LAST NIGHT I told Jr. what happened at the mall. I saw the restrained anger on his face as he sighed steadily holding my hand.
We were here in the living room while watching the show but both of our attention was not there. We sat on the sofa but I was leaning on his chest.
“I don't know what to do with that girl. I talked to Ade's parents and told them what really happened then.”
"Did you tell them about you and Amanda?" he nodded.
"Yes, it's necessary, so that I can also say what their daughter is doing now,"
"What did they say, are they mad at you?"
“They were angry at first, but they also calmed down because nothing will happen no matter what their reaction will be because Ade is no longer her. Then I didn't feel bad for Ade, I just apologized for what happened to Amanda.”
"Will they take any action on what their daughter is doing now?"
"They said they will talk to her and send her back to another country." I didn't answer so he lifted my head. "What are you thinking?"
"The truth is I'm afraid of what she can do, if you've seen earlier maybe what would you think also." I'm really restless. I don't know but as the wedding approached I became even more nervous. It's because it's not normal for me that that woman is acting so I can't help but think badly.
"Don't worry, no one can stop our marriage." I brought my head close to his chest to sink. As much as Jr. and I went through, I just now felt afraid that I would lose him forever because of that woman.
"What if she makes trouble at the wedding?" He didn't say a word so I looked up. "What if she goes there and protests and scandalizes and makes up a story?" I heard him sigh then took my hand.
“I don't know, Mia, but I hope she won't mess with me on the wedding day. Because I don't know what I can do to her in front of so many people.”
"Let's just hope she stops or we'll put security there so he can't get close."
"Go away!" Jr. and I looked at each other because we heard Janel scream. It looks like she just arrived and she has an enemy right outside.
“Is it Janel?” he asked so we got up to peek outside. But when we went out to see what had happened. We were also shaken at the same time when we saw Amanda at the gate.
"Jr!" She smiled as she called Jr.
Jr. took my hand and carried it outside.
"Get out!" Janel shouted.
Jr. grabbed Janel and then nodded as a signal that he would take care of Amanda. Janel just followed even though I noticed her face angry. Jr. let go of my hand and then approached Amanda. I heard him take a deep breath as if calming himself then hold Amanda's hand.
"Please enough," he pleaded as he shook the girl's hand. "Please, that's enough." Jr. pleads and I don’t know what emotion I’m going to feel first. To feel sorry for her or to be angry with Amanda.
“Jr, I should be the only one you love. I am. You love me ‘don’t you? Let's just get married together.” I saw the sadness in Amanda's eyes. I don't know, but I feel like I've changed my mind again. If I get annoyed at this opportunity or feel sorry for her.
“Forgive me for relying on you before, Amanda. You have also been important in my life and you have made a space in my heart. But my admiration for you can't match my love for Mia. Not because she looks like or is the same as Ade, but because I love her. I really love her.”
"Did you love me then?" Jr. bowed and then tightened his grip on Amanda's hand before shaking his head.
I feel like I was punched in Jr.'s shake. I know it is wrong to feel sorry for the woman who is chasing the person I love. But as a woman, I hurt for Amanda.
"So, everything you told me before is not true?" this time Amanda was already crying. "You just said that to get my body?"
"Amanda,"
"Answer me," she asked calmly despite the sobs.
"Yes," Jr. replied as he bent down and looked at Amanda. "Forgive me." Amanda punched Jr. in the chest while continuing to sob.
“You used me, you just used me to get closer to Ade? You used me to remove your heat. You just used me, you animal! User!” she shouted as she continued to punch Jr. in the chest.
"I'm sorry," Jr. apologized then held Amanda's hand.
"You know I love you, what's my fault with you, Jr.?"
"Amanda,"
Amanda was sitting on the road as she continued to cry. Jr. looked at me so I asked him to comfort Amanda but he shook her head. Maybe he just didn’t want her to expect it either.
I don’t know what will happen next. Amanda just kept crying as she bent down but Jr. wasn't to tame her.
Just a few minutes later, she stood up and adjusted herself as if nothing had happened even though her eyes were obviously swollen and then looked at Jr.
“I love you and that is true love even though I know I have a share in your heart. Then now I will know the truth. I can’t keep seeing you happy with someone else especially now that I know that I have never been in your heart.” Then she turned and walked away. He was still shaking because she was obviously drunk but he still faced it. "By the way, I'm not done yet, just wait for my surprise." Then continue walking.
"I'll leave you first," Janel said then went inside first.
"Mia," I replied with a sigh as he called my name.
"It's been a long time, isn't it?" I asked as he nodded. I sat in the gutter, on the side of the gate. "I feel sorry for her," I said and felt like I was in tears.
“I also feel sorry for her, but I can't love her. One thing Mia, I don't really feel any love for her.”
"I have a question, I hope you answer correctly." He nodded at me.
"What's that?"
“Why did you let her love you? Why did you use her if you don't love her?” He first bowed then held my hand.
“I'm a man Mia, I was young then. I thought of nothing but myself. I respect Ade and I can't make her feel less dignified. Amanda is there and she can give me everything I want.”
"Without thinking about how she feels?" I ask.
“Because I don't care what she feels. Because I don't love her, I only want her body and not her love.”
"Are you guys really like that, pride in you when you hurt someone?"
"Not everyone because there are those who know how to refuse."
"And you didn't refuse?"
"Because I want to."
"You did that to Ade while you love her so much?"
"Yes,"
"Can you do that to me too?"
“Mia… I can't do that to you. I did it wrong and it will never happen again. You and Ade are different, and I was still young and not yet mature at that time. I won't hurt you I promise.”
"Jr.,"
"Mia, I love you, I beg you to trust me."
I have confidence in Jr. and his promises but why as the wedding approaches I am even more nervous.
“You won’t leave me, will you? You won't hurt me? ”
"No, no matter what happens, Mia, I won't hurt you."