After everything that happened, I just went away without looking back I came out crying and upset I knocked on the door and left i left him alone didn't want to hear didn't want to talk and let alone touch him again my heart was shooting, my mind was spinning in fear of myself in the middle of that whole situation. I had to do that I had to keep him away from me, I couldn't let him screw it up and Max is still married and if he leaves everything, I'll leave everything too, but until then I'm still Santoro's fiancée, I'm out of the cocktail party.
My body still smelled like him and my heart in my hands, and I cried all night I cried with sadness and loneliness. It was four in the morning when my phone rang, I looked on the screen I believed it was Max I was afraid but it wasn't him. I looked again and saw being from the Clinic I got scared and on the other side of the line via news that I was more afraid of the news that I did not want to sit on the edge of the bed and already began to cry to despair myself.
I called Santoro and he didn't pick up at 4:00 a.m. Mia. I needed him at that moment, I needed help, but he didn't pick up where he's going? He hasn't called me since the afternoon, he just disappeared. I took the first clothes and found it on the couch and got dressed.
"What's going on Mia?
"I need to go to the clinic where my mother is not well, I will send you news.
"I'm not going with you. And fast.
While you were getting ready, I got up and called a cab that was in the living room. I put my hand on my belly, my belly hurt, I was afraid I know all that was going to pass for the baby to calm the baby, the hands still shaky I looked at the phone and the only thing I had was a message from him. "Even though you're pregnant I love you and I take the baby... I love you, Mia!"
He didn't give up I know he wasn't going to give up and even if baby wasn't his I'm sure he was going to take on the baby he's a generous man with a good heart he's not like many others. I also love you Max. I said still sad I got up when she came to the room and we went down I already knew something was wrong, but I needed to kill me firmly.
We left town and went to the clinic with a heart in my hand and a tight heart, my friend was next to me, and I didn't have to say at that moment it was just having faith and the hope that I would get there my mother was still fine.
In my head I just said it was a false alarm, but to call me this time and because it was not well, I needed Santoro at that moment after half an hour I arrived at the clinic with my heart in my hand I already ran to my mother's room and she was not there and hit the despair agony and the crying was inevitable.
I despair to know that she was no longer in her room, but when the director hugged me hard and beat my head was far away my mind did not want to accept what he was saying, but it was the true story.
"My condolences and she could not bear the pain, but it was better, so she is resting and you more than anyone know how much she was suffering.
My god it was like a beating in my face I had no strength I fell into his arms and I just felt the pain in his chest and he said I did not want to accept that she had left me at that time I no longer had a father now I didn't have a mother that I love is the only one in my life who really loves me everything in my life if it broke just like my love by Max was broken my mother left me was the worst night of my life the worst day I had no strength to cry I had no strength to let go of his arms. When he took me, and I went into the room I fell to the floor in tears she was already dressed to say goodbye to me. It was the worst moment of my life the despair on the edge of that coffin I could hardly say goodbye to.
"Mom, I love you don't leave me please. I want to say goodbye to Mommy. I can't bear to live without you, Mom, I can't.
" Friend, you need to have at least one coffee with milk think of the baby.
"I can't even drink water. Maite she left me my mommy's gone and I couldn't even give her a kiss tell her how much I loved her I wanted to be here the moment she was suffering I know the pain she was going through.
"I know, friend, but have this coffee in milk and think about the baby you need. Mia raises your head; your mother would hate to see you like this.
It was almost ten o'clock in the morning when I managed to have some coffee with milk I passed my hand in my womb and felt everything turn and not manage to hold the head adore I could not think of anything I just knew how to cry and cry despair at knowing that she had left me.
"It's all set, they're waiting for you friend.
"Santoro's gone, I've called several times, I can't talk to him, did something happen to him?
"Do not think of him, at this moment, think of you and the baby we will pray that God will comfort and receive you with all the love she deserves.
"Yes, friend and thank you.
I was leaning on that coffin crying desperately my belly wrapped my heart soared and I crying when I breathe hard clean the tears I open my eyes. Whoever was in the beautiful chapel in sunglasses approached.
How does he know everything about my life? But at that moment I didn't want to fight or run away from anyone, I didn't have the strength to go out running or to raise my hand to slap him, on the contrary I needed strength and nothing like arms. And that's what he made of him at that moment and lifted me up from that coffin and hugged me without saying a word and I cried like I never cried in my life. I was squeezing and holding my hair, it was the best comfort of my life than the man I love father of my son.
"Max!