35: save4 The Missing Happiness
After everything ended.
Lu Lele didn't know how much time had passed. Because the refractory period for a girl's body was almost non existent, or very short, she and Liu Lili had climbed toward the mountain peak again and again, until both were utterly exhausted.
Lu Lele and Liu Lili lay face to face on the small bed in the basement, fingers intertwined.
The lingering blush hadn't yet faded from Lu Lele's face. Her breathing still couldn't calm down for a long time.
Even though they had done similar things before, this forbidden experience wasn't the first time.
But this time was especially pleasurable. Lu Lele could barely straighten her back.
Could it be, the additional bonus from mutual affection?
Or perhaps, it was because the previous version of herself hadn't found the right way to use this body?
Lu Lele didn't know.
At this moment, she only knew that being a girl was such a joyful thing, definitely a hundred times happier than when she was a boy before transmigrating.
"...By the way, Lele, why are there so many strange dolls in this room?"
Her childhood friend beside her suddenly spoke up.
"Ah... that's a long story."
Lu Lele, feeling very relaxed at the moment, explained without much thought:
"This is my dad's room. He was a furry, that is, a furry enthusiast. He liked these half human, half beast fluffy dolls covered in fur. This was his secret base for collecting these toys, in the hidden basement of the house. I spent a lot of effort tailing him to finally find out how to get in."
After hearing this answer, Liu Lili naturally asked:
"Then Lele, aren't you worried that your dad will suddenly find an extra person in the basement when he returns from his business trip?"
"Him? Ha, don't joke. He's been dead for eight years..."
Lu Lele said instinctively, her brain catching up to her mouth half a beat late.
Only after finishing this sentence did Lu Lele react. Her relaxed eyes suddenly widened, realizing she had inadvertently revealed a secret she had kept hidden from her childhood friend for many years.
This was not good.
"...Wait?"
Liu Lili naturally couldn't ignore Lu Lele's words. First stunned, then she stared into Lu Lele's eyes and cautiously asked:
"Just now, Lele, did you say your father is..."
"...Yes, he passed away. In a car accident."
Lu Lele sighed and said softly.
Actually, Lu Lele didn't know why her past self had hidden the fact of her parents' deaths from Liu Lili. Perhaps she was afraid of being labeled as different, or perhaps the young Lu Lele back then was worried that if Liu Lili knew, she wouldn't want to play with her anymore. But one thing was certain…
Lu Lele had always carefully avoided letting Liu Lili know about her parents' deaths.
Until now.
But since it had been accidentally revealed, there was no longer any need to hide it.
"Lili, I'm sorry. I've kept this hidden all this time."
Lu Lele spoke rather calmly:
"Not just my dad, but also my mom. They were driving home from work when I was six, and a drunk bastard hit them... Then, they never came back."
"The next time I saw them, it was just two black and white photos placed on their coffins... That was my last impression of Mom and Dad."
"Car accident... when you were six?"
Liu Lili's expression suddenly became very strange. She asked:
"Lele, then who is your current guardian?"
"My older sister."
After saying this, Lu Lele seemed to realize something. Smiling, she said:
"Lili, don't have unrealistic fantasies~ My sister only comes back once a month, and she doesn't know about this basement at all. Not only that, the soundproofing of this basement is top notch~"
"That means, Lili won't be discovered, and there's no chance of escape either, right?"
"Idiot."
Liu Lili suddenly softly scolded Lu Lele.
"Huh?"
Lu Lele hadn't expected Liu Lili to suddenly curse at her. But Liu Lili's mouth didn't stop:
"Idiot, fool, big dummy."
"Lele, why only tell me this now?"
Liu Lili seemed somewhat angry:
"Didn't you say we were best friends?"
"..."
Lu Lele had no choice but to remain silent.
The key point was, this wasn't really her fault. If anyone was to blame, it was the original Lu Lele before being "transmigrated," the one who had hidden it and refused to speak.
"...Lele, I know."
Liu Lili suddenly reached out and hugged Lu Lele, pulling her into her own embrace:
"I know, you must have endured a lot of pain alone."
"No matter what pain, you can tell me."
"Because, we are lovers who love each other, right?"
Was Liu Lili... taking this opportunity to increase her favorability points?
Lu Lele felt Liu Lili's actions were a bit deliberate, not entirely natural.
Liu Lili's comforting behavior at this moment seemed more like a decision she made after thinking upon discovering the information Lu Lele revealed. This also fit Liu Lili's character well.
But even so...
Lu Lele's eyes grew moist.
Ever since her parents died, no one had ever comforted Lu Lele like Liu Lili was doing now.
Never.
Her late grandmother wasn't very good at comforting, only continuously patting Lu Lele's head, telling her everything would get better, and giving her a lot of money to buy good food. But money couldn't mend the lost, sorrowful heart of a young Lu Lele. Lu Lele could only swallow the pain alone, force a smile for her grandmother, and silently save the money.
As for Lu Lele's biological older sister, Lu Yanyan, she was an even bigger "heavyweight." That person didn't even shed a tear at their parents' funeral. Every time Lu Lele mentioned their parents at home, Lu Yanyan had an expression of 'Why are you still hung up on them?' followed by a string of lectures, telling Lu Lele things like you need to move on from the trauma, you can't dwell on the past, you must look toward the future, all cold, detached words.
Since childhood, the absence of her parents had been one of the most sensitive things deep in Lu Lele's heart.
No matter what, Lu Lele could only do everything herself. No one could help her. When unhappy things happened, Lu Lele had no one to confide in. Her grandmother wasn't good at comforting, her sister was always away at school, never home. Lu Lele could only silently grit her teeth and swallow everything.
She, only had herself.
Gradually, Lu Lele grew up. She seemed to have grown accustomed to it all, behaving vivaciously and cheerfully, appearing like an ordinary girl on the outside.
Only Lu Lele herself knew she was actually a child starved for love.
And precisely because of this, Lu Lele became a yandere.
It was a kind of compensation. Adding what she herself lacked a hundredfold onto her beloved, and being endlessly afraid of losing it again.
It was a strange revenge against fate, or perhaps, compensation for her own past.
Lu Lele didn't suppress her emotions, simply nestled in her childhood friend's embrace, weeping softly.
But the corners of her mouth gradually lifted into a curve.
It was the happy smile of a girl comforted by her beloved.