CHAPTER 31. I WANNA FUCK JUST HER
RYDER.
Staring out the windows, I watched the rain descend in a heavy tide. It was crashing against the small houses, and the violent wind was ripping off the rooftops.
From up here on the top floor of the castle, I watched the rain destroy the home of the people. It was the saddest thing to witness.
In the one week I've been out here, we've helped quite a good number of packs. I'd called Jason and informed him that I was staying a few more days. For some weird reason, he sounded rather happy about it. Like he didn't want me back, yet. But I brushed off the thought, deciding to concentrate on the issue at hand.
These packs were poor. They needed a lot of help. As much as I was dying to see Hara, I knew I was gonna die from the guilt if I left without offering my help.
“Ryder,“ it was Darius.
“Yes, Darius.“ I turned. My arms were wrapped around my chest. “Tell me what happened. Are they gonna be okay?“
“Yes, they will be. Just a few bruises, and some dislocated bones. But they'll be fine.“
I nodded. This was White-Moon pack, the least in the region. They're situated in a very secluded, unsophisticated area. It was so hard to get here as there were no good roads to get here. And when we did, it seemed it was already too late. The buildings had collapsed on over a hundred of them. They were all sent to the Royal clinic. Luckily, we won't be losing any lives.
“Don't beat yourself up so much, Ryder. You're doing the best you can,“ he said, noticing how agonized I was.
“Then why do I feel like a pathetic loser?“
“No, you're not. You've been great. These people got their hopes back, all thanks to you. They got so much faith in you because they know you'll help them through this,“
“How?“ I snapped. “Father and the palace council are yet to figure out why this was happening to us. And if they don't figure it out sooner, we'll all be doomed,“
“But Ryder, you've been amazing to them…“
“By giving them clothes? Shoes? Food? That's not close to being enough, Darius. These people just lost their homes. And I think I'm just showing them an illusion that things would get better when in reality, everything just fell apart,“
“You can't lose your shit now, dude. The people need you. If you switch now, then you're just confirming what the papers said about you.“
“Yeah, you're right. I'm sorry. I was just in my feelings for a while, “ I sighed, giving him a brief bro-hug.
“I know just the right thing to cheer you up. C'mon,“ He had a mischievous smile on his face as he led the way.
Darius wasn't exactly 'crazy' like Jason was, but he had his own, small dose of mischievousness. Right now, I wondered just what was going on in his mind.
He led me through many floors of the castle, and we were taking the stairs. The flood had killed the electricity so it was a complete blackout down here.
“Just where the heck are we going?!“ I asked in a gruff tone as we were almost down to the last floor.
”We're here,“ he announced, gesturing at a big, wooden door with a grin.
My fingers went to my temples tiredly, “I'm tired as fuck, man. This was the worst time to pull a prank on me,“
“Whoever said I was pulling a prank?“ He pushed the door and it went ajar.
We walked in and I was greeted by five ladies, she-wolfs, and particularly sexy, I had to admit.
Seeing them on just their panties and bras, my dick did a fucking happy dance in my fly. It went hard and alive, twirling in its space, ready to be let free.
I turned to run but somehow, Darius had detected my next move and blocked me.
“I don't know who she is, but she's gonna understand that sometimes, we have to fuck because we have to, not because we want to,“
“What are you talking about?“ I snapped in a fit of brewing anger.
“I know you too well, Ryder. I know there's a girl somewhere in your heart. That's why you've been acting the saint,“
“How the fuck have I been acting the Saint?“
“Ever since our trip, you haven't looked at any female twice. Everyone of us has fucked a goddamn pussy! You wouldn't have made such changes on your own. It had to be a girl,“
“Fuck!“ I grunted, raking my fingers through my hair. I hated this. I was doing just fine keeping my boner in check. He shouldn't have done this. He shouldn't have stirred me up this way.
“I don't wanna know who she is, 'cause clearly, it isn't Ciara–“
I shot him a sharp look, “Why do you say that?“
“Ryder, you've known Ciara all your life, and for some reason, you loathe her. She can never have such an effect on you,“
“Just get these ladies out of here. I'm good with just jerking off!“ I turned to leave, but he blocked me again.
His eyes darkened and the smiles were gone. “The men are worried, Ryder. If you keep this up, they'll think there's something wrong with you for real,“
“I never knew not wanting to fuck was an issue!“
“It is, especially from someone who loved fucking like he loved his soul. Just this one time, Ryder. Do it for your people.“ He ended and left the room, shutting the door from outside.
'Do it for your people.' That's what they always say when they want to get me to do something.
I turned around and I fucking wish I didn't. One second I was standing, and the next minute, I was fucking one of them with my dick, and the other with my fingers, and the last was having her pussy chewed up by me. The other two were discarded. They were too skinny and annoyingly prudish to satisfy my hunger.
They were yelling their heads off while I trusted harder and faster with both my dick and my fingers.
I felt no guilt about this. Just anger. When I get back, I'm forcing her to accept the mate bond. I can't keep fucking random pussies when I'm hard. I just wanna fuck her pussy, only hers. Just Hara's.