I wasn't excited even after Max called me I knew I wouldn't be able to give myself to Santoro and that's how I quit and he took it easy and left without saying anything.
We came back the other day in the morning he didn't change it was the same it seemed that for him nothing mattered if I had sex with him or it didn't seem to be just sex just like all the men who approached me.
The quiet days and even knowing that now I was going to be a mother I wanted so much for him to know but I can not say I did my exams i tried to keep myself on the diet that the doctor spent was taking care of me the baby needed to come to the world full of health I sat on the edge of my mother's bed she was not at all well she was keeping now with appliances of nowhere she got worse I did not know the motive.
"Mom my mother got a novelty: you're going to be grandma, I know it wasn't the time we were going through a hard time, but I'm sure this baby came to bring us joy and peace. I held her hand had no movement I didn't know what else to do with her was suffering a lot I wasn't going to keep her on the braces she didn't deserve it and after all we spent together, she deserved to rest. "I'm not going to keep it on the devices, it'll be better to let you rest.
The doctors said there's no way even her kidneys are already paralyzing and when all this happens you know it's going to be unbearable pain so let rest will be better. Like telling my heart I’d better be without her.
"If you don't want to go to the cocktail party, I know what you're feeling right now.
"No I need to go, I can't keep thinking about martyred now she only has me, unfortunately. I need to sit down.
I knew it was the best decision after the trauma she suffered, because the heart attack and then the cancer she was too weak. My phone kept ringing and when I look, it was Maite. I breathe and leave the room.
" Hi! Maite! I thought you were out of business.
"I just came in and looked at what the ambassador sent me. And I don't believe Mia.
"What do I see next, but what is it?
"Look at the report the ambassador sent me, these are horrible pictures of Gabriel. I breathed and opened the story.
Gabriel was found dead by a container.
- I don't believe it, poor thing. Even though he's the worst being I've ever met, I didn't want him to end up like this. But what did the police say?
— That was the rival faction dispute of territory. And I'm going to say thank God, except a piece of crap for society.
"Don't talk like that. But I have a novelty: I'm going to spend the night there.
"Are you okay Mia?
"No friend, I'm destroyed.
"Then come now and stay with me today.
"Yes, I need a friendly lap.
After I turned off Santoro hugged me and kissed my lips, and he knew I was terrible and aimless.
"I'll take you into town and see you at the cocktail party tonight.
Hours later I was in town crying in Maite's arms and Santoro didn't know where He was going. But now I just want to know about myself. I wasn't going to think macho right now.
"Mia cries everything she has to cry and then tells me.
"Maite my mommy is too bad she won't be able to keep going.
"But she was so good friends. What do you hear?
"The cancer is killing her, and then it's more now that I need it. I was in need of lap needing to talk and forget everything that was going on with me and outside this still had a baby my heart was racing I needed to take care of myself and at that moment I wanted affection.
But I needed to put my head in place to see what I was going to do, I was without a shred of desire to go to this cocktail without full spirit.
"Because you're like this doesn't get so it's going to be all right Mia.
" Friend I’m pregnant. She stood up and stared at me without believing, because I couldn't believe it either.
"What do you mean pregnant you didn't fucking foresee yourself?
"Yes and I've thought about all the chances of my life to happen this and the only one that was when I suffered the abortion was at that time because I went some time without taking medication and taking antibiotics so that's when it happened and now I don't know what I'm going to do.
"What do you mean you need to talk to dad he already knows? "Of course not and since I'm going to tell Max that I'm pregnant and his son is going to be born, I can't do that.
"You should think about you not destroying your baby's life at any time, that bitch his wife thinking of you.
"Not even and Santoro will assume that I have agreed to marry him. I get used to it and about two months, I'm not going to move a straw or run after Max.
"So, you're so discouraged? This isn't the end of the world and a baby will help you grow and change your life.
My mother is very weak she can no longer fight for the life she tried, but she will not succeed, and I have the decision in the hands of letting rest or continue I do not have the courage to say yes, to the doctors.
"Let's think how much she is suffering friend I know it is difficult for you, but to think she will take a rest and think well. She's suffering too much from all this.
" Yes and today I still have cocktail, each of the representatives of the institutions that are being benefited have to attend and I was chosen and Santoro goes with me.
"You see it's not all lost, you've got a wonderful man.
- yes, he's too perfect.
I spent the rest of the afternoon talking to Maite and trying to think about my life thinking about everything I needed to do, and it was one thing to take care of me and my baby. Even more so now that I had given a little challenge in my pregnancy, I was going to have to control myself and hold on so I wouldn't lose the baby. And I need to stand firm.
"Because I have some challenges ahead now taking care of my baby because if not the pregnancy will not go ahead.
"But what do you mean it went wrong? Nothing's going to happen, I'm going to help you.
— Anemia and placental detachment all these things are taking some medications, including injections so that the baby is safe and can come into the world.
"How crazy! Glad you have all the necessary doctors, or it was going to be a big challenge in life, but I'll take care of myself, and this baby will, I came full of health you can be sure.
It was almost time to get ready to go to the Santoro cocktail, so far did not appear and was needing to talk to him who did not attend. I'm sorry Max isn't going to this kind of event and a very busy man.
The night was so beautiful warm the longing hit my chest as I loved this place even though it was not the best place was a safe place. My phone won't stop ringing and I was going to get out of the shower, but I ended up staying under water to relax.
" Mia the boy phone.
"Meet me, please I'm getting out of the shower.
I came out of the bath more excited ly and watched her talk and screamed like crazy and I laughed.
"Santoro when we're going to schedule our dinner, did you promise me? Make sure I don't get tangled up. She talked nonstop and seemed like childhood friends—I'm going to wait for you and take care of my friend.
"Hi, I was in the bath I will take a while you what time do you come?
"I won't be able to get an unforeseen event you'll have to go without me, but I'll tell the driver to take you he'll be waiting for you and I can't miss it.
" What do you mean you don't go to the event? I can't go alone.
Is fate giving a push?
I was afraid to go alone, I was worried about myself and the baby I couldn't risk meeting him. What?
Was I going to say? I took a deep breath and faced the reality of the moment I was alone.
"Oh, too bad! I didn't want to go alone at this event, but it's okay for me to understand you, so I'll see you tomorrow.
"I see you tomorrow leaving the event straight home saw Ms. Mia.
"But you won't have to wait for the driver to wait for me, I'm going to meet Maitê and we're going downtown to eat pizza.
"Then enjoy your pizza and as soon as you get home you call me kisses.
"He's not going to be friends, and I don't want to go alone.
"I go with you like this, walk downtown and go back to the old days when we did everything together. Let's go to the cocktail party and then eat the pizza and sleep grab what do you think?
We went down excited; she talked all the time wanting to cheer me up and I laughed at the faces she did. We got in the car, and she talked to the driver and I quietly and clear thinking about him and every moment we spent in Venice together. The city as always beautiful all lit and the smell of the canal made me more nauseous I took a deep breath and we got out of the car at the door of the event was a luxury I stopped looking at the huge place.
After all the news of my life for so long that I did not come in this place today I'm not with an escort but as an auction customer is sure that today will be a great night all my fears and longings and find max here was null he does not come to this type of event.
It's going to be all right. And look how hot a man.
- Maite, I'm engaged and I'm still pregnant.
When we entered a huge event room the Cultural Center was crowded the place was perfect beautiful with flowers, receptionist everywhere, beautiful people and unbearable people.
"But you by my side are my companion. She hugs me smiling. "I'm glad I'm not alone.
My heart tightened and I felt fear at that moment just do not know why, but I felt being watched something was bothering me I sat in the back row did not want to see anyone nor talk to anyone and if suddenly one of his clients appeared here.
Maite was all smiles, she loved this kind of event there was a sure spot to get new customers. She sat next to me and smiled like a lady I don't know I suppose I wasn't born for it because I was already feeling out of this world and since I met Max, I no longer liked this world.
I kept looking and passed the big screen the clinic and everyone said that, at the same time, it was de political, the perfect I felt burn the skin the hands tremble me badly breathed and the stomach squeezes what shit was this? And when I looked in the background, in the other row there was he standing with one hand in his pocket smiling, my heart ice and my legs trembled I wanted to run out of there I put my hand in the womb and knew i was not going to provide this meeting.
"Maite, I'm leaving, I can't stay, he's there.
Who?
"But don't look now but look at the bottom he's there knew I'd be here damn.
"You're not going anywhere; you don't owe him anything.
"If he finds out I keep that secret?
"You don't even have a belly for it yet, unless you tell him.
"Of course, not crazy.
"Then forget About Max and think of his mother.
He's stalking me and some bastard promised to leave me alone. I couldn't breathe, I knew he was looking at me and I try to stay calm. The pain in the womb and I put my hands holding and Maite hugs me.
- Relax friend he's with someone. I saw a brunette holding his hand.
"What a cursed! I looked and he smiled with her talking in his ear, I wanted to kill him that bastard. "It's a chicken, I hate you Max.
"Doesn't it seem Mia is jealous of him? I see in your eyes the anger.
"I hate this man and still come rub his mistress in my face that naughty!
"If you cry, I'll hit you.
"He never doesn't deserve a tear from me.
I didn't look anymore, I stared at the stage and started talking about donations and I get up when they say the name of the clinic and he stares at me smiling and spasses his fingers on his lips. Damn man who seduced me and eluded me and now he's in front of me with another. I made him look ugly and almost showed the bastard the finger.
" Relax eso friend is showing jealousy.
"Look at him smiling with the bitch hanging from his arm.
"And from what I see, he got another mistress and too fast.
"Let him make good use of it and leave me alone.
I was jealous, yes, I still loved him, and I knew he was doing it to provoke me. Wow, I thought it best now. I took a deep breath I didn't want to look in his direction and see him smiling with another my heart trembled and pulsed coming out of his mouth the pain in his stomach tightened and I wanted to rip his slut's hands off.
"I can't stand it.
I did it my heart was broken my hands shaking me I could not look at it, close my eyes and just hear what came from the stage and did not look at it I wanted to hide that curse. I couldn't stay long without looking at him and he took me off the ground and I ended up yielding and looking in his direction. And when I took a deep breath, he wasn't there anymore and where did he go with the bitch?
Damn where did he go?