How can I be so stupid? why I leave my bag in the car? I Know archard took it to Blackmail me.
I don't known now how I will get it back? ohhh Aisling where you are stuck now.
I was waiting for him, my eyes was stuck on the clock and door.
I was hopping the time will pass quickly and he came back. This wait was not less than a cruse for me.
The time was passing slowly! it was still 3 o'clock. My eyes were start getting low, Night rolls around and after a time the sandman comes to heavy my lids. I feel the shuttering of my synapses, the quite lure into sleepiness. As each limb becomes heavy and my heart slows to a more peaceful beat, the comfort of bed calls.
I have always felt a serenity upon sleeping. I love my bed. I love to dream. I love the moments between wakefulness and sleep. The feeling of my brain shifting gears is so sweet with nervousness.
I was feeling dozy which was closing my eyes, than I gaze over the clock and it was 4 o'clock of night still he is absent.
AFTER FEW MINUTES, I heard stepping voice which was coming from outside.
I quickly moved towards it and opened the door before he knocked. I saw he was standing in front of me holding his black leather jacket.
" YOU ARE STILL UP?"
" YES I'M ACTUALLY I'M NOT FEELING GOOD ENOUGH. "
" WHAT HAPPENED? "
" OHH ACTUALLY I LOST MY IMPORTANT THING. "
" WHAT? "
" MY RED LETTER!"
" I DON'T GET THAT CAN YOU REPEAT IT AGAIN "
" A RED LETTER WHICH WAS IN MY BAG! "
" AHHH I KNEW IT YOU WILL DEFINITELY ASK FOR IT. IS IT IMPORTANT TO YOU. "
we walked inside the house. He was looking different from last night. I was thinking that how he knew about red letter.
" Yes it is important for me? can you please tell me where is it. "
" yes sure! I have the red letter I took it from your bag. "
" But why ? why you do that? "
" Because I want some kind of deal. "
" Deal? what kind of deal I don't get your point. Tell me what you want ? why you get it out. "
" DEAL ! wait a minute I will tell you everything. "
My heart was beating fast that I could not figure out what he was actually trying to do? what kind of deal he wants? he went to the drawing room and sit over the sofa, he was looking relaxed, his attitude was changed.
My jaw dropped, eyes widening in disbelief, as if a sudden jolt of electricity had coursed through my veins leaving them momentarily stunned. My hand flew to my mouth, muffling an involuntary gasp. His unexpected surprise stole the air from my lungs, leaving my breathless.
She stumbled back, losing her footing for a brief moment, her body rocked by the sheer force of the unexpected revelation.
My heart skipped a beat, a palpable pause that reverberated through my chest.
I was thinking about him that how this guy changed. I can see his evilness from his eyes.
He sit in the cross positive and said with attitude; " HAVE A SEAT?"
" I'M OKAY HERE TELL ME WHAT US IN YOUR MIND NOW?"
" FIRST SIT ON THE COUCH AND THAN I WILL TELL YOU EVERYTHING."
I looked backward and sited over the single sofa. He was staring me like there is a something wrong.
" WHAT YOU NEED? WHERE IS THE LETTER."
" OHHH RELAX THERE IS A NO REASON FOR THE PANIC YOU NEED TO CLAM DOWN."
" TELL ME WHERE IS MY LETTER. "
" I WANT TO OFFER YOU SOMETHING
WHICH IS GOOD FOR YOU AND YOUR FUTURE. "
" WHAT?"
" NEXT MONTH THERE IS AN MATING CEREMONY IN MY FAMILY RITUAL. EVERYONE IS FORCING ME TO CHOOSE VALENTINA AS MY MATE. I DON'T WANT TO MARRY HER AND NOT WANT TO CHOOSE HER AS MY MATE. I WANT TO CHOOSE YOU AS MY MATE IN FRONT OF THEM. "
" VALENTINA? HOW YOU KNOWN HER? "
" Valentina's FAMILY IS OUR FAMILY FRIENDS AND THEY ARE FORCING ME TO ACCEPT HER. "
I was thinking how she again came in my life in different shape. I don't know. how I will fix it out but right now I'm in front of his fiance.
" SORRY I CAN'T HELP YOU OUT. I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY TO DEAL WITH IT. PLEASE GIVE ME MY LETTER SO I CAN LEAVE THIS PLACE."
He start laughing on me and said;
" YOU THINK YOU CAN EASILY TAKE IT BACK LISTEN YOU POOR LITTLE OMEGA. I'M NOT HERE TO ASK YOU PERMISSION I'M JUST TELLING YOU DECISION. YOU WILL BE WITH ME TOMORROW MORNING AT MY HOUSE TO MEET MY FAMILY AND NEXT WEEK AT CEREMONY I WILL CHOOSE YOU AS MY MATE. THIS IS MY DECISION AND YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT IT IF YOU WANT TO SAFE HIM. "
" HIM? WHAT DO YOU MEAN MY HIM. "
" I THINK YOU ALREADY UNDERSTAND ME. "
He stand up from his seat and walked towards me. He grab my hand and moved towards the upstairs. I was screaming; " please don't do it archard I trust you. you can't do it with me."
" I can do whatever I wanted."
he pushed me towards the room and throw me inside the room. He said before closing the door.
" GET READY FOR TOMORROW."
" PLEASE DON'T DO IT? PLEASE ARCHARD PLEASE DON'T DO IT?"
He closed the door over my face, I was thinking that where I stuck! I already knew that he is the monster in wolf body now see my prediction about him was right. There are times that my emotions feel bruised, and the same way as with a physical bruise, they take time to come up and really show themselves. Yet in this time I have a chance to mitigate them, reduce them, render them more manageable.
I cried in a low moan, My eyes were prickling with tears, I cried in exasperation, I cried furiously, I cried bitter tears, I never thought someone can be that much brutal, I felt a sting of melancholy and confusion, I thought may be he was talking about dad? or may be azalaic? I don't known what I should do now? but wait a minute Aisling is he really read a letter?
What was inside? may be there was a informing about azalaic? what should I do now?
I felt a great wrench of sadness, my heart twisted tears pool my eyes. A great sense of weariness sweeps over me sucking my energy with it. I'm stuck in the hell.
" ALPHA GODDESS PLEASE HELP ME OUT."
Everything and everyone shows me that all will be okay, but I'm anxious. It comes as an electrical storm in my brain that, quite honestly, is painful. It's different from a headache and it feels the same as intense sorrow, perhaps as a sort of frozen panic with nowhere to go. So though I appear calm, my sad eyes are saying far more than "Help me," I'm saying to myself that my soul is in such unbearable pain and all for the lack of real love. I don't known what to do? how I will handle Valentina again?
VALENTINA ( POV )
Feeling bitter is a failure to love yourself, to see my own emotions with true clarity. For when I do, though I have been hurt so very much, there is the serenity that makes moving onwards possible, that opens new doors to new loves and new chances for myself growth. My battle is always with myself, to become my better self. So, love myself, become sweeter and I will be okay.
If I saw my self in trouble I just don't know if I'd help. I imagine you dangling from a high-rise tower and the only thing between you and certain death is my outstretched hand. You throw me out from your heart archard and it is not the way I ended this story.
I was raised in love and peace, taught to show grace and forgive, but when my mind turns to you none of it is there. You knew what you were doing. I suffered and you drank it like a fine wine, becoming intoxicated on your own power. All I feel is bitterness and with each passing year it grows like a tumour, pushing on the side of me that was serene, enveloping me in toxic darkness.
I walked to my home without wasting time, the dinner was already over. Mother was fully drunk she was even struggling to stand.
Father somehow managed her to take her in the room. I was already in the tension.
I went to my room, one thing was irritating me that what is archard is planning now? what he is actually trying to do? what is in his mind? how gonna I found that girl? where is he hiding her? there is a lot of questions which is constantly running in my head. I can't stay here waiting for his next move. I have to known who is that girl which he will introduce to his family.
I don't known where I will find her.
I thought may be I will find her name on the hospital record, may be I will find her house address.
It could work but I don't know the name of the hospital. I remind my friend word's that he knew the hospital name.
I quickly called her but her number was powered off which was another tension. I don't Known where would I found her, I quickly called my childhood friends Elsa;
" HELLO VALENTINA HOW ARE YOU?"
" FINE AND YOU? "
" I'M FINE WHAT ARE YOU DOING THESE DAYS WHERE IS OUR WHOLE GROUP. "
" ACTUALLY WE ARE AT VACATION, YOU WANT TO JOIN US. "
" VACATION? WHERE I MEAN I WANT TO LOOK FORWARD FOR Lisa BUT SHE IS MISSING. IS SHE WITH YOU? "
" Lisa! SHE IS WITH HER FINANCE JACOBSEN. "
" SO ANY CONTACT NUMBER? "
" NO WE DON'T HAVE ! "
" Ohhh ANY CONTACT NUMBER OF JACOBSEN? "
" NO WE DON'T HAVE SORRY VALENTINA. "
" NO ITS ABSOLUTELY OKAY. "
" NO IT'S ABSOLUTELY OKAY I WILL FIND HER."
" ANYTHING SPECIAL? WHY ARE YOU FINDING HER."
" ACTUALLY NECT WEEK THERE IS A MATING CEREMONY IN THE ROYAL FAMILY OF THE DARK WOLVES PACK. YOU KNOWN ARCHARD WILL CHOOSE ME AS HIS MATE. "
" OHHH CONGRATULATIONS AS WE WERE EXPECTING HE WILL DEFINITELY CHOOSE YOU. YOU ARE POWERFUL ALPHA OF BLUE LUNER PACK."
" THANKS ELSA BUT I'M INVITING YOU HERE. "
" YES SURE WE WILL DEFINITELY COME OUR WHOLE GROUP WILL BE THERE. "
" OHHH THANKS MY LOVE. "
" OKAY WE WILL TRIED TO CONTACT WITH LISA IF WE WILL MEET WITH HER ANYWHERE I WILL DEFINITELY GIVE INVITATION TO HER . "
" OKAY THANK YOU I'M BLESSED FROM MY FRIENDS SIDE. THANK YOU ELSA. "
" YOU TOO OKAY I WILL TALK TO YOU LATER. "
I hang-up the call and my all hope we're dying in the black sea. Now what I will do? may be tomorrow at the dinner I will see her that who is actually? but wait a minute archard is a clever boy. He known what exactly he is doing? I don't think so he will allow me to meet her. He will definitely not invite me.
ohhh Valentina think something, you have to figure it out that how you gonna make it out.
I will do something different this time. I went to the bathroom to took shower, I looked forward to myself in the mirror.
I told myself " Are you setting the scene for a good future or cold retribution, for one builds your capacity for love and creativity, for real intelligence, the other is a pathway to emotional indifference, ever the sever swap of evil deeds. You revenge is an ugly thing but it will give you peace which you are looking for a time. It think it's gonna sound selfish and
rude but I am seriously at a point of
my life where being in good terms
with everyone doesn't matter me the
most but what does is being in peace
with myself, understand my thoughts,
process them, feel them and filter
them. And whoever you are if you are
giving me bad vibes, I really don't want to talk to you. I can't vibe it alone,
Just go and before saying anything that you exactly don't know what you are feeling to the world, try to understand yourself first I guess. For past few year I don't really think that I was emotionally or mentally in peace with myself, but during this lockdown time period I think I have achieved that
more over let's say I have understood
that it's okay to not be okay all the
time, but also to remember that nothing you are going through is permanent and everything will be okay. And you need to surround yourself with the best people you have got. And never let others depressive shit to get into your system, sis filter it, let it out. Whatever, but Just so happy."
I remember when azalaic runaway from our wedding day.
FLASHBACK:
I was getting ready for my big day, it was our wedding day. As like every women I wanted to look like a princess, a goddess alpha. My wedding dress could have been made for royalty. That's how my friends make the gowns around here. They aren't new! What a waste of effort that would be for one day! We make the perfect Cinderella-Princess gowns and the brides come for a fitting. It's a dream-dress for a dream-day with my own Prince Charming. We are the dream-makers. It's what we were born to do. Folks in these parts do what folks did for many-a-decade. The wedding dress is a pretty dress that becomes the gal's Sunday and special event dress. I don't waste anything around here, and a great dress, that's for feeling good in. My wedding dress was blue jeans and a white t-shirt, yet I was the most beautiful bride any of us had ever seen. I was placed a large daisy in her hair and high healed shoes upon my feet. Best of all was the smile upon face but things never worked out in a way which I was expected.
I was putting earing, I looked forward toy bridesmaid and said;
" HOW I'M LOOKING? TELL ME GIRLS."
" YOU LOOK PERFECT! AN HEAVENLY BRIDE WHICH IS DIRECTLY CAME FROM ALPHA GODDESS PALACE. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW SHOULD I DESCRIBE YOUR BEAUTY. "
" YOU THINK AZALAIC WILL LIKE IT? "
" Of Course HE WILL LOVE IT. YOU ARE LOOKING WAY TOO BEAUTIFUL THAN YOU ARE EXPECTING. HE WILL DEFINITELY LIKE IT."
" ARE YOU SERIOUS? "
" Of Course I'M SERIOUS. "
I was looking into a mirror and everything was seems like a dream, I falling in love with you was the easy part, it's admitting to myself that it happened that's hard. You see I've had these very efficient defences for so long and you didn't even notice them. How rude. I guess they were meant for others and you had your own door. I could ask why, but what's the point? You're here and I'm so glad, even if I'm sometimes hiding, imagining a distance instead of seeing you right there. My heart door is opened for him and now I will choose him as my mate and he will choose me as his soulmate.
I was happy with my heart and nobody known that I will face a drama, a pain of betray from my love ones.
Suddenly a door opened up and my friend Isabella was moving in rush. She looked forward to me. She was holding a letter and was in panic mood, their breath came in shallow gasps, chest rising and falling rapidly as if the weight of their fear threatened to suffocate them, her heart hammered against her ribcage, a thunderous beat that reverberated through her body, matching the rhythm of her escalating panic.
I asked;
" WHAT JUST HAPPENED TO YOU? "
She was looking nervous but than she said something which break my heart,
My heartbreak is grief that comes in waves, gruelling, stealing appetite and sleep alike. It is a shard in my guts that never leaves, though perhaps in time the edges will dull. It feels like death just the same as bereavement and in quiet moments it chokes the breath from my body and short circuits my mind.
" WHAT HAPPENED CAN YOU TELL ME ?"
she handover me letter and start crying;" HE RUNAWAY WITH AISLING. HE LEFT YOU FOR HER."
I quickly opened the letter. and start reading it.
LETTER:
"Dear Valentina:
I known after reading this letter you will feel the pain because your all hopes will die, I know you tried hard to get me but you don't know that I will always be with Aisling. I can't marry you, you tried hard to sperate us but you never be successful in it. You think you can trap me but you were wrong Valentina. I will always neglect your mistake but this is enough. I am leaving you forever.
I act like l don't care. Like nothing
can hurt me. I put up this big wall of
toughness and pretend everything is
fine. Like l don't need somebody's
"affection" but in reality I think I am just
too scared. Scared of not being good
enough. Or of getting hurt. Scared of
letting someone in. Maybe even afraid.
Afraid of the possibility of being loved by
someone who will eventually let me down. I'm leaving you forever I will never see you back.
I was afraid that my heart will break into a million pieces because I gave my all to
someone who promised they wouldn't hurt me and she will be always with me. I feel in love with you.
I always thought that you are the one who always betray behind me but that's the thing. You will never know the outcome unless you take a chance. So embrace the chance worth taking my Worth. I'm getting marry to you.
I closed the letter and my tears fall down. I sit over my knee and looked towards the letter and promised myself that I will take revenge from Aisling and thought that I will never look back. I will marry to the most powerful alpha.
PRESENT:
I was always feel dishearten when he leave me in the middle of our wedding. Aisling ruined my love life, he took him away from me which was a betray.
Both broke my heart after seeing together.
Heartbreak is evidence that I loved in good faith but they don't love me back, that I made the kind of bond that hurts so very much to break. Yet in the pride that I did it right, that I was honest and loved with such integrity, is the start of my healing, for self respect is required. I leaved them and thought everything will be okay after I will found someone else as my mate.
Since your love turned to poison, my mind cycles through emotions faster than a kid flipping radio channels. I've gone from level to bad ass to a a mixture of competing emotions, each of them vying for dominance, I learned that whatever will happen I will set myself in the first priority, I will do everything to make myself happy and in my life if I meet again with Aisling and azalaic I will ruined there life. After the reboot of sleep I am calm, the day stretching ahead with possibilities - time to get jobs done, connect with friends, enjoy nature. Yet this coping is a thin veil over trauma and even the smallest of set backs change my emotional landscape. By evening the sadness wells up, uncertainty rushing to the fore, and I know it is time to sleep. How the crazy dreams stitch my head back together I haven't a clue, it's a new miracle every night. I dreamed to take revenge. I dreamed to make there life hell. I always dreamed to see them alone.
ARCHARD ( POV )
I throw her inside the room and locked the door. As I know she is omega. she can break the door easily and run away. I have to stop her by putting something.
Omega are afraid from the height's so if I kept her in the top tower room than she will never escape out.
I ordered to Aldi to move her in the tower room. She said;
" No problem boss I will do it."
Now in front of me there is an other problem which was far more big than it.
I called to Cleo, he picked up with dozy voice;
" HELLO?"
" HELLO BOSS YES TELL ME NOW WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU? WHY YOU ARE CALLING ME IN NIGHT."
" ARE YOU SLEEPING!"
" YEAH I'M SLEEPING BECAUSE ALPHA GOD BLESS US THE NIGHT FOR THE SLEEPING. "
" YOU IDIOT I'M IN A PROBLEM YOU HAVE TO HELP ME. "
" OHH WAIT A MINUTE! ARCHARD YOU ALWAYS STUCK IN A PROBLEMS TELL ME ANYTHING NEW. "
" NEW THINGS IS, I GIVE OFFER TO HER."
" AHHH THAT IS A GOOD! NOW YOU BRUTAL MEN HANDLE IT CAREFULLY I WILL COME TO YOU TOMORROW MORNING. "
" DO YOU HAVE A RED LETTER WHICH I GAVE YOU? "
" YES I HAVE THE LETTER AND IT IS IN THE SAFE PLACE. "
" OKAY THANKS."
" OKAY GOOD NIGHT NOW. "
I hang-up the call and looked forward to the room where she was locked. I have to pressurize her to accept my offer.
There is no other option, she must have to accept it.
I walked towards the tower room where she was locked. My inner devil was keep saying me, you have to use your powers, you have to force her, you can't leave her, there is no other chance left for you, you have to make it out.
I was taking small steps upward but something was strange. I reached out to her door step and knocked the door.
I unlock the door and went inside. she was sitting over her knee and crying.
She looked forward to me.
" YOU ARE DEVIL I WAS RIGHT ABOUT YOU."
I took few steps towards and;" YES I'M DEVIL WHO WANTS ANGEL FAVOR. PLEASE ANGEL HELP ME OUT "
I start laughing on her but she was not feeling afraid. she looked into my eyes with anger; " I THINK YOU ARE FORGETTING I AM NOT YOUR SO CALLED SLAVE I'M A A FREE OMEGA AND YOU CAN'T FORCE ME. "
" OHH PLEASE! THERE IS A LOT OF THING WHICH YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT IT."
" YOU ARE MAD! YOU ARE EVIL. YOUR THOUGHTS ARE EVIL. YOU HAVE A DEMON."
I start laugh on her " Do you really thing that it will help you out? it will really help you to safe me?"
" yes I believe in it I known what I'm thinking."
" I think you are forgetting about your sister and father! your so called happy family. "
" What do you mean? "
" I'm saying I will kill your family! no no I will only kill your innocent sister I believe that you only love her, ohhh wait a minute your red letter which you don't read it. "
" what you need tell me? what you need where is the letter. You don't known how important it is for me "
" I known I already read it. I know what was inside it so my darling Aisling you have to accept my offer if you really wanted to keep your Hope alive. "
" Please don't do it.. "
I was thinking that may be my pressure is working I knew she will gets agree on my words but she will accept it because she don't want to hurt her family and so called mate.