She started saying those barbarities, throwing everything in my face, like I was nothing to her, like I never existed and that I had just been a bank account to pay her debts, her bills, that's it. I felt like crap at that moment, when she looked into my eyes, without stuttering, and said she had no feelings for me. I can't believe it. After all this we've lived through our moments together, I can't believe we had no feelings. When I touch her, it's like I feel her skin burn, I see her eyes tear, I feel the love came out of the skin out of the pores, and now she comes up with this story, I don't believe it. She's sitting in front of me, tied up, and I said it again.
"You never loved me, that was the truth.
"It was never love, Enzo, but a contract.
When she said that, I wanted to take the evidence and see if it was true, because if she didn't love me, she won't feel anything. I approached her, I put my hand on her hair, my eyes watered with tears, I almost cried, and I felt like I was going to die there at that moment. I was in pieces, like I was losing my own life, and I kissed her, sucking all her lips, and all the air out of her lung, feeling the taste of her mouth.
I felt your lips in mine at that moment, it was like I was in a floating paradise. I could taste your mouth after all this time, I needed that kiss, that touch. When I felt like she was trying to push me with her lips, and I feel it when she passed her tooth with everything and bit me. I felt the taste of the blood coming from my lips and I walked away. I ran my fingertips on my lips and saw that it hurt. And she shook her head in anger.
"Did Valentina really end?
She looked at me angrily and said:
"I've never heard anything; it was just a deal. And I was so angry, with so much hate, with so much anguish, with so much sadness in my soul, I untied her and looked at her again without understanding what was happening. And I let her go. She even stopped at the bedroom door and said:
"Don't make me hate Enzo anymore.
And she left and I was distressed, and I still soothed the lookout with everything. I still walked from side to side, looking at her things, which was still on the bed, looking at the doors, portrait, and didn't believe it, I threw everything on the floor. I broke everything there, and when I saw the papers, which was my copy, I signed it and without thinking twice. And the only thing I wanted was to dig a hole and get in. It was like I was dead. I don't know what was happening to me. I've been feeling bipolar too much, at the same time I want something, I don't want it anymore. I don't know how to think or how to act anymore. I've had moments of frustration, fear, anguish, despair. I put my hand in my hair and look at those clothes thrown; I still smell her.
I can't do it. I couldn't let her leave without trying the last letter I had.
I ran and talked to my grandmother. She still knew everything that was going on and wasn't going to let her leave without first saying everything. She just signed a divorce, Grandma.
"I want to talk to her.
And that's what I did and ran to the guest room. And before she left and left, she was picking up some stuff from the guest room.
"My grandmother wants to talk to you.
"Please, Enzo, don't use people for our problems.
"I'm not using anyone.
And she just shook her head of denial. And he said he didn't walk around.
I hear her hear it with all the letters when I've got the glass of whiskey in my hand. I still face my back to her.
"Grandma's not finished... And we don't have anything else to try. Hearing your harsh words and I saw she didn't want to come back.
"I don't accept any of this for myself anymore. It's goodbye to all this. And thank you so much, ma'am, for everything you've done for me. And I'm saying goodbye to the Moretti family.
I saw it in her eyes, when she said goodbye to my grandmother, that she almost cried, she held back tears. I know how much she's suffering, but I also know how much I'm suffering. I'm very selfish, but I don't want to lose her. She just shook her head and said:
"Goodbye Grandma, thank you for everything. She threw the phone on the couch, and she left. When she left, I couldn't stand it, I couldn't stand to know she was going and I ran up to the elevator and she had already come down, I ran after her. I wanted to stop her from saying goodbye to me, I wanted to be with her, and I was going to beg and say how much I want her in my life. And when I get to the front desk, I see her hugging him and she gets in the car and I stood there, destroyed looking as she left me and left with him.
VALENTINA TOMMASO
I came out of there devastated, with my heart exploding, unhappy, sad, because I knew what I was doing. It wasn't things I wanted to do, but my mind made me do it, because it would be the best thing for me. Enzo just brought me unhappiness, I was unhappy with him. Horrible things have happened in my life, I lost my son, my mother, I lost my dignity, I was humiliated. And now I need to recover, I need to find myself again. I look at Noah next to me, he's a great man, but he's not the man I want. I want to be alone; I need me. He held my hand and smiled.
"I'm here, for whatever comes and goes. This is all going to go away and when you look back, you're going to give me a big smile and you're going to say to me, you were right, Noah, you understand? He was affectionate and good for me. "Then look forward and I'll help you.
"I want to start my life over; I want to start over from nothing. I don't want to hurt you, I like you very much, but I can't get involved with anyone right now. And I know you're helping me with second thoughts.
"Why do you think that?
"Because Enzo said that you are worthless and that he has unmade society with you, because you were cheating.
"It wasn't like that, Valentina, what happened. Things between us is much more than that, but he preferred to stay with Cecilia's family company, that was the truth. He doesn't mean it, but that was the truth. But we already have new projects and as for the projects he has, we have others. Did you know that the idea of deploying the wedding dress and fashion models with the jewels was my family, our company? He started telling everything differently. "They stole our idea, but I'm not going to fight about it either. My father just took our jewelry out of his company, and we started ours again without them. Actually, we had a very great loss when we undid society with them, but we started over. And today we're in a different segment, we're making our jewelry, and they don't just design. I stared and realized there was a lot I didn't know. " Enzo messes with clothes and other segments and mixed the jewelry.
" He has great designs, he understands the colors well and that's how I started working there and they took me out of the designs to stay in the colors and fabric palettes.
"But I know you have a portfolio of jewelry, and wonderful.
As you know. Because he was introduced once at the meeting, and he didn't accept.
When he said that, I didn't believe him, and I kept remembering the conversation with my boss after that meeting.
"My father loved your portfolio. We can add to our portfolio and make a great team, what do you think? And so, you start your life over. And another thing, I'm going to help you get an apartment and you're going to have your own life. And then you won't depend on any man, and I won't be getting in your way. And how many second intentions. He smiled. "I really have second thoughts. Who wouldn't? You're a wonderful woman.
"Liar, you are special in my life.
"So, we're going to have dinner and so we talk about work. And can I ask you for a favor? He said smile.
Yes, I’m sorry. And all the favors.
"Then don't cry anymore. Try to leave Enzo in the back and start over.
"I promise I will do my best. But I'm going on a trip, and then we're going to work together. I need to get my ideas in order and make sure my whole past doesn't hurt me.
"You deserve this time alone, Valentina. And I'll be here waiting for you.
And goodbye Enzo, I want my life back.