Mated to my human best friend.
Chapter 18.
Kyle.
"Can you stop touching me?!" I yelled in her face, yanking her hand away from my body. How does she not get the message that I'm sick and tired of her?
"I don’t want to," she sobbed. "Why are you refusing my touch? I’m your girlfriend for Chris' sake, Kyle. Do you hate me now? Do you want to dump me because of her? I love you so much, Kyle, and I can’t do without you. I can’t bear to live my life without you. You’re the source of my joy. I promise to kill myself if you dare break up with me,"
"Ha, nice try, Tina. But we both know you love yourself too much to ever think of hurting yourself," I scoffed at her threat.
"I'm serious. If you go to her, then I'll kill myself. Is that what you want? For me to kill myself?"
I watched her cry. I felt nothing for her again. I was not in pain anymore. I stood there and watched Tina cry without consoling her. Why don’t I feel any love for her?
I remembered that I was always sad whenever I saw her tears. I always pampered her, and I never wanted to see a single fly hurt her. I wondered why she wasn’t on my mind again. What changed? Why does Kate occupy the heart that once belonged to Tina? What the hell is happening to me? It felt like everything had changed.
I started having thoughts about Kate. I tried my best to hide it from her and use Tina as a shade. I thought I was gonna be fine as long as I kept communicating with Tina, but I was wrong. Everything got out of hand on the day of her birthday.
I had this great urge to claim her. I felt possessive of her. And now, I see her as someone I could die for. I feel like I exist because of her. Why do I feel this way? I don’t think Tina deserves all this.
I could remember Kate calling me her mate. What’s that? What does that mean? I will be lying to myself if I deny hating her touch. I loved the way she claimed my lips. I wanted to stop because she was behaving like a different person.
My brain was screaming for me to stop, but my body was saying another thing. The pull got stronger than before. I let myself drool into the kiss. The passion was real. Our tongues fought for dominance. I loved the way she tasted and my brain was full of erotic ways to have and fuck her.
I'm sure she felt the same way that I felt by the way she was kissing me. I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my heart when she told me to forget everything we had. I could easily tell that she was forcing herself by asking me if I loved her because she kept biting her lips nervously.
I recall the hurt in her eyes when I told her I didn't love her. I don’t want to lie to her just to sleep with her. I'm yet to figure out what was wrong with me. I still don’t know what I feel for her. Is it love or lust? Do I love her only to know how she tasted? Or am I really in love with her? If so, what about Tina? She doesn’t deserve all the harsh treatment I was giving her.
Fuck! I am torn between them. I need to figure out my feelings before I decide who to be with.
"Tina, I'm sorry I treated you this way. Please, don’t kill yourself," I enunciated. "I know you love me too much, and I also love you, but I think we should have a space in our relationship for now. I need to cool my head,"
"Kyle, are you breaking up with me?" she inquired.
"No, I am not breaking up with you, Tina. All I am asking for is space in our relationship. I need to cool my head,"
"Okay, I understand," she said, clenching her chest. She’s hurting, and I am the reason why she was feeling this way. I’m such a bastard for hurting the woman in my life. "Can you give me the money I asked for?"
"Sure, I will. I will credit your account immediately after I reach home," I replied.
If money will make her feel good, then I am ready to give her more. Even if I end up choosing Kate, I want her to be happy.
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