People will leave you in the middle of chaos. Only you can save yourself.
They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail, and let you die in the middle of chaos.
That's how it works.
If you really want to get past everything you have to go through, you should never look back.
If you want to grow, you should learn how to grow on your own and stop believing that you need someone to make you grow. You can never use a person, especially if you feel that something is missing from it.
I heal myself because I need it, not because of Oakley.
"Ma'am, there's a package waiting below." I looked at my secretary and she looked exhausted.
Are you tired? Don't worry, I'll just take the delivery boy up and please stop calling me Ma'am if you want to keep your job. Is Ms. Elisha okay? You're making me old early, gosh! " I made a joke so she wouldn't think I didn't like her.
My mama hired her, since I decided to take back my business and other things that I'm supposed to do.
I managed the sister company, while on the other hand I was bothering Edward. I wanted to erase his name. Until my tentacles reached him, I didn't want to see, hear, and feel him.
I do what I have to because I want to be happy in my life.
He's a poison in my life.
"Thanks po," I smiled, and she left. I don't want to look like a terror boss to them. As long as they can do their job, no problem.
"Guard, bring the delivery boy up here." I ordered the guard downstairs where my office is.
On the other hand, I haven't heard any news from Oakley. I know he will get tired of me because I'm such a mess. I don't know anything else to do with my life but to get tired and cry until I get tired.
It's my fault. I can't stop myself from crying every time I remember my son. It's my fault. If I hadn't been a fool, that wouldn't have happened to him.
If I had been careful, he would have been alive and maybe he would be with me now.
I don't need Edward. I can do everything all by myself. I don't need human use.
As much as I can settle for myself, I will, because I am the only one with me no matter what happens.
"Come in," I replied to the knock on my office door.
"Elisha" I look at the shoes approaching me while I feel that sensation that I miss.
The one I was looking for at a time when I was depressed and alone.
On those days, it makes me cry and mourn. The day won’t end without me regretting everything I have right now.
At first you thought it was easy, so you are strong. But when destiny wants to destroy you, your life will fuck up and leave you.
You'll just wonder why me? Am I so desperate to be given such a heavy burden in my life? Why are you like this to me? Why are you being tortured? Why won't you help me?
But there was nothing I could do. I'm here. I can't run. I just bled myself when I did that.
"Oakley, please, don't now."
"Why is it so easy for you to avoid and leave me, Elisha? Do you know it hurts like hell?"
"It's for your own good, Oakley."
"No Elisha, I am the one who will choose what is good for me, and you know what? You are the good one for me. That's why I keep coming back to you. I love you. " Please, Elisa, be brave for your own sake.
This is not the right time to become weak. I'm still in the healing stage.
"No, it's just lust," I said, while my tears were unstoppable. In my whole life now, I've just experienced myself lowering myself in the eyes of others.
I never let other people see that I was weak, I was defeated and I cried in front of other people.
Being the youngest is a lot of pressure. In my whole life, when I just married Edward, the best thing I did in the family, that's how I feel and that's how mama and papa feel.
I am a disappointment to this family.
At first, yes, but now Elisha is different. I never think of that because I respect you. I don't want you to look down on yourself because I think so highly of you that it feels like you're far from me. You're too hard to reach, Elisha. It's like I am chasing fish in the crater of a volcano. But my hopes, yun nalang ang pinaghahawakan ko, I saw it in your eyes Elisha... "
You want me too, but you're afraid." I smiled before turning around, and I heard the crackle of flowers on my table.
"I never stop Elisha. I will follow you anywhere because I love you so much. You don't know how many times I stop myself to chase and find you, but at the end of the day, I always come back to you. "
"Please Oakley, have mercy on yourself."
"I did, but he. He doesn't want to stop you because he loves you more than you think, Elisha. "He points to his chest while his tears start running down his cheeks."
I'm not used to seeing him cry, and the tightness and pain in his chest
"I love you, Elisha," he said softly as he placed my hands on his chest, his eyes closed.I could feel her heart beating.
His heart runs wild because of me. His warm hand touches my waistline and squeezes it gently.
I know your life is tragic, but I am willing to change your life. I can change it.
"No,..." I shook my head until he let go of me.
If you need me, I have no choice. I am still here for you, Elisha. "
He walks. I watch him walk away. I wonder why my chest seems to be pinched.
I cried unceasingly until my legs moved on purpose and he quickly reached the door.
"Oakley"
I called his name and wrapped my legs around his waist. My arms locked around his neck and my lips landed on his soft and tasty lips.
I don't know why I do that.
All I think is I will dive into the deepest decision that I think will make me happy and content.
"I love you too, Oakley."