“Yes, hello, miss?” A guy approached me while I was standing near the site where they were building a 10-storey building that I think would be a hotel after it is done.
Looking at Gray wearing a white cap, I knew that he is the project engineer or the senior engineer whatever they call it. Although, I wasn't sure about the girl he was with since she seems to be visiting the place with her sophisticated outfit that didn't even fit the place.
Who would wear a dress on a site, right? Not just any dress or formal dress but a very seductive dress to the point that her boobs are already popping out from her dress. Take note, she was also wearing make-up. Okay, the sun is so hot. Where is she? Does she think she's in a party?
I never really care about anyone or their life or their dress, but this girl is making me annoyed because she's with Gray. And, she's better than me. Not better, beautiful and gorgeous or name all the synonyms for the word beautiful.
Ugh! I am getting jealous of someone when I should have not been jealous. It's a surprise for Gray, yet it seems to me that I was the one surprised. What a nice day, right?
“I’m sorry, you can’t just linger around. May I help you?” The guy added looking at me from head to toe.
It made me look at myself, too, and even though I know it's bad. I started comparing myself to her. Ugh! I hate wearing those kind of outfit that she wore even though I can afford it. Honestly, I can afford to wear all those extravagant and sophisticated dresses and accessories yet I chose not do. Should I start wearing them now? It seems Gray likes girls like her - lady-like - because I am that boy-like. I mean, I will always choose comfortable outfits that settle with something to impress someone.
Well, what am I even saying? I should stop over-thinking. This is not really good for the health and for my inner peace.
But, when I glanced at Gray who was facing his back on me while a girl - a sophisticated, elegant lady - beside him kept on talking and even flirting with Gray. Okay, what is this? Jealously is killing me. Should I interrupt them?
“I’m sorry. I’m looking for Gray.” I replied to him with a sad smile.
“Oh. Engineer Elizalde,” he confirmed. “He's over there! Hey, Engr!” He called out, making Gray turn his back and I saw the surprise on his face upon seeing me.
Is that because I caught him with another girl? Wow! I don’t know what to think, but let me hear him first. I told him I will trust him. But, I really couldn't help but think of something else.
“Someone is looking for you!” He yelled and went back to his work.
I showed him a cup of coffee and smiled a little as he jogged towards me. He was only wearing a white shirt and khaki pants with his shoes and a white engineer cap. I somehow smiled because I am also wearing a white v-neck shirt and just a jogger pants and my white shoes. I don't know if Gray likes simplicity. I should probably asked him that later so that I will
“Hey, babe!” He happily told me as he approached me. “What are you doing here?” He looked at me confused although I felt that he was happy to see me.
“I was near the area, so I decided to visit you. Did I come at the wrong time?” I asked, hoping he'll talk about what I saw or he'll realize that I saw it.
“No. no. You’re at the right time.” He smiled and was about to kiss me when the girl who’s been flirting at him since interrupted us. Psh! I tried to hide my disgusted face as I looked at her.
“Oh. Who’s the girl, Gray?” She said and raised her brow at me. Wow! The nerve of her to raise her brow towards me.
But...wait...I blinked.
I heard her voice from somewhere. I mean, I have that short-term memory and often forget things, but I never forget voices of people when I heard them. That is why I know who's calling me from behind as long as I heard it the first time. I would never forget that voice because I cursed that voice when I first heard it.
“I recognized your voice…” I stared at her and my hands were already shaking as my mind started to think unnessary things. I shouldn't be overthinking, but I just couldn't help myself.
“You are the one who answered my call," I stated while she raised her brow, maybe trying to remember then I saw how her confused look turned into a smile when she realized that.
"So, you are his secretary?” I confirmed just like what Gray told me because I might go crazy not knowing what’s happening. I don’t want to be a fool. I believe in him but I have to confirm my instinct even though I am terrified by it.
“I remember now. But, secretary?” The girl hissed as she turned to Gray.
Gray signaled something to her that I couldn't not understand and made me raise suspicions. Do they even have a secret code? Gosh! What is this?
“Ouch. You told her that I am your secretary?” She shook her head. “C’mon, Gray…” She playfully smiled.
I looked at Gray and his face says he’s not liking this conversation especially when I learned that he lied to me. He held my hand and I tried my best not to let go while waiting for a confirmation. I don't want to make a scene in front of this girl, so I should wait for Gray.
“I am Vivian,” The girl introduced herself. “I am an interior designer.”
“I am Deanara Samaniego,” I said, not shaking the hand she offered.
“My girlfriend,” Gray put his hands on mine and told the girl who looked surprised like she couldn’t believe it. Is that unbelievable? Just because I look like this? Okay, what is wrong with this? Damn! Should I start acting like the real me, my real life status? Ugh!I hate bragging yet I felt like saying to her that I could buy this place where standing if I want to. Nevermind. I should not level myself to her.
“Really? That’s amazing…” She nodded and looked closely at me, from head to toe. It's not even the look that people would like.
“What’s your work? Where did you meet?” She started asking us while still looking at me. “What are you--”
“You should ask Gray about that while you are wiping his sweat,” I sarcastically smiled which made her stop. I am not really a bad person, but she's making me hate her. "Should I give you my handkerchief to do that?"
“Babe…” Gray whispered and held my waist. “Let’s…”
“Nice meeting you,” I told her before facing Gray. “I’ll go ahead because it seems like I am bothering you.” I rolled my eyes and flipped my hair. I am feeling like a bitch today because of her.
“No. I’ll drop you home,” Gray said. He removed his cap and called one of the engineers telling him that he needs to go home early while I pretended to look at their buildings. I am trying not to be mean but I can't help but critized it's architectural design. Well, honestly, I just don't have something to vent my feelings with so I am putting all my frustration in a building that doesn't even feel anything.
Vivian was still looking at us as we left the site. I could feel her stare behind my back like she was cursing me. She’s freaking damn gorgeous and I felt jealousy crawling over my skin. I tried to remove it but it seems to be killing me inside. I am just quiet inside the car while waiting for Gray to start the car.
“I thought we were going home?” I asked, trying not to suffocate in our silence.
“Talk to me first.” He emphasized the words as he looked at me seriously. He tried to held my hand, but I pushed him away and looked outside.
“What else should I say?” I muttered.
“Are you mad at me?” He asked.
“Is there a reason for me to be mad?” I asked back.
He sighed. I don't know what he's thinking and I don't want to know becauset that might hurt me. Although, I still need to know. Damn this feeling! I don't know how to handle them. Is love really this complicated? Reading love stories never taught me how to handle pain.
“Why did you tell me it was your secretary?” I glared at him.
“I don’t want you to think and be paranoid because she answered the call early in the morning and you--”
I cut him off.
“I might think that you spent the night with her, is that it? Well, I am thinking about it now.” I raised my brows.
“Babe!” Gray held my hand and tried to calm me.
I closed my eyes and inhaled.
“Tell me something I don’t know,” I urged him and regretted it when he said.
“Vivian’s my ex-girlfriend."
Somehow, I wasn’t shocked because I could feel the bond between them a while ago. I tried to ignore it but they looked like a perfect couple that when people glanced at them they’ll be jealous. I am jealous. They're perfect. And, they seemed to be fine even they broke up so it could mean that they never stop loving each other. Is that it?
“And? You’re still working with her?” I said, confused.
I don't have an ex-boyfriend. I may have dated some but we never really became a couple and we didn't break each other hearts that is why I could still remain friends with them. After all, we're friends and those guys who courted me accepted the fact that I could only offer friendship.
But...Gray and Vivian? Can we really be friends with our exes? I should get a book pertaining to questions about love because this is making me crazy.
“She works as an interior designer at out company and she’s--”
“She’s the one who designed your unit that you want me to change, right?” I blurted. There's a disappointment in my voice. That maybe the reason why it took him a long time to invite me in his unit because it's their space.
He nodded and continued explaining. “I swear. We are really over and she’s just flirting and I no longer--”
“Why did it end when you look perfect and it seems to me she still has feelings?”
Gray straightly looked me in the eyes as he said, “She cheated on me with my brother.”
I blinked. Oh, that. I didn’t expect it.
“I caught her having sex with my brother. She’s been cheating for years and I didn’t even realize that.” I saw the pain that crossed his eyes when he looked away.
I never felt that yet I know how it hurts to see the one you trusted the most betray you. Pain was even an understatement.
“How long have you been together?” I asked.
“8 years,” he stated. “But, I swear it’s over. When I met you, it was already over. It’s been a year since that happened and she was already with my brother. The morning she answered your call, I left my phone at the kitchen when I visited our house and she was there with my brother...she---”
“Okay.” I stopped him. “It’s okay. I get it now. Just answer me, do you still love her?”
Silence means yes, but when Gray went silent, I fully understood he’s not yet over.