I want you to mark me. Claimed me He jumped from me, then distance himself from me, I Know right now, I am acting like an idiot, acting too possessive but at this point, I don't care, I don't care if Leonid's words and every other person's words were true and even if he is the devil himself is not my bloody business, I only want him to myself, I don't want anything else in this world except for him. At this point, I don't care about even my mate Leonid.
I don't want anyone coming close to you, I want you all to myself. His eyes didn't leave me, and his face is paste with surprise, for the first time, we are together, I could read his expression, then his facade became thick and unread, his disguise is too thick that it throw me in confusion, he should know, I love him and I wanted him, even though we are not mate. Waiting for him to reply, he didn't say a word.
What is she doing? Trying to wake the beast in me?
Don't you like that, you are not going to force her, she will do all your bidding. His wolf said, he shakes his head.
What is he doing? My inner self asked, probably communicating with his wolf, it's not my business what is in his heart or who he is communicating with.
You don't love me enough to mark me, to claim me, as your mate? Why do you make me feel like you want me and at the same time, you don't want me? Sadness was written all over my face when the only thing he could do was stare at me.
I know I am not enough for you, you don't even want to touch me, find I know I said that in the beginning, but now, I am ready, just do it. If we were hand length before, right now, we are four feet apart. Tears drop from my eyes, karma is a bitch, just maybe, the universe is telling me that I will never get anything good because of my misdeeds.
Fiona...
It's fine, I will leave tomorrow, I will go back to Leonid, after all, he is my mate. He didn't say a word, he turned and left the room, I was expecting him to stop me, to fight for me, to hold me, but none of that, happened, he is tired of me, he was waiting for me to make the decision, it takes me too long, too long to decide, too long to realize that, Stefan will never love me and his agreeing to my request is only an excuse to not get ties to me, I should have known, that every man will not accept to be in a union, with a woman, without any form of carnal knowledge.
Why does love hurt this much? Why can't the goddess bless me with just one thing, I wish for, I have never felt so bad as how I felt right now, even when I turned sixteen and I didn't shift, coming to realize that, I might remain without my wolf, I am wolfless, a wolfless stupid human. Who wants to devote all her life chasing a man that isn't my mate and doesn't love me because I am not good enough, not good at anything?
Since I am not just heartbroken, I am also hurting, waiting till the next day, is too much for a wait, I should leave now, whether it's now or never. Packing up the little wears that Simi had helped me gather, slowly I walked out of the room, after crying for hours, no idea where I am going but I knew, I just have to leave, and apologize to father and my mate, a few steps to the hallway the first person, I saw was Sky, he is healing but his healing is not as rapid as mine, I wonder, how I managed to heal fast and the scar have disappeared like nothing happened to me and come to think about it, I don't feel pain, even when I didn't take any medication.
My lady, I am sorry, sorry for putting you in danger. He said falling on his feet.
Hey stop that, I am the one, who put you in this mess, if I wasn't stubborn, I wouldn't have left the castle even after you warn me against it, I have carried away with my anger, that I didn't think of my actions.
It's not your fault, I should have protected you more.
It's fine, I am happy you are safe and please stand up, you are making me feel bad. I said trying to pull him but he withdrew from me, I understand that he might be scared because of Stefan, so I grabbed my bag and walked passed him
where are you going?
Home, alpha Stefan knows that I am leaving, if you think that, I am lying, you should ask him and he is going to nod to you in approval
Fine then, let me go with you. Sky's words were accompanied by the pulling of my bags, he is a gentleman and a handsome one too, I wondered if he has a mate already.
Do you have a mate already? He turned and look at me, his gaze dark and one of disappointment. Did I say anything wrong?
No, my mate didn't want me, she had rejected me right to my face, she is in love with the beta son.
The beta son?
Yes, the young man that walks you home the other night
He is the son of the pack beta?
Yes, unfortunately, he had always wanted everything that Stefan had, he has been in love with Hazel for the longest time, yet Princess Hazel wanted alpha Stefan, all to herself, even though the young princess haven't met her mate like we all think, still Alpha Stefan is not her mate.
Sky is a good company, I wonder why his mate will reject him, he is not only good company, he is handsome; and a strong warrior, if he is not strong, Stefan would had throw him out of his team. Whoever could be his mate, that rejected him, must be the biggest loser in the century.
What a hypocrite! I too rejected my mate with my action, even though I didn't say it to his face, my action is enough to show that I rejected him, even though he had all those qualities that I just recalled.
Finally, I get to Shadow moon Pack, Leonid was the first person, I want to see, I am going to apologize to him, after bidding Sky goodbye, slowly I make my way to Leonid's quarter, standing at the door, I say, a silent prayer before raising my hands to hit the door, before my hands could meet the door, it flew open on his own my eyes bulge open, with the fellow standing in front of me.