Martins pov
Sinclair is standing before me eyes popping like a giggling eyes monster, “ welcome Sinclair “ I said to her beaming like a torch light, I missed her a lot, now she’s back with a furious look.
Seems boredom would be far away now
“ what’s going on martins” she said eyeing Vanessa then her eyes trail down her daughter's body. She's dressed in a short and strap singlet, her skin beaming like an oiled egg, I didn’t notice up till now.
Oops
“ Vanessa why are you dressed like that” Sinclair said with disgust lingering , “why do you care ” Vanessa replied walking out of the kitchen, they just can’t stand each other now I know why?.
“ Sinclair, your daughter and I were just cooking, and not to worry I have all the rules intact” “ I said, she stares at me in rage, then walks out, it was almost fun, until she came back, classic Sinclair at least I wasn’t slapped.
The rice cooker had done most of the work, same with the steaming machine, and in minutes I had three plates of tso chicken and rice ready in the dinning. It was my first time trying the tso chicken, it looks great but I would love them to taste it first.
Sinclair and her daughter were seated opposite each other now, tensed up, for reasons best known to them, “ please rate my cooking” I said, “ it’s nice” they said in unison, surprisingly.
“ it’s very nice martins” they say in unison again, their eyes held each other, in amusement, “ well, thanks it goes a long way” I said holding both their hands, they drag it immediately.
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Done eating, Vanessa cleared the table while Sinclair walked back to her room. I watched them behave like strangers, they were both in pain, yet cared about each other, “ What's up with you and your mom?” I asked as vanessa rested on the cabinet, while I do the dishes.
“ she behaves like she could get control of everything” vanessa said, well she controls me as well there’s no doubt in that, that’s why I chose baldwin, it’s a place where she had no control.
“ well you didn’t say a lie dear, Sinclair loves power” I said, drying the dishes with a towel, “ yea, and she failed acknowledges choices” she added, well that’s true, that’s why she had me bent over while taking me on with a strap on .
“ well I might not know anything about Sinclair but I know for sure, she’s sweet” I said, vanessa shrugs, “ to you” she shrugs making me smiles.
She’s just like Sinclair ir when she laughs, they both have so much in common, “ so tell me, what’s your favorite meal, you could be my personal food taster when the restaurant is open” I said.
“ Well, I have traveled round the world, and if I must say, I love chicken chow mein” she said, “ what the hell is that?” Eyes popped and mouth slightly opened, my mind puzzled.
“ it’s a chineses noodles”
“ So the summary of all this, it’s a fancy food for fancy people '' I said, she nodded, “ well we could learn how to prepare some food, knowing you have a lot to learn” she said hopping down , walking out of the kitchen.
Anxiety finds its way into my heart one’s more, what if I don’t make it out there, I barely know what fancy people love, chow mein?, is that even a thing, vanessa walk in with a Mac book pro in her hands.
“ let’s start today shall we?” She said smiling sweetly at me, now her curly hair is packed in a bun,“ sure, but we need supplies” I said, she pouts
“ I just got hyped up, we will get them later ” she said, smiling,
Time passed and I found myself talking about my interests, what I loved doing and how and why I started my porn life, matter of fact, I just figured out we loved almost the same music, and some local dishes too.
She’s sweet, maybe not as I thought she would be, she’s really nice to be with, just like her mother, talking about Sinclair. I haven't seen her around the living room after eating.
She must have had a long day, if she needs me, I wouldn’t mind going to see her, she should text me, that’s why she gave me a phone right?
Sigh
“ let’s go watch a movie” vanessa said, I nod in responses, I could feel my heart ache thinking about her now, she’s angry with me, “ hey don’t be a sloth” vanessa pulled me to the movie room.
Conected automatically to the house Wi-Fi, we browse through the series, “ why don’t we watch this” she said putting a romance movie, well that’s the difference, between Sinclair and her daughter.
“ you know I wish my love life was as sweet as the ones I got to watch in movies” she said as sadness settled in her heart, “ do you also wish for the thrills in horror movies too” i said, I see her smirk in the dark.
“ maybe you are not so bad afterall” she said giving me a slight punch on the shoulder slightly, “you too” I reply as we both settle down watching the movie, for the first time I actually wish, my love life was that of the movies too,
If Sinclair and I had watched this, we would kiss for sure, I know there’s a connection, that’s why she get jealous when I play around with her daughter, she can’t hide it from me.
I feel an extra weight on my shoulders, vanessa is sleeping on my shoulders now, snoring gently, this is just a signal I need to go, the movie is almost over, I pause it, it making me fantasize about things sinclair wouldn’t make come through.
Standing up I grab her by her knees and back, till she’s suspended on my arms and against my chest, light weight, I love that, just outside the room, Sinclair stood with her arm folded on her chest, “ meet me in my room” she said walking out.
I could feel life threatened already, as my knee trembled. Is she going to choke me?, I hope not, taking Vanessa to her coven-like room, which terrifies me gently, they are all weird ladies.
I walk back to Sinclair room, there’s she seated with a reading glass on as she read through some files, “ sit” she said firmly, and I took a seat on a chair not far from where I stood.
“ Martin, I wouldn’t cut your privilege of association, but oh dear don’t break the rules” she said smiling, as she turned around on her drafting chair I could see the glare behind her mask,
“ you daughter is beautiful and a nice person”
“ what!” She huffed
“ hey it’s a dramatic pause, calm down” i said, watching she squeeze a pen in her hands, “ but I respect our relationship,and I wouldn’t want anything to ruin it ” I said.
”keep your end of the deal ” she replies rolling back to her drafting chair,
“ Sinclair”
She raises her hands up to stop me from talking, “ take the key to your chastity, get your restaurant ready, all contact needed for groceries and renovation has been sent to you” she said.
“ thanks”
I replied, walking out of the room.
Sinclair pov
Seeing martins and vanesssa play together should have been great,but their this feeling that settled in my heart I couldn’t comprehend, he’s just so good with women he could get anyone to fall for him, he’s a magnet.
His moronic gestures actually made me feel fond of him, his face ran through my mind while in the board meeting I just had to text him.
It felt like old times, when Brandon and I would text all day in work, it hurts, so much knowing he’s not here, and just to keep myself away from thinking or visiting therapist every now and then I just decide to focus my energy on sex.
It pleases me and makes me fall asleep even faster, and now I find myself staring at his eyes when he moans in ectasy, my heart flutters when he does something kind, it’s like high school again, when I get sweaty palm just holding his hands.
And he knows all this,I can’t have him think I am weak.
Standing up I walk back to my closet, Brandon’s picture is lying there and beside it, Luke’s picture too, these were the men that made me who I am today, and now they were no more, I remembered when Brandon died, after surgery.
I could feel my life slip before my own eyes, my eyes trail down to the diamond ring which sat beside his pictures, gazing at it tears pool down my eyes.
I had been in rehab for two years of mental confusion, on how to start all over again , and now I am going back to how it all started, falling In Love again.