Gray’s POV
“What are you trying to do?” Deanara hissed in frustration as she looked at me.
We were the only ones left after the meeting. I shrugged as I played with my pen while slowly moving my swivel chair staring at her. She’s really beautiful. I want to kiss her and I hate the fact that Ethan’s kissing her now.
“What? I am not doing anything?” I innocently replied.
“What was that?” She moved her head sideways while pertaining to the scene a while ago. “Are you trying to create an issue?”
“What?” I licked my lips and continued teasing it. “It’s not an issue. It’s the truth.”
“You are not funny, Gray.” She curled up her lips and sighed. “You are not making it easy for me.”
“You were the one who made it hard in the first place when you cheated on me…” I glared at her and showed how angry I am. “With my brother.”
“Gray…I didn’t…” Her lips parted and I could sense she was trying to say something but she chose not to say it.
“What?” I frowned. “You didn’t mean it? That’s what Vivian said. I heard it.”
“I am not Vivian,” She gritted her teeth and I know how she hated the fact that I compared her with Vivian. I regretted it when I saw the pain in her eyes but I couldn’t take it back.
“What is the difference between you and Vivian, then?” I asked.
I hate to compare her with Vivian because they are different, but what they did to me is just the same. They both hurt me.
“Nevermind.” She shook her head and arranged her things.
I stood up and walked towards her, stopping her from fixing her things.
“What now?” She raised her voice. “I am trying to be professional in front of you so please just let’s just pretend that we don’t --”
“How can I pretend that you didn’t hurt me?” I said with sadness and pain in my eyes.
I thought I would just pretend or I can pretend that she never existed in my life, but my heart couldn’t. When she left me after that night, it ruined me. I was devastated. I did not go to work. I spent all my time at home and I even tried to talk to her and look for her after she left the country, but I wasn’t able to find her.
What killed me was the fact that my brother also left and I heard from Lyuna that they are together. So, I decided to move on. I really did but every night, when I think about it, it’s still killing me. I would accept it if another guy but not my brother for the second time.
It took me months before I was able to pick up myself. I thought I wouldn’t be able to do it. Although, it made me stronger.
I promise myself that I will never let anyone break me again. I closed my heart to anyone and tried to make myself a better version of myself. I vowed not to fall in love again. I told myself she would be the last girl I will ever love.
After three years, she was standing in front of me and I lost myself.
No. I couldn’t forget her. It would always be her and I would forever regret it if I would not pursue her. I don’t care if it even means fighting with my brother. He started it and I will end it.
“Gray…” She looked down and I felt how sorry she was. “I am so sorry but please…”
“Why did you do it?” My voice started shaking as I gulped the lump in my throat. “I-I told you, you can cheat...you can as long as it’s not my brother…” I bit my lower lip and lifted my head to stop my tears.
“No, Gray…” She shook her head. “I should be the one asking that, why did you do it to me?”
“What do you mean by that?” I blinked, confused. “Now, it’s about me? I am talking about--”
“Let us stop here, Gray and just be professional. Okay? I want to finish this project so I can go back to Spain and we both have peace of mind.”
“You know that’s a lie,” I replied. “I will never have a piece of mind until I have you again.”
“Gray, what do you want from me?” She asked and I could see how she was already irritated by me.
“Do you love my brother?”
“I will go ahead. I still need to…”
“The question is answerable by yes or now.” I firmly asked. “Just answer me.”
“Do you really want to get hurt again?” She smirked. “Do you want to hear it?” She stared at my eyes and dropped the words that killed me again. “I love your brother more than I ever loved you.”