very excited.
"But when you go introduce her to the family, don't say she's my friend, because if you say so, they'll hate her. Just like your mother hates me.
"My mother doesn't hate you; she just gets jealous because she thinks Cecilia is the best option for her beloved son. That's the truth.
Yes, I’m sorry. And why didn't he marry her before?
"Even I don't know. I wanted to understand both, but it's complicated the relationship of these two. But tell me how you're doing.
"We're going, we made a deal, now we're not going to fight or split up now. We have a few things in common to work out and then we're going to sign the divorce.
"And I've already told her not to divorce him. Grandma comes hugging me and he laughed. "Don't sign and make him put up with you.
"You should both try to understand each other, right? He said laughing.
Valentina is a hardhead.
"Have you seen what I have to put up with? She's out there, playing his fiancée, she's getting married and he's all licking her. So, there's no way anymore and it's already decided.
"Be patient dear. She's going to fall apart soon. Because I'm sure Enzo loves you. And don't be thinking these things aren't good for you.
I looked again, they were there, the two talked and laughed. I got so angry and went to the kitchen. I was I couldn't go for a piece of chocolate cake. And when I arrived, she came and surrounded me and with the little plate in her hand. And she said horrible things. And I tried to get out and she wouldn't let her put the body in front.
Do you think it's a match for me? The addicted father, a prostitute mother and his daughter sell themselves for a few bucks. When she said that I couldn't stand it, I flew around her neck with everything and she was trying to let go and she was screaming,
"Let me go, let me go, you're hurting me.
Making it scandalous for him to look. And I just turned my face and pushed her again and she stuck me, and we both fell into the pool. And I tried to struggle, and I tried to get out and she held me with her leg under the water. And I was drowning, and I was breathing without force, and I saw that he jumped into the pool. I couldn't believe he saved her. I shook my head when I saw Henrique pulling me out of the pool with everything. And he looked at me and he said, and he still made an ugly face with a face of denial. And from what I see, he blamed me for it.
Is everything all right? Henry said.
I'll swing my head and grandma already gives me a towel and she's still screaming and telling her lies.
Damn, what a hate I got from him I hated him desperately and I knew I couldn't count on Enzo for anything anymore.
"She pushed me, Enzo. She said she was your wife and that I was an intruder, that I had to leave. She pushed me, she did it on purpose, you saw that she was the one who surrounded me, didn't she, me. And she was screaming and talking, and I shook my head and I stared, and he looked at me.
"What happened? I'm disappointed in you Valentina.
I just turned my face and looked at him, shook my head in denial and left in anger. And Grandma came with me, held my hand and said.
"Calm down Valentina, it's going to be all right, my child, let's go upstairs.
She climbed up with me, when I arrived in the room, I cried desperately in anger at what happened. I was hurt by her words and Enzo's attitudes towards me.
"she said I sold myself to him for a few bucks, she doesn't know half my life, Grandma. And she said those things.
"What did she say, really, dear?
"She said my father was an addict, my mother was a prostitute, and I sold myself for a few bucks. She teases me all the time, she says horrible things to me, and I still have to keep accepting? I don't believe it, she's a, she's bad.
"I know that my child. I've known this girl a long time, I always told Enzo she was worthless. But you're blind, you know how blind men are, but you don't care, we're going to take care of it and you're not leaving.
"I want to go away, Grandma, I want to gather my things and go away, get out of here I can't take it anymore. You see, he's there licking her while I'm here being humiliated.
It was all right, perfect, I was going to my parents' house, I was going to have a quiet day, but everything had to go wrong, it had to be like this, because Valentina has to get in trouble? She's cynical, I don't know what else to think. I look at her and I see a girl so sweet, so good and out of nowhere the girl has become aggressive, it has become quarrelsome, and I do not know why, do not know what else to do. I try to calm Cecilia down, but so does she when she's skeptical about something. And I feel like going to talk to Valentina, but at that moment I feel insecure and end up with Cecilia.
"I told you, come in with the papers, because she didn't even need to be here, I'm your fiancée, are we together or are you with her? I can't believe you let her do this to me?
"Cecilia arrives, you're making too much scandal, for nothing. Let's try to stay calm, look at me, think to me, let's not get in trouble. She takes my hand and laughs. "Valentina is helping me, she's going through a tough time, so you need to be patient.
"Patience nothing, you who should know that she's a slut, and keeps hitting on everybody, and I don't even want to know, I told you to call off this wedding and you nothing. She was talking to each other, and I was there listening and trying to find my mistake. "What have you done? You're just stalling there so you don't want this divorce, you don't want me, you keep saying that you love me and that I'm the woman of your life, but you're married to her.
"I told you, I've already checked in, look at me, you're the woman I want, why keep fighting? Never, I'll talk to Valentina later, we'll spend a quiet day with family. Boy, I told you not to come, it was going to be something for the family and she was going to come. I knew you'd get in trouble with her.
"You mean you're preferring her to me? Do you hear what you just said, Enzo? I can't believe you did it, you're telling me that. You're just saying you'd rather she came than me.
"No, Cecilia, see if you can understand me, that's not what I meant. And all for my grandmother who makes sure she comes, so you better not get in trouble, please. Try to understand, it's my fucking family.
"You give much consideration to this family that ignores you. She's already started to come out and I'm looking.
"Where are you going, Cecilia?
"I'm leaving, since you prefer it. Stay with her, do good, enjoy.
"Cecilia, please stay.
She left and I didn't know what to do because Valentina is my wife on paper. But Cecilia is the woman I love. And why am I feeling so bad about saving Cecilia? And not Valentina, I don't understand. The day went by, and I couldn't have fun anymore, or talk to anyone anymore. And the only thing I wanted was to lie down and forget that all that happened. Valentina locked herself in her room and never went down. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I didn't want to talk. I still tried to talk to her, but she wouldn't. And Cecilia's gone. And I was alone again. I took my bottle of whiskey and went into the room and kept talking, between conversations with the glass and the drink. And thinking about what I was going to do. But I had nowhere to run. I had nowhere to start. All I needed was to get my memory back. But how was I supposed to do that? I fell asleep in my thoughts.
I hear voices and the background dark and everyone screams and I enter in despair when I see her in the water. I took a deep breath, and jumped into the pool. And I was already with her in my arms, I still look into her eyes and she was barely breathing and I became desperate.
― Valentina?
I didn't think anything of anything I took her out of the pool and she still fainted, and I breathed on her lips and I feel soft and I confess I wanted to stand there stuck to her lips. And I hear your voice.
― Enzooooo...
I wake up scares the image of her in my arms. And when I looked, my hands were sweating, shaking. I put my hand on my face and saw that I was all sweaty and I was remembering the dream and I saved Valentina and not Cecilia.
"I need my memory back."
After the weekend I had to look for answers and I couldn't wait any longer for it to come from heaven. I ran out of work after a hard day, and I get to the office and remember what I dreamed. I couldn't understand if it was a dream or my mind screaming telling me the facts.
"What do you hear this time, Mr. Moretti?
"I don't know if I dreamed, or my mind was telling me a fact that happened in the past and I saw it sharp in front of me.
- That's natural and you’ll slowly see it in front of you.
"I want to do hypnosis again.
"We won't be able to continue with hypnosis and it can damage your brain.
"Why is that?
"Because you're blocked. This lock it comes automatically, understand? Slowly. Then you have to be patient. Take a deep breath and let it happen slowly. You can't think you're going to be able to get your memory back overnight. He spoke and my will was to rip out his tongue that was of no use to me. "It's something that comes slowly. It's like a headache. You don't take pain medication and it will pass slowly. So that's how it happens. Did you understand??
I sat there listening to him talk and saying that it would damage me, that it would hurt me, that I wasn't going to make it. That hit my mind. What do you mean I wasn't going to make it? I was going to make it. I wasn't going to stand by without a memory. I was sure of that. I looked at him again, shook my head and said:
"I'm going to make it. It may take a year, two years, but I'm going to make it.
"Go back to the places you're used to going and let it happen.
"I am a Moretti and I never give up.
I left the office, and I was thoughtful, and I was going to do it. Passing by the office, I went home, and I wanted to throw myself in my bed and forget what I heard. But that weekend kicked my wishes and I really want my life back. And when I get home I see that she wasn't there and I sit over drinking juice and I saw a cake at the little table and I sit next to it and start eating and laughing.
"She must have bought it because she can't bake cake. It struck me a sadness to know that I had no way forward. "I'm alone in this.