“Vanessa, would you marry me?”
Just like salt on snow, his words slowly melt my infuriation. I can see the hint of red on his widely spread cheek, maybe he's actually excited or just trying to keep a still face, either way he has a hint of pink .
“I know I have not been the best man,you picture when ever you close your eyes, i might not be the man that picks your fantasy, but here i am, asking if you choose me as the man you would love to spend your life with, as a partner, a best fiend, a lover and a father to our children, I have been looking around for the perfect time, an perfect place, no other place comes to my mind other than this place where we come to share our pains and sorrows when we were younger, I decided it to be the place we shared the beginning of our happiness”
Tears pooling down his eyes
“ …I want to share my days, nights, and dreams with you. Being the happier man is nothing compared to being called your husband, and that's just what i want, so please would you make me your husband nessa ?, and i promise to be what a real husband is to a wife, what a best friend is to a fellow friend, and what a father means to his daughter?”
Tears pulling down my eyes, as his words hit every wound i have been trying to counsel for years. His words were so soothing to my raging heart, and his smile was just like the flames brewing in my heart, for centuries there's no better answer than yes, yes I want to be with this man, I don't care if I would hate it, I don't care if it won't end well. I have waited so fucking long for this, I won't let it pass me by.
My hands subconsciously lay on his,soul raging, body willing, he smiles as he slid the ring down the base of my forefinger
“ Nessa what are you doing this isn't the plan Nessa, Nessa !!, he's a scam, Nessa, don't listen to him, see Nessa you know this technique already, he has been using it, don't fall for it again, Nessa nessa!!!, “
Martins yells but his voice fell on solid rock,
This man over here wouldn't hurt me,
Nessa!
“Yes, I accept”
“Thanks for making me whole”, he mouthed, pulling me in for a hug, as his firm arms held wrapped my
Body in a possessive manner one palm cupping my ass cheek possessively and the other on my shoulder, “ thanks nessa, thanks” his warm breath caresses my naked nape as he said those hurtful words.
Tears pooling down my eyes, “ vanessa!’ Martin calls out , pulling me out of adonis embrace, as I scoot backwards,
“ what's it?” he asked, totally confused as the lines on his forehead deepens, , “ nothing” i replied, his eye held mine, giving me ‘ hope you are okay ‘ he stretches his hands ones more for a hug,
I can’t have him noticing the chip in my ear, as I took baby steps backward so he doesn’t hear martins trying to hard to make me deaf, I need to find a solution before I get caught, thrusting my fingers down my ear hole it rubs on the chip gently as I pull it out, crushing it on my finger tips
Now that’s perfect.
As all that had happened dawned on me “ adonis, how are we going to tell our parents that we are getting married, “that's the fun part babe, I had spent the week with dad, just for the both of us, now he is glad to have you as his daughter ?’
He lied
For the past week, all i did was cry, as he layer in the soft bossom of another, now he’s here again, with a perfect smile, a perfect smile indeed, with tears trucking down my eyes and my lips held firmly by my teeth, I embraced myself, Adonis can never change.
,“ do you really love me adonis.'' I asked, he stares amused, “
“ Why such a stupid question, i just proposed , would I do that if I didn't care?”
Sigh
Just at the tip of my tongue, questions I have to proof to laid dormant, who was that lady you had in your arms ? that lady you had me wear her underwear?, that lady who caressed you while you gave excuses?, but instead i let the words slip down my eyes , he never loved me .
But i can't pinpoint why he put so much effort in making me feel like i am welcomed in his heart, and his life while he does otherwise “ what do you want from me adonis”
, “ what's the meaning of all this, don't tyou trust me?, “ he holds my head with both palm, making me stares directly at him. His heart was mine right?,
“ i love you, never doubt that, all the rumors you must have heard, are just people trying to break our bond, but now that we are engaged , there is nothing, i repeat nothing that can tear us apart”
Pulling back on his chest , there I fight the screeching noises of my wailing voice, and then aching pain in my heart, as I i let the pain flow out freely , “ let it out?” he patted my head gently, “ let it all out, its normal” he said, i miss the moment, i miss him
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Its night time, i had decided to go back home after adonis and i have had dinner, he suggested i stay out with him, but i need to talk to martins he's probably mad at me, not just that, i need to tell him my reasons, even if i had reasons they wouldn't be meaningful enough for him.
The elevator door chimes,and the first face i see is that of martins, just like the first day we met, “ hey” i said sheepishly , he smirks at me,
“ welcome home miss hansley” he said, disgusted by my presence, “ martin i can explain” i said to him, he doesn’t say anything, instead he takes a pack of grape fruit it into his room, leaving me behind, martins had never ignored me, following his trail I see him settled on his bean bag.
“ martins please let’s talk”
He drops his pad then stares bluntly , waiting for me to actually explain, i never knew words were this hard in critical moment, i used to be a blabber mouth ,
“ Waiting?” he said, walking up to the bed now, “ let me guess you love him?” he said, with disgust and sarcasm dawdling in his words, it strikes hard, because it true, I don’t love adonis, but can’t get myself to leave him, “ it’s not like that martins, you love mom, ,you know how you feel about her even when shes being cruel to you”
“ if its best for you , then go ahead, your mother fuck boy, doesnt have a word in your ‘relationship’s does he?What do I know about love? ” his words was like a blazing furnace, but its true
, “ you know I was so happy, that you would actually tell that boy off but you flipped the table, is that beautiful ?, don't come here crying, i won’t hold your hands every time, “
“ what do you want me to do”
“ mistakes are only bad when you fail to correct them”