“But Mother had an accident. The money Nicolas and Father earned wasn’t enough to save her.”
“We need money… I had to do something that’s why I did that photoshoot. The pictures where I was fucking naked... ” I sniffed and smiled emptily.
“I was a prostitute’s daughter after all. What can you expect? I went to whoever gave money to save my mother!” I looked at him who completely lost his mind,
“But she couldn’t recover and died… Everything changed after she died, Elmer disowned Nicolas, and sent him away.”
“Our happy family tore apart, he promised to take care of me but treated me like trash. He taunted me about my licit and I was fucking scared!” I shouted, holding my chest.
“Nicholas wanted to hide our relationship so no one could know how we were born and I lived a normal life but nothing was right…”
I whispered, biting the inside of my cheek.
“Father forced me to get married. No, I never loved Leon, I was forced to get married for money and when I couldn’t provide him money with Leon he blackmailed me to tell you everything if I don't give him the money.”
I continued to tell him the heartbreak I faced all this time.
“Nothing was right in my life. I love my mother, the person who pretended to love me actually hated me from the start.” Sobbing, I pulled my hair in frustration.
“My brother was torn apart because of the legitimacy and when I met you, I thought I found a shore but … you also broke my trust Tyler….” Losing my voice, tears streamed down my face.
“AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR IT!” Yelling, I slammed my hand on the ground.
“He was my brother. You killed him, In the fire of uncertainty, you broke every boundary and broke the last ray of hope I was clinging onto.”
“I hate you, I hate you, I fucking hate you!” I shouted, disheartened by the fact he couldn’t understand my silence destruction.
And moreover fueled it with skeptics, breaking my heart and the faith I placed in his heart.
I was being tormented from inside, like I was about to blow out but the remains were struggling to keep it alive while it was clearly dead.
And I can’t do anything but scatter from this pain.
Tyler has no words, he knows no words can console me, it was the loop of misery from there is so redemption and I was dying.
He was trembling, breathless, trying to say something but couldn’t while I was crying nonstop.
Tyler quickly took out his phone and called,
“Where are you? I-Is he alive?” He asked in a shaky voice.
“Take him to the hospital right now! He should survive at all costs!”
And with this he came to me, bending in front of me.
Looking at me with an anguished face, losing his breath, lost in the abyss he brought on himself.
“C-Candice. H-He is alive. I-I am sure he will survive.” He said and was about to touch me but I yanked his hand away.
“Don’t you dare to touch me, you fucking murderer!” I yelled moving back.
“I hate you!”
“Please don’t say it Candice. Your hatred will kill me, please don’t. I-I don’t care where you come from or anything else-”
“You should have thought about it before starting this!”
“Please. I am s-sorry. I am so s-sorry. I swear, I will leave the Mafia life, I will save Nicolas as well.” He said desperately.
“I will take you away from anything but please don’t hate me. I should have understood about your condition, please forgive me.” He said.
Cracking up as tears dwell in his eyes, joining his hands together asking for forgiveness,
“You broke my trust.” I whispered, hugging my sides.
“I was afraid you might not leave me. But, believe me I wanted to get out from this virulent life without letting you know so it won’t hurt.” His voice trembled.
“Please, I am sorry. I didn’t m-mean to break y-your faith. I-I am sorry. I will do a-anything but please don’t leave me. I will die without you.”
“I will do anything for your forgiveness, please don’t leave me. I am sorry. Please forgive me.. Please… please… please.. ”
He began to cry, lowering his head while crying, begging for forgiveness constantly.
My heart ached to see him this broken but my suffering was far greater than his because I was betrayed.
“I don’t even want to say our faces. Get out!”
“Please don’t say this Candice. I swear I will fix everything, I will do whatever you say but please don’t leave me, don’t… please.. I am begging you.”
At this point he was crying out loud, with tears streaming down his face, still joining his hands together, sobbing badly.
My cries mixed with his as a symphony of deterioration from there is no return.
Each tear we shed tainted us and was too much for us to bear but there’s no cure of this affliction.
“You don’t deserve a second chance after what you did.” I hissed, stopping my cries while wiping my tears.
His eyes widened in horror, “No, No, No, please don’t say this.” He said.
Coming closer but I moved back and stood up wiping my tears and glaring at him, heartbroken by the deception he gave me.
“Leave me before I leave you.” I said coldly.
He let out a sob, begging me, “Please don’t say this Candice, I will die without you. I love you, my breath is restricted without you.”
“Please don’t do this. I swear I won’t question you again, will leave Mafia life, save Nicolas, do everything you want me to but please don’t leave.” He pleaded.
“Please. Please. I can’t live without you.” He knew he messed up good as penitence emerged from his whole being, submerged in abysmal agony.
Lost in the ocean of raze and it was so fierce that he desperately wanted to get out of it and If I want, I can do it. But I won’t.
“Save what you have killed first.” I said bitterly, leaving him but his voice came croaked.
“Candice, don’t forget one thing. I have broken all boundaries to get you, I can’t watch you leaving me. You are my life.”
His low but vehement words evoked a shiver from me as I stopped in my tracks and turned to him,
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“Please don’t leave me. Give me a chance to sort things out.” He whispered.
“Did you give me one?” I asked.
“You never asked.”
“I asked for the time you never gave me.”
“We sorted this out, Candice. Why are you bringing it again? I am sorry for shooting Nicolas, please give me a chance, please.”
“Please. I will do anything.” He said in a low tone, sniffing and wiping his tears but they just flowed out.
I grit my teeth and leave him alone in his misery, to wail till the point he breaks completely.
I locked myself in the room pulling my hair, cursing him as I fell on my knees and let out muffled cries crumbled, burned to ashes.
I let out my sobs for a long time until my eyes dried out and exhausted me to the point where my mind went blank and I lost my ability to think.
I stood up, grabbed some clothes, my savings from work and walked out of the house. Thankfully he wasn’t present in the house.
I left Tyler and went to California.
‘The home of my heart where he used to live- I broke it.’