LEYSA’S POV
ANDIRITO ako ngayon sa bahay, nakatunganga. Wala rito ang mga bata, andoon sila kina Mommy and Daddy at wala ring trabaho dahil ewan ko. Gusto raw ni Lolo siya muna mag-asikaso sa construction ng GUEST. sa Pampanga. Which is fine with me dahil no work means more time with my babies na wala naman dito sa bahay kaya ito tamang tunganga lang ako. At panatag naman ako sa pagbabyahe ni Lolo sa site dahil palagi niya namang kasama si Don Rafael. Nagtataka nga rin ako minsan sa kanila, they always together and it's creepy, you know... para kasi silang mga chess players at kami ang chess pieces.
Mukha kasi silang may ginagawang kung ano, behind my back –planning something good, I guess, for both our families. Ewan ko lang sa matatandang iyon. Oh well, our family dinner last last night sa bahay nina Mom and Dad ay naging maayos at masaya naman.
Kasama rin namin si Don Rafael, dahil noong simulang nakilala niya ang kambal ay naging parte na rin siya ng aming pamilya.
At nagpapasalamat din ako sa kaniya dahil kapag tungkol sa mga bata, hindi niya ako pinangungunahan, you know, like telling it to his grandson, about them. Nirerespeto pa rin nila ang mga nais kong gawin about our relationship... i mean ng mga bata sa kanilang ama, which is nakapag-decide na ako.
I will tell him na about the twins, kahit hindi na maging maayos ang "kami" basta maayos lang ang "sakanila" ng mga anak namin.
Ipinagpaliban ko na rin ang pagbalik namin sa England, supposedly kasi after my live interview last time. Lilipad na sana kami pabalik to continue our life there. But then, things happened and nagkaayos na kami ng mga magulang ko and isa sila sa hindi pumapayag na bumalik kami kaagad doon. Pero hindi rin nila kami pinipigilan manirahan doon. Gusto lang nilang magkaroon ng maraming time muna kasama ako, lalo na ang mga anak ko.
Nanonood lang ako ng palabas sa TV na ewan ko kung ano. Nang biglang may nag-doorbell, nagtaka naman ako kung sino iyon dahil sa pagkakaalam ko wala akong kaibigan dito na alam kung saan na ako nakatira ngayon. Ah baka delivery, kaya agad kong tinungo ang front gate and damn it, ang gwapo ng lalaking nakatayo sa labas ng gate ko. Shet, nakakamasa ng panty, nasa may gate na rin ako... when I decided to check on myself. Bigla kasi akong na-conscious, ayos naman ang postura ko --tamang pangtaong bahay lang, malaking white t-shirt and boxer shorts at naka-messy bun na ayos ng buhok. Mukha akong walang ligo, pero bahala siya! Sino ba siya sa akala niya, isa lang naman siyang gwapong makisig na nilalang. I looked at him.
“Anong kailangan mo?” maldita kong tanong sa kaniya na nakataas-kilay pa. Hindi ko pa rin binubuksan ang gate, bahala siya diyan.
“Hey! Let me in first. 'Di ba, gusto mo akong kausapin. Then let's talk now.” May himig pang-uutos ito. Aba, inuutusan niya ba akong pagbuksan siya, baka akala niya... bahay ko 'to. And yes, it's no other than Mr. Frederik Wilford.
“Wala pa naman akong sinasabing lugar at oras ah. Excited much? Umuwi ka na at busy ako.” Pakipot ko pa.
Oo na, gusto ko ang ideya nang pagbisita niya rito sa bahay. Bakit ba. Tatalikod na sana ako, tamang pa-hard to get lang at pababayaan na siya diyan sa labas nang magsalita ito.
“Aakyatin ko 'to, Leysa. Bilisan mo na. Open this damn gate!” Hindi ko sana seseryosohin nang marinig ko ang alarm ng bahay. Oo, high-tech itong bahay na ito, once na may magtangkang umakyat ng gate o pumasok dito na hindi dumadaan sa tamang pasukan ay automatic na maga-alarm ito which is connected sa guard station ng subdivision. Kaya dali-dali kong binuksan ang gate. Shit, anytime soon I am sure may patrol na rito.
“Ang tanga-tanga mo, Fred!” sambit ko pero ngumisi lang ito at pinindot ang button para sa malaking gate para ipasok niya ang sasakyan niya. Ay wow, feeling bahay niya 'to? Pero hindi na ako umimik, napasok niya na eh. At tama namang dumating ang patrol ng subdivision, na sinabihan ko lang na ayos na, na napindot ko lang ang alarm nang hindi sinasadya. Kailangan din kasi nila iyon for their report and they are off to go.
At ngayon nga ay magkaharap kami ni Fred dito sa sala, nasa kabilang upuan ito. Walang nagsasalita sa aming dalawa, o sadyang wala lang may gustong mauna... sadyang nakatingin lang din siya sa akin and same with me to him. Ilang minuto pang naka-gano'n kami nang tinaasan ko s'ya ng kilay.
“What are you doing here?” tanong ko at ngumisi naman ito, at pinasadahan ako ng tingin –manyak lang?
“I want you. Let's make love,” out of nowhere na sambit niya, na ikinalaki ng mata ko. Gosh! I can't believe this man. He is really getting on my nerves.
“What the?” bulalas ko.
“Eh kasi ang hot mo habang suot-suot ang damit ko. It looks so good and sexy on you. Nakaka-turn on.”
Shet talaga itong lalaking ito. Sininghalan ko siya but wait, tinignan ko ulit ang sarili ko, ay oo nga pala. I am wearing his shirt and boxer short na suot-suot ko last time nang magising ako sa tabi niya. But then, ang bastos niya talaga, kainis.
“Bastos daw. Poging bastos kamo at gusto mo namang binabastos ka niya. Pakipot ka pa,” sambit ng malandi at walang hiya kong utak. I snapped it out.
“And so? Don't worry I'll give it back to you,” malditang turan ko, na ikinangisi niya na naman. Gosh, nakaka-badtrip siya.
“Sige, give it back to me, now. Hubarin mo na at ibigay sa akin ngayon na,” sagot naman niya na halata namang nang-aasar lang. Iniinis niya talaga ako. Bigla naman akong napasandal sa upuan at napahawak sa ulo ko. Gosh, nahihilo ako sa mga pinagsasabi niya.
“Ano ba kasing kailangan mo rito ha? Sabi ko mag-uusap tayo pero hindi 'yun ngayon. Alam mo bang nagpapahinga ako and then here you are, getting on my nerves. Ugh!” inis kong litanya sa kaniya na ikinaseryoso niya.
“Let's get back together, Leys...” and then he said it.
At gustong sumabog ng kaloob-looban ko dahil sa isinambit nito. Hindi ako nakapagsalita at napansin kong humahakbang na siya palapit sa akin.
And he bent down over me, that's why we are now inches away.
“A-uhm. Shet,” tanging nasabi ko lang nang bigla niyang sinunggaban ang mga labi ko.
And damn it, I can't stop him, not now nor never. Wala akong lakas para pigilan siya. Kasi bali-baliktarin man ang mundo, still I am deeply in love with him –mula noon hanggang ngayon and shet! I am responding to his kisses... same intensity and longing.
His kisses went down to my neck, licking and sucking me there like a vampire to his prey. Wala akong magawa kundi kumapit sa kaniyang leeg. It's like sipping my blood until it's emptied in my body.
“Ugh.” I moaned, it's good, it feels so good. Damn it! I miss him. I miss this –him kissing and holding me.
Napapapikit na lang ako sa ginagawa niyang paghalik sa leeg ko at sa paghimas at hawak niya sa dibdib ko, even though I still have my clothes on.
Hanggang hindi ko napansin ang pagkakahubad niya ng suot-suot kong damit at bra, at ngayon nga ay nakatingin siya sa aking kahubaran. I tried covering my nakedness with my arms but no luck. He just hold my arms, preventing it to destroy the sight in front of him.
“No. Don't. It's perfect. It's beautiful,” sambit niya and then he again started licking my neck down to my round and full breasts, mas lumaki ito kaysa noon, dahil na rin sa pagiging nanay ko na. He sucked my left breast like a hungry baby, seeking for a mother's milk while caressing and pressing the other one.
Napapaungol lang ako sa pinaparamdam niyang sensasyon sa akin. It's been 6 years when I last feel this kind of feeling. Dahil sa loob ng anim na taon. I never done this to any man I met. Dahil gusto ko siya lang, siya lang ang magparamdam sa akin ng ganito, I just want him –only him, touching, kissing and claiming me over and over again.
Impokrita ako kung hindi ko nagugustuhan ang nangyayaring ito ngayon. I am fantasizing about this every night before I go to sleep. I am longing for this to happen again, after a long time of separation.
I want this. I want him inside me –all of him. And I changed our position, siya naman ang nakaupo sa sofa habang ako ay nakaupo naman sa mga hita nya. I undressed him.
Ginawa ko ang ginawa niya sa akin kanina. I kissed him torridly and then down to his jaw line... and neck. I licked him there and then I sucked it giving him a kiss mark, telling him that he now belongs to me –only to me, and always with me.
I am massaging his broad shoulders, down to his chest, I reached for his nipples and pinched it softly that made him groan in pleasure. I bent my body so that I could reach his erected nipples. I licked it, na alam ko ay nakapagpadagdag ng libog niya. I feel it and he is pulling my hair, damn. I already feel his hard monster inside his pants. That's why, while sucking and licking his nipples, my hands made its way down to his pants. I unbuckled his belt and unzipped the zipper, kaya unti-unting nahuhubad ang kanyang pantalon.
I am still sitting on top of him, with his brief still on. I am moving my hips making sure that I am touching him there. And I can feel it, I can feel his hardness, I can feel his cock growing inside that piece of cloth, then he carried me papunta sa mahabang sofa. He put me there, dahan dahan at puno ng pag-iingat like I am a fragile thing that should be handled with care.
Nang maihiga niya ako sa sofa ay dahan-dahan niyang hinubad ang aking suot-suot pa na boxer at panty. And now I am fully naked in front of him, and I know he loves what he is seeing right now.
He looked at me, with tenderness and love... and he went down on me.
“Shit, ugh... hmm.” I moaned when he started eating me there. He is licking and massaging my clit.
Fingering and tasting every part of me like I am his favorite dish and any minute, I will explode.
At hindi nga nagtagal, I cummed on his mouth... he takes it all, he loves taking all of me.
“You really tasted so good, baby.” He bent over me and whispered in my ear, and licked my earlobe.
And now, it's my turn...
I pushed him lightly para mapaupo siya and I leveled my position with him. And kissed him, passionately. And I made sure na mapapahiga sya. So now, I am sitting on his body still kissing him. I trailed my lips from his mouth, to his neck, chest, nipples, abs, down to his V-line. At hinubad ko na ang balakid sa aking paningin... his brief. But before that I trailed my hands through his hard cock inside it, that made him groan in so much pleasure.
“Shit! Stop teasing me, baby. I want you to suck me now. I want to feel your hot mouth.” He pleaded, kaya napatawa ako and he stared at me and smiled unknowingly.
“Seriously? You're killing the mood, baby... hmm,” sambit pa neto, kaya sige na nga.
I put out his brief that showed me his hard erect manhood. Hindi ko na pinatagal, I touched it, caressing with my hands and I sucked him whole, pero I cant –I can already feel his cock on my throat yet it's not enough to have him whole. Masyado syang mahaba at malaki. That's why I already started the movement inside my mouth... in and out –licked, sucked, sipped his head na nagpapaungol sa kanya.
Dagdagan pa nang pagpisil at pagmasahe ko rito, and I can feel it –heis about to explode. Kaya mabilis nyang inalis ako sa ibaba nya and again changed our position. He is now on top of me.
But before he entered me... he stared at me, with love in his eyes. It's visible, I can see it and I think he is seeing it too in my eyes. And he asked me a terrifying yet mind blowing question.
“Will you?—” I am patiently waiting sa karugtong ng tanong niya, dahil mahirap nang mag-assume.
“—Will you marry me, Leysa Frank? Guevara? Whatever... f*ck. Just marry me, baby, please.” He said it, pero bakit parang hindi patanong? He is pleading with me to marry him which made me chuckle. I saw how his brows met. Nakasimangot na ito.
“Are you forcing me to marry you, Mr. Wilford?” Imbis sagutin siya ng oo o hindi, ay sinagot ko siya ng patanong din kaya mas lalong hindi maipinta ang mukha niya. And I know nakakadagdag din na sumasakit na ang puson niya. He needs to release it, but he is patiently waiting for my great response before doing any movements.
“Don't frown. You look scary. It's like any time soon, you will eat me whole. But fine, yeah. As if I have a choice, anyway.” Reklamo ko, but then napangiti na ito sa sagot ko.
“So it's a yes? As in you want to marry me. My goodness, I am the happiest man alive.” And after saying those words –he thrusted deep inside me, and I moaned in so much pleasure. Shit, it hurts but damn it, it feels so good —him inside me. Pumping it.Up and down. In and out. I also moved my hips to meet his every thrust, to make it deeper inside me. Ilan pang labas-masok ng kanya sa akin... we exploded together. He poured it all inside me, as usualwalang sinayang.
Hindi niya pa nailalabas ang kanya sa akin ay napasalampak na ito sa ibabaw ko –still as one, he hugged me tight but enough for me to breathe, that's why I hugged him too.
“Thank you for making love with me, Leysa. I love you so much.” He whispered and went to a deep slumber.
I am happy. Yes, I am happy. I am very happy, and I could say it now that—
“Frederik Wilford is ready to choose me now. He chose to love me, forever and so am I to him.”