ZACK’S POV
I was devastated, shattered and tired of the everyday drama in my life. To be honest, I couldn’t take it anymore. On one hand was my mom who now saw me as her biggest enemy. Yes, the very reason I never got along so well with her after dad’s death was because she never tried to understand me nor my situation.
If dad was there then he could have easily handled her. It was he who always did it when he was with us. Mom was always a but controlling of me when it came to our financial condition from the very beginning of our new life but now, she had gone way beyond. For the first time in my life, I was handling such a freaking situation alone.
Looking back at how she was when dad was with us and what she became after his death was of a drastic difference. she completely changed after the accident. Maybe this is what happens when someone loses the love of their life. But I too had to bear the same loss then why doesn’t mom understand me??? Why was it necessary for her to mistake and misunderstand my every move???
I wanted to support her and was trying my best to be for her. But she always pressured me of our financial situation. The words she said had hit my heart like a fork in heart. I had never said such things to her as dad always taught me never to hurt mom. But who gave her the right to do it to me??? She should have been aware of our situation or at least my situation. Why did she treat me like this????
And on the other hand, was my so-called girlfriend Caroline who had shattered my soul with her fake pregnancy story, the very thing that had worsened my life in the town. Sleeping with her that day in the heavily drunk state was the biggest mistake of my life!!!!
The girl I was madly in love with, the very girl who was my first love, the very girl who had shattered my love and trust in her by breaking up with me by showing her true colors, the girl whom I had given another chance because of my one careless mistake had taken advantage of my trust once again and manipulated me so horrifically!!!!she had bloody faked her pregnancy just for the sake of getting me back into her life and I simply fell into her trap like a fucking idiot!!!!
How couldn’t all of these bullshits made me go chaotic, crazy and above all, hysterical?? I was feeling like a complete psycho who was ready to slay down any should which had the audacity to appear in front of me at the moment and that was the least anyone could wish for.
Everything made me freaked out as I walked to the lighthouse. That was the only place where I found peace in the town. And this very moment, I madly missed dad too much. I wanted his support, his words, and his love. I wanted him, right now, near me, to hug him and cry my heart out to him because he was my god. I had no idea when I had reached the top of the lighthouse in between all these but now that I was there, I let go of my control and took out my frustration by hitting on the walls as hard as I could.
I took a lot of punches until my hands were terribly wounded and fresh blood oozed out of it like waterfall and then screamed my heart out!!!
“Why????? Why me???? What had I done that I deserved all these???” I screamed my heart out at the ocean.
“Why Caroline??? Wasn't my love enough for you that you manipulated me so tediously?? Didn’t you feel any humanity towards me when you played with my emotions??” hatred took over me helplessly!!!
“It was my mistake that I gave you another chance to make a fool out of me. I should have known that the girl who broke up with me in the name of fame would have been ready to do anything to get that fame back” I gritted my teeth and yelled my frustrations. Still, nothing helped me out!!!
Thankfully, no one could hear me. There was no one in sight for a very long distance from the lighthouse. Standing on top of the lighthouse, I only wanted to meet dad. I wanted to tell him that I had turned into a complete loser and it all happened because of the women in my life.
My mind and head were hell depressed and it was obvious that I was in a fragile condition. I was broken beyond repair. I had lost my dreams, my passion, my god, my family and my trust and my love. Everything had backfired on me mercilessly and I had fallen so badly that getting up from it was just a hope for me, more like a wonderful hallucination!!!!
“Was I that bad to have been played with so dirty?? What sin had I done to get such a women in my life?? Why is Jake’s story being repeated through me by that girl?? If that so, will it end like that too??” I was literally out of my senses.
I had no idea what all I was blabbering or what all evil my mind had started to make me think of. Amidst all these chaos, the only thing I knew was that I had been through a lot and I had no power to take up anymore dramas and bullshits. With this, was I going I going to take a wrong step was my biggest doubt but these thoughts too were easily taken over by my hysterical senses.
However, in this world, I wasn’t alone yet as a soul was still in pursuit of me without my knowledge and who knew that this soul was going to be my very redemption???