I can't focus on everything I do. Hindi maalis si Zakarius sa isip ko. Wala siyang ni-reply-an na kahit isa sa texts ko at hindi niya rin sinasagit ang mga tawag ko. Hindi siya nagparamdam kagabi noong umalis siya, hanggang ngayon. Hindi rin siya nagparamdam sa shooting ko for the first time.
I groaned in frustration and took my phone again. Damn him. Tatadtarin ko siya ng texts hanggang sa mainis siya at mapilitang mag-reply.
I'm sorry na nga eh! Ano ba'ng kasalanan ko? I didn't know it's your birthday yesterday, it's your fault because you didn't tell me!
Fine, I'm sorry. Babawi ako sayo, promise.
Happy birthday. Sorry na.
Pati sa text pabago-bago ang mood ko. Nakakainis kasi talaga, ano pa ba ang gusto niyang mangyari?
“Angel!”
I flinched when Cassian shouted at me. I blinked and looked at him, I realized that everyone on the set is looking at me. What the hell is going on?
“What?” I asked and raised my eyebrow.
“Kanina ka pa tinatawag ni direk, start na ng shooting!” tila naiinis ng sabi ni Cassian.
I cleared my throat and avoided his glare because of embarrassment. Pakiramdam ko pulang pula ang mukha ko ngayon dahil kahihiyan. Ganoon ba ako kalutang para hindi marinig na tinatawag ako ni direk?
“Sorry, medyo masakit lang ang ulo ko,” pagdadahilan ko na lang at ipinatong ang phone ko sa table.
“Hayaan muna natin na magpahinga si Angel. Ako rin napagod sa party kahapon,” sabi ni Castor saka naglakad papalapit sa 'kin.
He sat beside me and gave me a bottled water. I just smiled at him and took it. Damn, I'm so embarrassed. Hindi ako palaging napapahiya sa mga ganito, minsan lang kaya talagang sobrang nakakahiya.
Hinayaan muna kaming magpahinga ng direktor. Napapikit na lang ako at isinandal ang likod ko sa sandalan. I can't work like this, I can't stop thinking about him, fuck that Zakarius ‘fucking’ Cavalcante!
“You seem bothered,” Castor said and tapped my back. I just smiled faintly at him and sighed.
“I'm fine,” sabi ko na lang saka tiningnan ang kuko ko. I need a manicure, my nails are stressed out too because of Zakarius.
Natigilan ako nang hawakan ni Castor ang kamay ko at bahagya akong hinila patayo. Nagpatianod na lang ako sa kanya hanggang sa makarating kami sa balcony.
My foregead creased and looked at him with confusion in my eyes. Castor just smiled at me and pinched my cheek.
“You had a quarrel with Director Cavalcante, right?”
Natigilan ako sa tanong niya. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at gulat na napatingin sa kanya. Napatingin pa ako sa paligid para masiguro na walang nakarinig sa kanya. Good thing everyone seems busy, malayo-layo rin kami sa kanila. Kaya siguro hinila ako ni Castor dito.
“H-how did you--” He instanly cut me off.
“I saw him came out of your house last night, mukhang galit siya. Nalaman ko kaagad na siyang ang lalaking tinutukoy mo dati, and besides, you too are so obvious. He's always glaring at me as if he wants to kill me during our shooting, lalo na kapag scene nating dalawa,” natatawang sabi niya saka uminom ng tubig. Napaiwas na lang ako ng tingin sa kanya.
“It's not like that, Castor. We have a very complicated relationship, I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I want to push him away, I don't want to betray my best friend anymore. Hindi lang halata pero nako-konsensya na ako. I won't be able to face my friend the same way again kapag bumalik siya... Pero hindi ko kasi talaga siya kayang iwasan, Castor. I did my best to stop myself from loving him, but I can't,” I murmured and bit my lower lip.
Natahimik naman si Castor, pero nakatingin siya sa 'kin at nakikinig sa mga sinasabi ko. Castor is a really good listener, halos wala na 'kong itinatago sa kanya. Bukod kay Jaze, he's one of my most trusted friend.
“I understand you, Angel. But of course, you have to know what's more important. Dapat piliin mo ang desisyon na hindi ka masyadong masasaktan. But you see, kahit ano'ng piliin mo masasaktan at masasaktan ka. But that's fine, I'm here for you, you can vent it all out on me.” He smiled and drank his water again. “Ngayon pa lang, sort your feelings out. Isipin mo na lang na kahit ano man ang kahinatnan ng mga mangyayari, lilipas din naman. May puwedeng mawala sa 'yo but it's all part of the process. You'll learn something in the end, you'll know better, and you'll be better because you're Angelica Louise Mendoza.”
Napangiti ako sa sinabi niya. Castor really knows how to make me feel better, I don't deserve a friend like him.
But he's right, I'll be better. I will learn something from my actions... Pero ngayon, gusto ko munang samantalahin ang pagkakataon.
* * *
“OMG! Angel Mendoza!”
Basta na lang akong pumasok sa agency kung nasaan nagta-trabaho si Zakarius dahil agad akong pinapasok ng guard. Well, perks of being a well-known actress, I guess?
I just smiled and waved my hand to those who are greeting me. I may be a bitch but I'm not a snob, hangga't maaari, pina-pansin ko talaga ang mga nakakakilala sa 'kin.
Actually, Chan doesn't want me to go here pero pinilit ko siya na ipag-drive ako. Tutal free time ko naman ngayon, I want to talk to Zak, hindi na ako nakakapag-focus sa trabaho ko dahil sa kanya.
Aingeal Agency's building is much bigger than this. Most of the staffs and workers here are the best directors, producers, script writers... Karamihan ng mga artista nila rito ay underrated. This agency is focusing on the good storyline and movie plots which is good. Hindi sila masyadong kumukuha ng mga well-known actors.
Nagtungo ako sa counter at ngumiti sa babaeng receptionist, napaawang ang labi niya habang nakatitig sa 'kin. I just gave her my sweetest but killer smile and removed my shades. Damn, I look so classy right now.
“Ahm, can I talk to Director Zakarius Cavalcante? I just need to talk with him about our future project together, if that's okay,” I said in a pretend shy tone.
“S-sure, miss. Pero okay lang po ba na magpa-picture?” tila nahihiyang tanong ng receptionist, bahagya pang namumula ang mukha niya.
My heart thumped with delight. Ilang taon ko ng naririnig ang linyang pero kinikilig pa rin ako. I genuinely appreciate all of my fans, they are a big part of my achievements. Isa siguro iyon sa masasabi kong totoong nararamdaman ko at hindi arte lang.
“Sure, it's fine,” I said and smiled at her.
Nagpa-picture siya sa akin, napangiti na lang ako dahil halatang tuwang tuwa siya habang tinitingnan ang picture namin.
“Thank you po, Ma'am Angel. Nasa 5th floor nga po pala ang office ni direk. May pangalan po niya sa pinto kaya makikita niyo agad,” nakangiting sabi niya at napayakap na lang sa phone niya.
“Thank you, have a nice day,” I said and smiled at her before leaving.
Agad akong sumakay ng elevator, napapatingin sa 'kin ang mga empleyado sa loob pero ngini-ngitian ko na lang sila. I'm kinda used to it, I'm a naturally head-turner, I can't blame them. I'm so beautiful that they can't take my eyes off me.
Agad akong bumaba ng elevator nang makarating ako sa 5th floor. Napangiti ako nang agad na bumungad sa akin ang gray door na may nakalagay na Director Zakarius Cavalcante. Obviously, that's his office.
Tumingin muna ako sa paligid, wala namang masyadong tao. I fixed my hair and my clothes. Kinuha ko ang maliit kong salamin sa pouch ko at tiningnan ang mukha ko. I'm so beautiful, sana masiraan siya ng bait sa sobrang ganda ko.
I took a deep breath and check the cake and cupcakes inside the paper bag. Ito ang cake at cupcakes na nakita ko sa ref kagabi. We will eat this together, kung kakausapin na niya ako.
Basta ko na lang binuksan ang pinto. I bit my the insides of my cheeks as my knees weakened when I saw Zakarius sitting on his swivel chair while looking at his laptop.
I unconsciously bit my lower lip and gripped the paper bag tighter. Hindi pa siya natingin sa direksyon ko pero kinakabahan na ako. Damn him, he's the only one who can do this to my system.
He looks so hot right now. He's not wearing his leather jacket, nakasabit 'yon sa sandalan ng swivel chair. He's wearing a kinda body-hugging white shirt that makes him look hotter. His disheveled hair is literally killing me, kahit yata hindi na siya magsuklay kahit kailan ang guwapo niya pa rin.
Damn, I missed him so much. Kagabi lang siya umalis pero parang isang buwan na.
I cleared my throat to get his attention. My insides churned when he finally looked at me. I just bit my lower lip because his eyes remained cold while staring at me.
Lumapit ako sa kanya at inilapag ang paper bag sa table niya. I suck at apologizing, mataas talaga ang pride ko... but here I am.
“I'm sorry na, hindi ko naman alam na birthday mo, e. See? I brought the cake and cupcakes from the refrigerator. I'm here to say sorry. Let's celebrate your birthday today, hmm? Babawi ako,” sabi ko na lang at napatungo saka pinaglaruan ang mga daliri ko.
Napaawang na lang ang labi ko nang hindi niya ako pinansin at muling ibinaling ang tingin sa laptop niya. Sisigawan ko na sana siya nang biglang tumunog ang phone niya. He took his phone on the table and answered the call.
“Hello.”
I bit my lower lip and glared at him. He didn't look at me and continued talking to someone on his phone. Ganyan pala ang gusto niya ha.
Lumapit ako sa kanya at itinulak ang swivel chair niya. Natigilan na lang siya nang walang pasabing umupo ako sa kandungan niya. Good thing I'm wearning a flowy mid thigh dress.
I hugged his nape and stared in his blue eyes. I bit my lower lip and grind my hips against his. I smirked and looked at him seductively. I was so satisfied when I saw his Adam's apple moved. He held my waist tightly, tila ba hindi alam kung itutulak ako o hihilahin pa palapit sa kanya.
“W-what you were saying again?” nauutal na tanong niya sa kausap.
My confidence increased when I felt his manhood getting harder in his pants. I hugged his nape tighter, mas inilapit ko ang sarili ko sa kanya.
He groaned huskily when my soft bossoms rubbed again his hard chest. I planted small kisses on his neck and gently bit his skin there. I moaned softly and grind my hips faster on his hardness.
“Fuck, yeah... I-I understand, let's talk later. Bye.”
Natigilan ako nang bahagya akong itulak ni Zakarius. He took his laptop and put it on the other table as well as his phone. My forehead furrowed, is he not attracted to me anymore.
Natigilan ako nang muling lumapit sa 'kin si Zak. He stared at me with his intense eyes, grabbed my arm, and pulled me closer to him.
“Punishment time, my angel,” he murmured and kissed my lips gently.
I gasped and clung on his nape when he scooped me up and put me on top of the table. I bity lower lip as my cheeks heated when he sat on the swivel chair again and lifted the hem of my dress, exposing my legs.
“Z-Zakarius, what are you doing?” I frantically asked when he pulled my cycling down together with my underwear and threw it on the floor. He looked at me intensely and spread my legs. I gasped in shock and gripped his hair when he buried his face in between my legs.
“Fuck! Z-Zakarius...” I gripped his hair as my knees weakened when I felt his hot and soft lips on my feminity.
He spread my legs wider and pulled my hips closer to his mouth. My toes curled and my whole body convulsed when I felt the tip of his tongue teasing my sensitive nub. I gripped his hair and pulled him closer to me. I closed my eyes and bit my lower lip, trying to stop myself from screaming.
Damn, are we really doing this in his office? Fuck. What if someone enters and they saw me like this? Legs wide open while Zakarius' face is in between my legs, kissing my lady part. Fuck. I'm nervous, but I don't want him to stop.
“Aaahhh... Z-Zak, baby, n-not too much... Please,” I begged. He didn't listen, he pushed his tongue inside my hole and tease my insides. I bit my tongue and groaned helplessly, my knees are literally shaking. My body is about to collapse on his table because of too much sensation. He just put both of my legs on his shoulders and buried his face more.
“Oohhh... Fuck, aahhh, y-you're so good... I can't take it anymore,” I cried. He swirled his tongue around my cl-t, teasing me. I bit my lower lip and jerked my hips, urging him to lick the perfect spot. Damn, why is he so good at this? Why is he so good at teasing me? Mababaliw ako sa ginagawa niya.
“Fuck! Z-Zak, aaahhh.. Hmm...” I bit my tongue to stop myself from screaming. Kanina ko pa gustong sumigaw ngunit pinipigilan ko dahil baka may dumaan sa labas ng office niya.
I clung on his nape and grind my hips on his sinful lips and tongue when he starts kissing my wetness. He moved his lips and tongue on my center as if he's just kissing my lips. My eyes dilated as I looked at the ceiling, waves of pleasure is dominating my body. I can't think of anything else right now, the pleasure he's giving to me right now is so unbearable. His tongue and lips alone are making me crazy.
His tongue found my cl-t again and fired off short little licks and sucks. I let out a soft cry and spread my legs wider for him. Binitiwan ko ang buhok niya at napakapit sa mesa.
“Z-Zak, aahhh... I-I'm near, baby, please, lick me more...” I moaned and thrust my hips on his lips.
My toes curled when I felt something building up in my tummy. I gripped his hair again and moaned, my whole body is trembling because of the pleasure he's giving to me.
I almost lose it when he hardened his hot tongue and starts thrusting it inside my tight hole. He let out a manly groan and teased my hole with the tip of his tongue, trying to put it inside me, then pulling it out again. I thrust my hips, trying to keep up with his playful tongue.
“Fuck... Aahhh, Z-Zakarius, oohhh...” I writhed on the table. Halos masabunutan ko na rin si Zak but he doesn't seem to mind.
My whole body shuddered as I came. My eyes dilated while he's licking all of my release. I was panting real hard and catching my breath. Tila saglit akong nawala sa sarili ko.
“Z-Zak... W-what are you doing?” I asked, stuttering, when he starts kissing my lady part again eventhough I just had my release, my feminity is still sensitive.
“Hmm... Aaahhh, Z-Zakarius, I-I can't take this anymore. Fuck, oohhh,” I wailed. I gripped his hair tighter when I felt him slowly putting his index finger inside me.
I looked at him. My cheeks heated and my heart throbbed like crazy when I realized that he's staring at me while licking and kissing and sucking my center as he finger-fuck me. He looks so hot right now. My feminity clenched because of his hot stare and sexy eyes. Damn, his eyes alone are sexy. He's too much to handle.
He moves his finger faster while licking my cl-t, then sucking it and flicking it again with his tongue. He rammed his finger inside me faster, my lips parted as my insides churned with sensation when he put hisiddle finger together with his index finger. Damn, it's just his fingers and tongue but I'm here, moaning like my life depends on it.
Natigilan ako at napasinghap nang makarinig ng katok sa pinto.
“Direk! Hindi pa po kayo nakain, kanina pa. Okay lang po ba kayo riyan?!”
“Z-Zak, t-there's someone outside,” I frantically murmured and tried to push his head away from my core.
I bit my lower lip because he didn't listen, he just continued licking and finger-fucking my womanhood. My heart is beating hard and fast right now, I'm nervous as fuck... But damn, I also don't want him to stop.
“Aahhh...” I released a breathy moan when he removed his fingers inside me and replaced it with his tongue. My eyes dilated and my toes curled. Fuck, he's so good.
“Direk, hindi ka po ba kakain?”
Muling umakyat ang kaba sa dibdib ko nang mapansing hindi lang isang tao ang nasa tapat ng pinto ni Zak.
“Zak, stop, please... W-we might get caught, stop, baby... Aahhh,” I lose it again when he starts tongue-fucking me. I just groaned and spread my legs wider for him. He just pulled my hips closer to him when I tried to push his face away from my center.
His mouth, lips, and tongue never stopped working on my wet center. His tongue lashed inside me, driving me wild, making me moan helplessly and writhe on top of the table.
“Direk? Nagpapalipas ka po ba ng gutom?” Muling may kumatok. I just bit my tongue to suppress my moans. Fuck.
Zakarius finally distanced his face on my feminity. He looked at the door and hissed as if he's annoyed.
“Don't mind me. I'm eating right now!” he shouted and positioned his face in between my legs again. I just moaned helplessly and gripped his hair again.
Yeah, right... He's eating me.