I'm so fond of him that I wasn't thinking about the other things that may affect us because of my sudden and impulsive decisions. I just knew that it's him that is all I ever wanted. This is life, it's not just about the two of us.
I woke up having the feeling of waking up from a short nap. I still feel tired and light headed, but my mind felt refreshed by that short nap. It was the best nap I ever had in my life.
The first thing I saw was my hand that’s resting on his chest and the white blanket covering our bodies. I smiled lightly. It's not a dream. I looked up with my drowsy eyes and there, I saw the Greek god with his eyes shut. I lightly caressed his chest and immediately opened his eyes softly, like he was not asleep at all. Is he awake the whole time?
"Sleep more," he uttered with his bedroom voice.
I looked at him full of adoration. I brought my palm to his jaw and stroked it. My heart beat exhilarated as I thought of the things that had happened a while ago. I gave myself to him. I gave myself to the only man who's deserving of me.
"I dreamed of you," I said hoarsely. "You told me you love me."
His jaw moved as he stared at me with his deep almond shaped eyes. His thumb went to the tip of my nose and glided it to my cheeks. I can't read his emotions nor his thoughts. All that matters to me now was that I'm with him and we're alone.
"I expect you to run away. Why are you still here?" he said.
My smile disappeared. I don't even remember that reason. I don't know if I should be hurt knowing that he only did this with me to prove something, while I treasure every bit of it because I did it with him, for the first time.
"Your worst is the best part of you, Erato. I loved you even more." I said and brushed my lips to his.
I closed my eyes and kissed his tatts on his fingers. I did it like I'm kissing the god that will save me. When I opened my eyes I could see his eyes softened when I did that. My smile returned now that I see him like this, he seems thirsty and drunk with my kisses.
"You're not ready for this. You're not for this." he said emphatically. I chuckled bitterly. I know what he is referring to.
"Do I look like I did this to convince you to marry me? To use me?" I asked. His jaw twitched and he didn't answer.
"I can do this without getting anyone involved. I'm not afraid of reaching the low of lows. I'm fucked up anyways," he said rudely.
"Shhh," I put my index finger to his lips. "You're not fucked up. You're way too high up that I can't even reach you."
He blinked in response. I try to hide my smile because of his expression that makes him even more handsome. My Mr. Sulky is so handsome.
"You adore me too much, Jade."
Is it only now that he found out? I chuckled in my mind.
"Can you just fuck me again?"
His gaze was intense when I said that. I laughed. I'm just kidding, but I don’t mind.
"Why are you so serious? Come on! Are you afraid that this will affect your relationship with your fiance?"
"Do I look like anything will scare me?" He said with a monotone voice.
I pursed my lips with his answer. Right. This man fears nothing.
"So she really is your fiance?"
I fired back. I'm not trying to be serious though, I just want to tease him. I want to take things lightly. In one swift move, our position changed. I lost my grip on his arm and stepped on tophe to me. My eyes widened a bit. I put my palm on his chest, I looked down on his packs and saw some symbols that I don't understand inked on his skin.
"You probably asked her the same." I smiled sadly. “Provoked her as well,” I added. "And showed her the worst part of you."
It was as if I was slowly getting consumed as I uttered those words. He let out a heavy breath. I saw how his thick brows met when I uttered those words.
"No one will ever see this part of me, Jade. It's just you." he said and sealed me with a deep kiss.
In that short time I was caught again in the heat he was giving. I don't know what to feel. Hearing that word makes me even more proud. Just me? It's like I own a part of him that's only mine.
His kisses burned me for the second time round. He waved the blanket and our naked bodies were exposed again. I opened my eyes and saw our reflection from above. I can see the shape of his body between my thighs. I feel aroused seeing that. Hot.
I know his reputation. Now I know. Anyone will kneel to this idiot. Whoever he takes will worship him.
"Is this still the worst part of you?" I grinned when the kiss ended for a while.
He raised a brow and a hint of smirk showed up in his face. I snorted as I stared at him stickily.
"I was still kind a while ago, Jade. I'll bring you to hell this time."
Before I could even answer he pulled my thighs and carried me to the end of the bed. Hell. I'm sore but this is what it is. There is no pain if he’ll be the one to hurt me.
We did it several times. I don't know how I am supposed to count it. I came several times as well, more than he did. I'm embarrassed because I wasn't sure if that's how it's supposed to be. It's my first time and I don't know if it's right to be this knocked up.
We did it in any part of the room. On the table, in front of the mirror, on the floor, on the couch and even in the bathroom. Where we can only catch up. I can't count how many times I passed out but all I know, we did it until the sun had risen.