What the fuck? Don't touch me! " I shouted as he stared at me.
"It's me, Elisha, Oakley," he said with a smile, but I pushed him again and tried to get away when he clung to me.
"I thought you don't remember me, so why are you here?!" I shouted again and walked away from him.
He followed me immediately and held my hand.
I'm sorry Elisha. I found out that Edward was with you, so I was angry. I was bored and I thought you went back to Edward. So I said, "I didn't know you. I pretended I didn't know you because I wanted to hide that I was hurt. I smirk and slap his face.
I can't remember everything. All I know is that Edward cheated on me, and I cheated on him too, and you are my lover, and the miscarriage of Edward's baby. The rest I don't remember. Just because of your pride, you act like you don't know me? " Disgusted, I promised him
"You're selfish, Oakley. I don't know why I chose you!" I cried while no one stopped my tears. We can no longer understand how I feel now.
Please don't do that Elisha. Edward called me and said that he took you and he planned to take you away from me, but he stopped because ako daw ang hinahanap mo. I push him hard and face him.
"Yes, at first you were, but after you didn't show up and you told me that you thought you were just for your own good, it's not. I don't want to be with you. I just prefer Edward. He is true to his words. I will accept him again rather than choose a selfish man like you! " I shouted, and then he shook his head repeatedly.
"I don't know why I chose you then more than my own wife!"
"Because I am the one you love, we will love Elisha."
"It was Oakley, it was then. I don't know now!" I became even softer and sat on the sand with my head covered
Too much pain makes my head turn and feel like it's being pinched and squeezed. I can't stand my headache.
"Elisha!" he shouted until he came to me and held my hand
"I'm so in love with you Oakley"
"I love you Elisha"
"I love you too, Oakley."
It was like pinching my head as if boss what image I could see, and there was Oakley and holding my hand
He's holding a camera while i am smiling, at his car where i kiss him
"I promise that I will marry you and love you till my last breath"
"What!"
"You're my life Elisha, thank you for sharing your colors at my lifeless life"
"I love you."
"Stop!" I shouted and forcefully pushed Oakley full of concern
"Elisha what happen?" he ask and i watch him looking at me, wearing his worried reaction
I can't believe that after the tragedy between me and Edward, he is the one that I have at that time
Why is this, even if he can fill everything my heart is looking for I am sad. Shouldn't I be happy but I'm not
I don’t know where I’m going to place myself, why everything went smoothly and this is what happened
"I'm sorry Oakley" I look down and touch the hem of my dress and feel the coolness of the air and the rush of water
Have I lost myself in my desire to answer things in a hurry
Am I still happy? Will I still be happy after all that has happened and as if destiny does not want to give me freedom, I am trapped in the loneliness that I try to escape and never come back
But I'm always in the four corners of loneliness, I'm stuck after I feel a moment of happiness.
This is probably the time when I got lost and I could no longer find the room and place where I was happy, where I was whole and where I should have been.
"Oakley, I don't know what I feel. I am confused at everything" I told him full of pain and resentment while looking straight into his eyes.
"I'm happy with Edward, but somehow I don't feel contented. There's something missing that I can't see in him. I know he's an ideal man but damn, I don't know what's missing in him" I breathed first deeply then look and strengthen my chest so that I don't cry now because I'm a mess with what's happening to me
"And now you're here. When I heard your name when I was at the hospital, I want to know where you are. I want to see you and for me to know if it's true that you are the one I loved after the tragedies that happen to me, and you are here now. I can't explain how yoi filled the space at my heart but i am not happy, i am content to see you and see that you are worried and you told me your reason but why, why am i not happy Oakley? " full of resentment I asked her as she wiped away her tears and could not answer the question
"I don't know what to answer Elisha, I don't know because before even simple things make you happy, I don't know what's missing if I'm wrong with you now, I don't want to give up because it's a sin for me to give up on how I feel about you Elisha"
"After I found out that Veda was cheating on me, I never feel a regret when we share sweats and moans at that night. I used to not believe in that saying. But that's a curse, having this relationship is a cursed. I don't either. How do we know this is going well Elisha, I want that back to me "
"I want to know why I'm so confused right now Oakley" I wipe my tears and look at the sun set
"I am lost now Oakley, I no longer know right and wrong"