— No male should touch Camilla. Let the females themselves
Finish her off— I declared it firm.
I dodged Aiden’s touch when my brother held me by
arm. He opened his mouth to speak, but I denied it with my head. I didn’t want to
talk to him or anyone. I raised my hand when Clary threatened
accompany me and continued my way. Knew my family
was worried about me, but I didn’t want the company of
nobody.
I turned my back on the guilty, the wolves, my family and friends and
walked away, towards the house I shared with Jack, needed
being alone. I couldn’t stand to be among angry wolves anymore
thirst for revenge.
The door was open, I practically ran down the stairs
second floor of the house. The smell of Jack mixed with mine was
impregnated in the walls, everything we spent together there made my eyes
fill with tears.
Miss tightened my chest. Longing for when we lived in peace,
it was us against the world.
I walked down the hall quietly until I got to the room I was sleeping with
Jack in the last weeks. I pushed to the door and took my hand to the mouth to see
the messy room, and somehow destroyed. Probably Jack
He did everything here after finding out what I’d done, that I’d left and left him.
The weight of the past few days has fallen on my shoulders. My legs
failed and my knees reached the bedroom rug, I took my hands
up to my face and allowed the crying to come out freely. Hiccups
broke the silence of the room and shook my body. The pain me
lacerated from the inside.
The tears wet my face and trickled down my skin. The air
got stuck in my throat, my sight blurred by the water in
my eyes. The mask I kept before my people and mine
family collapsed. I lay my trembling body on the floor, I shrank, hugging
and cried intensely, allowing the tears to wipe the
wounds of my soul.
I closed my ears when the screams and groans of pain began.
I tried to get rid of those sounds, the same ones I heard in the lair, the supplications
and lamentations.
For almost an hour I lay on the ground, shrunk on the
carpet with my eyes closed. I plunged into grief and pain, in
regret and bitterness. And it was at that moment that I realized
that my light was turned off. I had no strength to rise from the ground,
then I stood there, paralyzed, watching the world go on without me.
Knocks rang at the door, was so submerged in sorrow that no
I found my voice to send the other person on the other side away,
I wanted to be alone. Was it so hard to understand that?
And again, the person kept knocking on the door and I kept on
silence. Even the doorknob turned and the door opened.
— Werewolf?
I squeezed my eyes tighter, hearing Jack’s voice, he gasped in
surprised to find me lying on the floor.
— By the moon, Hayley— ran to me.
I pushed my eyelids up and let out a low groan
when he ran his arm across my back, trying to lift me off the ground.
I want to be alone.
He grunted in response. Grumpy and stubborn wolf.
— I won’t leave you alone— passed my other arm
legs and pulled me off the floor.
— Jack— I whined his name when he took me to the bathroom.
Don’t push it, Hayley.
I sniffed, running my hand up my nose and grimacing in response.
Jack sat me down on the marble sink in the bathroom carefully and went to the
porcelain bathtub, opening the taps and letting the water
hot gushes. He came again to me and held my face with
hands, pushing a brown strand of hair behind the
my ear.
— Go away— I whispered, trembling, trying to get away from her gaze so affectionate.
Jack denied, running his thumb across my wet cheek,
wiping away tears. I bit my lower lip.
Let me take care of you, my love.
Leaned my forehead on yours, trying to hold the hiccups, pressed the
lips hard not to cry.
Maybe it was the fatigue, the pain and the fear of being alone, but I pushed it all away
that I had heard from the vampire of my mind at that moment and allowed
that Jack looked after me, didn’t have the strength to deny his
aid.
All right, I finally agreed, the voice choked.
Jack pulled me out of the sink and put me on the floor, he helped me take the
Isaac’s jacket, the leather stuck to my dirty skin, and the pain in mine
muscles became unbearable. Jack took his hand up to the zipper of the
dressed and looked at me, waiting for approval.
— May I have your permission?
I just nodded, letting him continue. Jack slipped his zipper and dress
dirty and torn fell on my feet, I was only in panties before him
and it didn’t take long to take the little piece of black lace. I didn’t feel
no embarrassment to be so exposed in front of Jack, he already
You’ve seen me naked several times.
Jack touched my back slightly, keeping his eyes on my face.
I approached the bathtub and when I entered, diving into the water
hot and smelling, I let out a long sigh of relief.
Somehow, the hot water brought relief to my aching body.
Jack handed me a soft sponge, poured liquid soap on
sponge and began to rub it on my skin, wiping me from dirt.
Jack sat on the edge of the bathtub behind me, he took the
shampoo and poured a generous amount into your hands,
passing in my hair, I shuddered with your touch, I could almost
feel the smile rising on your lips. Inhaled the smell of shampoo
that spread all over the bathroom. Jack massaged and washed mine
hair, with an impressive care and delicacy.
I relaxed in the hot tub and cleaned all my body from the dirt of
last days.
I turned my head and looked at Jack, he looked back at me, passing the
sponge behind my back. He didn’t say a word, but his
look out enough, the worry and affection in your eyes were the
greatest proof of love I needed to know he loved me
as much as I loved him. Because despite everything we suffered, he
still amazed me with fascination and passion.
— Thank you— I whispered, so he wouldn’t notice my trembling voice.
Jack smiled sideways, touching my nose with the tip of his finger.
I promised I’d always be there for you, little wolf.
I swallowed it hard.
— Even after I break your heart and break your trust? —
I took a chance, asking.
Jack got up from the bathtub and took a white towel, I stood up from
bathtub and the water ran down my body. He involved me with the
soft fabric and kissed my cheek lengthily.
— You can break my heart a thousand times, he’ll never stop loving you.
My heart jumped inside my chest. The emotion in your
eyes caught me off guard. Jack loved me. He really loved me
after I almost finished everything we had. He still me
loved. My head turned with that information.
I hugged him tight, not caring about getting him wet. Jack me
wrapped with his arms and pulled me out of the tub, taking me to the
room quietly. He handed me a black sweater and one of my
lingerie sets.
I let out a low moan as I lay in bed now tidy and
comfortable. The curtains were pulled and covered the glass windows
so that I didn’t see what was happening in the city center, I didn’t know if
had the stomach to see all that torture. Jack turned off the light, but
left the lamp by the bed access, probably
understanding my fear with the dark.
Jack handed me a small metal pot. When I opened it, a smell
strong and refreshing hit me. I stared, waiting for an answer
for the pasty contents inside the container.
— It is a balm to help wounds.
The balm had a delicious odor. The smell spread
through the room. I closed the lid of the container and put it on the table.
— Thanks for the balm, but I’d rather let my wounds be
heal on their own.
A deep sigh broke through Jackson.
Don’t do it, Hayley.
I avoided his gaze as much as I could. I allowed Jack to
but didn’t want to talk about what happened. At least
not yet, I’d need some time to recover.
I am exhausted, Jack.
He scratched his throat and hit his hands in sweatpants that
I won’t disturb you anymore. Rest, dear.
With a heavy heart, I saw him walk away and leave the room, closing the door and leaving me alone. I wrapped my body with the blanket and
sunk my head into the soft pillow. The silence and the darkness of the
place made me shrink on the bed.
A well opened beneath my feet, so deep I needed to keep
eyes open so that the darkness would not swallow me up completely.
I felt the emptiness in my soul, I could almost touch it. It was so tempting
allow diving and end everything, but people depended on
me, my people needed me to shine like an ember of
hope reborn from the ashes. And for them, for my family, my
friends and Jack, I would fight to the end, until my strength runs out.
Quitting was not an option.
I closed my eyes and tried to calm the whirlwind of confused thoughts
in my mind. Fatigue and exhaustion soon overcame me and I
fell asleep.
When I opened my eyes, I was back in the lair, instead of
torture. The odor of rot and death spread through the air wrapped my
stomach.
Blood stained my hands. Cries and cries of despair made
my ears hurt. I saw bodies scattered across the floor of the lair,
known males and females, my family. Everyone I loved
were in pieces on the floor, and on the walls. A horrendous scene of
see.
I threw up on the floor and on my clothes, and blood escaped from my mouth.
When I looked down, my body was bathed in blood. I tried
run, ask for help, but no sound escaped from my mouth. At the end of the hall, I found them. Nick and the vampire. I shuddered to see them
move in my direction.
The sound of their dark laughter gave me chills. No
I managed to leave the place, watched them approach, paralyzed in place.
And that’s when I noticed that Nick was carrying something and when the stray
raised his hand, showed me Jack’s head hanging.
A scream broke from the back of my throat when I opened my eyes
and jumped out of bed, still screaming and trembling. Tears bathed my
face covered with sweat. I ran my hands through my hair still
wet, and chipped my teeth, trying to calm my crying.