Scarlett
Seeing him in pain hurt me but he didn't get hurt when he was fucking his wife. I suffered through that pain because he couldn't resist his pretty Alpha wife.
He turned his face to the wall when I caught his eyes glistening with moisture. All I wanted to do was to cup his face and kiss him hard on his lips though he was the reason for my pain.
"I'm alive because of you, Scarlett," he spoke in a shaking voice before turning back to me while I got dressed back. "Do you regret saving my life?"
My heart couldn't imagine a world where Klaus didn't exist. Yes, he hurt me in the worst way but I didn't want him dead. I wanted him alive even if in someone else's arms.
"I regret believing your words. I regret being marked by you. I regret being mated with you. I regret falling for…" unspoken words remained in my mouth. He didn't deserve to know the truth.
"Leave the fucking room, Klaus Nelson," I shouted out in fury, not being able to hold back my tears. "Leave me alone just like you did before when I needed you the most."
"I didn't," he muttered and let out a desperate sigh. "I came to you but your mom didn't allow me to see you."
"You're lying. You left me alone to deal with my heat when I needed you the most," I muttered through gritted teeth, shoving his hands off my body.
His face drained the colors, the muscle in his jaw working hard to restrain his anger but this time, I couldn’t care less about his emotions.
I guess once you’re left alone to deal with your shit by the person whom you loved the most, you become indifferent to others’ emotions because you’re having fair shares of your emotions to deal with.
Klaus grabbed my elbows and made me look into his eyes. “I need you to trust me, Scarlett. I don’t even remember what happened that night and Todd has shunned me. The mind-link with you no longer isn’t working. If it would have been working, you could check my memories yourself.”
Why was my heart still racing getting deja vu of our last memories snaps?
Why was I feeling those butterflies in my stomach, having his scorching gaze at my lips?
Why did tingles flood over my skin everywhere due to his touch and our proximity?
My heart was fucking stupid to feel those stupid things. He had broken my heart but the other part of me couldn’t blame him because it was her wife so I couldn’t even blame him for cheating on me considering she could blame me with the title of his wife.
“You know what, it’s better,” I said, taking a step back. “I don’t want to see what you did with your drop-dead-gorgeous wife.”
Klaus used his Alpha gaze at me to search for the mind-link but I shifted my gaze back to the window. I didn't want any connection between our memories.
“I’ll go insane if you wouldn’t trust me and that…” his voice trailed off. Swallowing a lump in his throat, he murmured in a depressive tone, “I can’t stand that pain in your eyes, and those scars are nightmares for me. I’ll never be able to forgive myself for this but please, don’t leave this pack. Don’t leave me, please. I beg you.”
“The son-in-law of the Alpha King shouldn’t beg anyone.” I stilled all the emotions that stirred in me and glimpsed at him. “I don’t have any reason to stay but I can’t reject you either because I’m a lantern.”
The tears pricked my eyes as I revealed the secret about myself and caught him staring back at me with puzzled eyes.
“Layla says that I can’t reject my mate otherwise, I might lose my life and I can’t live here as your whore because that will kill my dignity so the only option left for me is to leave this pathetic pack of yours and spend my remaining days with my family in my pack,” I explained, not for any particular reason.
Sometimes you can’t lose the feelings for someone whom you loved dearly and truly so you still want to share everything with them even though it didn’t matter to them at all.
“No. No. No, Scarlett,” he refused with shimmering eyes. “You’re marked and mated with me so you won’t be able to survive without your mate beside you for more than a week, assessing you’re a lantern.”
I had expected him to hate me or mock me when I told him about my being a lantern but he didn’t react to it.
My heart and mind weren’t working in harmony so they were constantly arguing with each other on contrary topics which were driving me crazy.
“I’ll not let you do this to yourself, baby,” he cupped my cheeks and kissed my forehead and for a moment, everything that he did vaporized from my mind and I leaned into his touch.
Regaining my composure, I spat, “as if, Klaus. As if.”
“As if what, baby?”
“Don’t baby me, you cheater.”
“I didn’t-”
“I saw it with my fucking eyes-”
“Eyes can be deceived. I know it in my heart that I didn’t-”
“Oh, please. You’re just like the other Alphas who find the chance to enter into a hot chick’s pants and your wife is way too hot to keep your dick in your pants around her and-”
Before I could finish my words, he pinned me against the wall, holding my hands above my head. “I. Did. Not. Fuck. Her.”
His pine and cinnamon scent was easing the pain he was causing my bruised back. I cursed my fucking drumming heart.
“Anything that helps you sleep at night?” I raised my eyebrows and tried to vacate my hands from his firm grip but I failed all my attempts.
“I tried to talk to Jenny about this but she hates me too much to even listen. Marcus is finding ways to get my mate,” he sighed, throwing his head in the crook of my neck. “For once, Scarlett, just for once, believe me, that I didn’t sleep with her. All I can remember is being with you in the bathtub. I don't remember anything that happened that night between her and me though I wasn’t drunk and her red eyes...”
If I listened to his excuses, I knew that I'd forgive him because I loved him too much so I just thought about my pain. He was the reason behind my sufferings, the Moon Goddess punished me because he mated with someone else.
“Leave me the fuck alone, Klaus. You’re hurting me,” I said, closing my eyes.
“I’m so sorry. I’m really sorry.” He instantly released me from his grasp.
“For the record, I didn’t deserve the sorry,” I said coldly before walking away from him.
“If I wanted that, I wouldn’t be here,” his words halted me in my steps.
He had the nerve to show me his fake love. I turned my face back to him and crossed my arms. “My mate leaves me alone when my sister dies. I saw my mate marrying someone else, I understood his circumstances. Yet my mate leaves me alone again in my first heat and cheats on me while I can’t even call that cheating on me because technically, she is his wife so mating with him makes me a whore but having sex with his wife is nothing wrong though he has a mate. If I would have heard about this from someone else, I would have never believed them but I saw you with her. All your I want you, I need you and I love yous are lies. Fucking lies.” I screamed out furiously without taking a pause.
“The bruises all over my body are speaking loudly that my mate cheated on me so I’m not interested in solving the mystery behind why you don’t remember and make a fool of myself. This love has caused me enough pain so please, leave me the fuck alone.” My whole body was trembling with fury and pain.
Seeing the hurting expressions on his face hurt me, too, but at this moment, I chose to be selfish because I couldn’t tolerate being his whore and being cool with my Alpha mate sleeping with his wife.
“How dare you come inside after what you did to my daughter?” My mom asked and I realized that everyone had rushed into my room after hearing my high-pitched cry.
“I know that you’re in pain and hurt because of me but please, don’t disrespect yourself. I can’t withstand that.” His hazel eyes held sincerity laced with pain. “I wish you could recall our moments and check if you ever found me lying to you and you can hate me for what I’m going to do now but I won’t let you kill yourself by separation.”
Klaus then scooped me up in his arms though I kept thrashing in his arms and punching his shoulder. “Blame me for all you want, sweetheart but there is no escaping from me.”
"Leave my daughter alone, you shitty Alpha," my mom stood between the doorway and us.
"I command my Beta to take care of these ladies and make a way for me," he commanded Greg and I saw the disappointment in his eyes for his new Alpha.