“Tangina, one hour yata akong natawa. Ang tanga ni Zak, sobra,” natatawang sabi ni Cadence sa kabilang linya. Napaismid na lang ako.
“Nagtatampo siya sa akin, niloloko ko lang naman siya, e,” nakangusong sabi ko saka napapadyak sa sahig.
“Gaga ka kasi, bakit pinaabot mo pa kasi na pumunta siya rito para ipa-hunting sa akin si rekdi kuno? Para lang siyang ewan na nagpunta sa lost and found para ipahanap ang sarili niya,” natatawa pa ring sabi ni Cadence.
“How can I make him forgive me?” I asked and bit my nail. Hindi siya lumalabas sa room niya, ipinagluto niya lang ako ng food tapos pumasok na rin agad siya sa kuwarto niya, ni hindi niya ako pinapansin.
Siguro napahiya siya dahil pinahanap niya talaga si ‘rekdi’ kuno kay Cadence kahit siya naman 'yon.
“Bakit kita tutulungan? Bahala ka sa buhay mo, matapos-tapos niyong mag-sweet moments sa harapan ko, wala kayong respeto sa single,” tila nagda-dramang sabi niya, nai-imagine ko pa na nakahawak siya sa dibdib niya at nag-e-emote.
“Hoy! Anong single ang pinagsasasabi mo riyan?!”
Natigilan ako nang makarinig ng boses ng babae sa kabilang linya. Napangiti na lang ako, siguro iyon ang girlfriend ng Cadence na 'to.
“Ay oo nga pala, girlfriend nga pala kita. Pasensya ka na ha, God bless.”
Pagkasabi ni Cadence no'n, pinatay na rin niya ang tawag. I just sighed, slumped on the bed, and stared on the ceiling. Ano ba ang dapat kong gawin para hindi na mag-inarte pa si Zak?
“Fuck,” I hissed and stood up.
Bahala siya sa buhay niya! Nilalambing ko na nga siya kanina, ayaw niya pa rin akong pansinin. Edi hindi ko na lang din siya papansinin, hindi siya kawalan!
Humiga na lang ako sa kama at pumikit, tutulugan ko na lang siya. Bahala siya, hindi niya rin naman ako matitiis. Ako matitiis ko siya kahit gaano katagal.
I tried to sleep and calm my mind, pero hindi maalis sa isip ko ang Zakarius na 'yon. I crave for his hugs and kisses. Paano niya ako nagagawang tiisin?!
Naiinis na bumangon ako at lumabas ng silid ko saka basta na lang pinasok ang kuwarto ni Zak, buti na lang hindi naka-lock. Naabutan ko siya na nakaupo sa kama niya habang nakatutok sa laptop niya, he didn't even glimpse at me. Damn him.
“Zakarius! I said sorry!” naiinis na asik ko saka lumapit sa kanya.
He's editing a movie scene in his laptop. I just rolled my eyes and sat beside him.
“Hey, talk to me. Sorry na nga, e. Ayaw mo no'n? At least ikaw ang rekdi na tinutukoy ko!”
Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang ako pa ang galit kahit ako naman ang may kasalanan. Kasama ba 'to sa pagbubuntis ko o baka talagang maarte lang ako?
He didn't say anything. He just sighed, closed his laptop, and put it on the bedside table. Humiga na siya sa kama at nagtalukbong ng kumot. Napaismid na lang ako ngunit humiga rin sa tabi niya.
Mag-iinarte pa rin pala siya?
“Hey, my big baby,” I murmured and hugged him from behind.
Paano ko ba siya lalambingin?
“I'm sorry na, I miss you already. I miss your hugs and kisses, don't you love me anymore?” I asked and buried my face on his back and inhaled his scent.
Hindi pa rin siya nagsalita pero nararamdaman kong pinipigil niya ang paghinga niya.
“Do you still remember what I said about rekdi earlier? I told you that rekdi is the love of my life, I can't live without him... And that he's cute, handsome, and hot. Diba I told you rin na gusto kong bumuo ng family with him?”
Halatang natigilan siya sa sinabi ko. Agad siyang humarap sa akin at tumitig sa mga mata ko. He bit his lower lip as if he's restraining himself from smiling.
“Really?” he asked and held my waist. I just nodded and chuckled. Damn this man.
Hindi lang pala ako ang marupok, siya rin. Well, it's a good thing.
“You're my rekdi, my lovey dovey rekdi,” I murmured and gave him a peck on his soft lips. Zakarius smiled and pulled me into a tight hug. Napahagikhik na lang ako at gumanti ng yakap sa kanya.
“Ahh, rekdi sounds cute now,” he mumbled and kissed the top of my head.
Tumingala ako at tiningnan siya nang diretso sa mga mata niya.
“Love mo na ulit ako?” tanong ko. Natawa na lang si Zakarius.
“Why are you asking that? Hindi nawala ang love ko sa 'yo, at hindi rin mawawala,” sabi niya saka mas hinigpitan ang yakap sa akin.
“You're so maarte kaya kanina, ayaw mo akong pansinin kaya akala ko hindi mo na ako mahal. Na-miss ko ang kisses, hugs, at 'yung squishy squishy mo,” nakangusong sabi ko. Natawa naman si Zakarius at pinisil ang pisngi ko.
“You missed my squishy squishy too?” he asked while a wide smile is plastered on his handsome face. Minsan lang siya ngumiti nang ganyan.
“Yeah,” I mumbled and pinched his cheek too. “Squishy squishy.” I giggled.
Natigilan kaming pareho nang kumalam ang sikmura ko, siguradong naramdaman niya iyon dahil magkayakap lang kami. Napakurap na lang ako at nahihiyang napaiwas ng tingin sa kanya.
“Hindi ka pa nakain?” tanong niya, tila galit pa ang tono.
I smacked his chest and glared at him.
“This is your fault, nawalan ako ng gana kumain dahil nagtatampo ka sa 'kin,” paninisi ko sa kanya.
Zakarius sighed and scratched his nape. Bumangon siya saka tinulungan din akong bumangon. He held my hand and intertwined our fingers. Seryoso siyang tumitig sa akin.
“Let's go, I'll feed you,” he said and gently pinched my nose.
Sumunod na lang ako sa kanya nang lumabas kami ng silid niya saka nagtungo sa dining area. Ipinaghila niya ako ng upuan saka pinaupo ako ro'n.
“Why aren't you eating something at--” hindi na naituloy ni Zak ang sasabihin nang buksan niya ang takip, wala ng pagkain doon. He looked at me, disbelief is visible in his eyes, his lips are slightly pouted too.
“Actually, I already ate. Gutom lang talaga ulit ako,” I said and smiled sweetly at him.
Mukhang nagulat pa rin siya, marami siyang iniluto at naubos ko ang lahat ng 'yon tapos gutom pa ako, hindi na ako nagtataka kung bakit ganyan ang reaksyon niya.
“You're... you're still hungry?” he asked and scratched his thick eyebrow. I bit my lower lip and nodded.
“Why? Are you worried na baka tumaba ako?” I asked as my forehead furrowed.
Zakarius sighed and crossed his muscled arms over his chest and looked at me with his intense blue eyes.
“I told you before that I don't give a fuck about appearances, Angel. Naninibago lang talaga ako, you weren't like this before. You only eat fruits and vegetables at night,” he said and pinched my cheeks. I hissed and rolled my eyes at him. Sus.
“Wala lang, for a change. I want to eat the foods that I want while I'm still alive without thinking about my figure and my body. Sabi nga nila, you only live once, if reincarnation is not true,” I said and shrugged. Napatango na lang si Zakarius sa sinabi ko.
“Okay, what do you want me to cook, my queen Angel?” he asked and smiled at me.
Nahawa ako sa ngiti niyang 'yon at napangiti na lang din.
“I want chicken curry,” I instantly answered. Zakarius nodded and gave me a peck on my lips and headed to the kitchen counter.
I just watched his back and bit my nail. Pinanood ko na lang ang bawat galaw niya habang naghihiwa siya ng ingredients. I sighed and touched my tummy. Kailan kaya ako magiging handa na sabihin sa kanya ang tungkol sa baby namin?
I don't know what's stopping me from telling him. It's either natatakot ako sa magiging reaction niya, or talagang hindi pa ako sure sa kahihinatnan naming dalawa.
“Here's your chicken curry, what do you want to drink? Water, milk or juice?” he asked and served me the curry.
“Water,” I answered and smiled at him. Agad kong kinuha ang kutsara at nagsimulang kumain.
Zakarius sat beside me pagkatapos niyang kumuha ng water at pinanood akong kumain. Mas ganado ako ngayon kaysa kanina dahil bati na kami. Oo nga't naubos ko ang pagkain, pero malungkot naman ako noong kumain akong kanina dahil nagtatampo siya sa 'kin.
“Gusto mo ba?” tanong ko saka itinapat sa labi niya ang kutsara na may curry. Zakarius just shook his head and smiled. I just shrugged and continued eating.
“It's satisfying to see you eat like that. You're gaining weight too,” he said and gently pinched my arm.
I gasped in shock and pushed him away from me. Halata namang natigilan siya sa ginawa ko pero tiningnan ko lang siya nang masama.
“So you don't love me now just because I gained weight?” I asked, my eyebrow shot up.
Nagtatakang napatingin sa akin si Zak, tila naguguluhan sa sinabi ko.
“I told you that you're gaining weight... but I didn't tell you that I don't love you anymore because of that.” His forehead creased.
I cleared my throat and turned my gaze away from him. I suddenly feel embarrassed. I know this is just due to my pregnancy but I'm becoming more sensitive as time goes by.
“I'm sorry,” I mumbled and bit my lower lip.
Hinawakan na lang ni Zakarius ang kamay ko saka dinampian ng magaan na halik ang likod ng palad ko. He smiled at me and gently pinched my cheek.
“It's alright. Maybe you're just anxious about gaining weight, but I want you to know that I don't give a fuck about that, Angel. I love you not because you got perfect curves and angelic face, I love you because you're my Angel... I love you because you're Angelica Louise Mendoza. Even if the time comes you don't possess physical beauty anymore, you'll still be the most beautiful woman in my eyes for physical appearance isn't important and not a basis of my love for you... and it will never be,” he murmured while staring directly into my eyes.
I bit my lower lip and pulled him into a tight hug. Halatang natigilan siya sa ginawa ko pero mahinang napahalakhak na lang siya saka ginantihan ako ng yakap.
“I love you too, Zak. I love you not because you got perfect body and super handsome face... I love you because you're Zakarius, my softie and cutie Zakarius,” I mumbled and inhaled his scent.
HINDI AKO nakakain nang ayos dahil puro landian kami ni Zak habang nakain ako kanina. Ang kulit talaga ng lalaking 'yon, ang sarap mahalin.
Napatingin ako sa salamin pagkatapos kong mag-shower at magbihis ng pantulog. Medyo tumataba na nga ako.
Imbis na mainis, napangiti na lang ako nang maalala ko ang mga sinabi ni Zakarius kanina. He never fails to make me feel beautiful and confident.
“Damn, I miss him already,” I mumbled while brushing my hair.
I want to sleep beside him but he insisted, hindi ko alam kung bakit. Gusto ko lang naman siyang yakapin. I just want squishy squishy moment with him.
Okay, to be honest, I want to have sex with him too, not just hugs and squishy squishy.
Lumabas na lang ako ng silid ko pagkatapos kong magsuklay at agad na nagtungo sa kuwarto ni Zakarius at binuksan ang pinto. Naabutan ko siyang nakahiga sa kama niya at nakapikit na. Agad naman siyang napamulat nang buksan ko ang pinto at napatingin sa direksyon ko.
Lumapit ako sa kanya at humiga sa tabi niya. I sighed and hugged his waist. He smells so good.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, his forehead furrowed.
“I want to sleep beside you, I want cuddle moment,” I murmured and hugged him tighter. Napabuntong hininga siya sa ginawa ko.
“Sleep in your room, my Angel. Magyayakapan naman tayo nang matagal bukas,” he said and slightly pushed me away from him. I pouted and smacked his chest.
Naiinis na bumangon ako at tiningnan siya nang masama. Napabangon na lang din si Zak at napakamot sa kilay niya.
“Bakit ba ayaw mong magtabi tayo?! Nu'ng ikaw ang nasa bahay ko, tabi ka nang tabi sa 'kin kahit ayaw ko. Tapos ngayong nandito ako sa bahay mo, pinagbabawalan mo 'kong tumabi sa 'yo? Bahala ka na nga riyan!”
Akmang tatayo na ako ngunit agad na nahawakan ni Zakarius ang kamay ko. Napabuntong hininga na lang siya.
“Fine, I'm sorry. You can sleep beside me now. Okay?” he asked and caressed my cheek. I rolled my eyes at him.
“We're just going to sleep? Hindi ba tayo magse-sex?”
Nasamid si Zakarius sa tanong ko. Napaupo siya at napaiwas ng tingin sa 'kin ngunit hindi nakawala sa paningin ko ang bahagyang pamumula ng mukha niya.
I suddenly want to have sex with him. I don't know if this is because of my pregnancy or maybe he's just too hot right now. Okay lang naman, my doctor said it's still safe for me to have sex with him.
“W-what?” he asked and scratched his nape. I rolled my eyes once again. Why is he acting like this? Noon nga hindi kami natutulog hangga't hindi siya nagsasawa.
“I want you, Zak. Let's have sex. Actually, I'm kinda wet right now just by thinking about having sex with you,” I honestly said and pouted.
Natahimik si Zak habang nakatulala sa akin, tila pino-proseso niya pa rin ang mga ka-bulgarang sinabi ko.
Zakarius took a deep breath and scratched his thick eyebrow, tila hindi niya alam kung sasakyan ba ang sinabi ko o hindi.
“I won't force you if you don't want to, Zak. I'm just asking if--”
Hindi na ako natapos sa sasabihin ko nang hilahin niya ako papalapit sa kanya saka siniil nang mariing halik ang labi ko. I automatically closed my eyes and responded to his passionate kiss. I clung my arm around his nape and answered his kisses with equal heat.
Naramdaman ko na lang ang paglapat ng likod ko sa malambot na kama habang patuloy pa rin ang mainit na halikan namin. His hand reached my waist, down to my legs, sensually caressing it.
He broke the kiss and distanced his lips from mine. He inhaled deeply and gently stroke my bottom lip with his thumb.
“I don't want you to think that I only want sex from you, Angel... for me, this is making love, not just sex driven by lust,” he muttered and stared into my eyes. I just smiled at him and nodded.
“Yes, this is making love,” bulong ko at ako na mismo ang humalik sa labi niya.
He answered my hungry kiss with equal fervor. I spread my legs for him and clung it around his waist. His kisses became gentle, his lips are like caressing my lips with much tenderness and love, it reached the depth of my heart and soul. His gentle kiss is making me love him more.
“I love you so much,” he mumbled.
Napasinghap na lang ako at napakapit nang mahigpit sa batok niya. His hot tongue starts moving together with his lips. I groaned in much need when he ran his tongue on my bottom lip and gently licked it. He bit my lower lip, I unconsciously parted my lips because of that. He didn't miss the opportunity and put his tongue inside my mouth, tasting the insides of it, playing with my tongue while caressing my right leg.
He put his hand inside my nightgown and reached for my bossom. I moan against his needy kisses when he starts fondling my bossom. I took a deep breath and tried to calm my system. Ilang linggo na rin ang nakalipas no'ng huling beses na ginawa namin 'to, kaya siguro sobra akong nasasabik.
Natigilan kaming pareho nang makarinig ng katok sa pinto.
“Boss Zakarius!” Boses ni Cadence 'yon, ah.
Saglit lang na natigilan si Zak at muli akong hinalikan. I held his arm, trying to stop him but he didn't stop, he just continued kissing me while molding my bossom with his calloused hand.
“Z-Zak, someone's knocking,” I mumbled against his kisses. I gently pushed his chest.
Zakarius hissed in annoyance. Bumangon siya at inayos ang t-shirt na suot niya. Napabangon na lang din ako at inayos ang nightgown ko.
“That motherf-cking assh-le,” mariing mura ni Zakarius saka kumuha ng baril sa drawer niya.
Agad na binuksan niya ang pinto, tama nga ang hinala ko na si Cadence ang nakatatok. Napatayo ako at napasinghap nang itutok niya ang baril sa noo ni Cadence, kahit si Cad ay halatang nagulat din sa ginawa nito.
“What the hell, Zak?” tanong ni Cad, he can't take his eyes off Zakarius' gun.
“I'll give you fucking 3 seconds to run, Lettiere,” Zakarius said in a dangerous tone while looking murderously at Cadence.
“W-wait naman, kalma muna. M-mangungutang lang naman ako, e,” nauutal na sabi ni Cad at napaangat pa ang dalawang kamay na tila sumusuko. Napatingin si Cadence sa akin, napangiwi siya. “Tangina, kaya pala.”
“One,” bilang ni Zak.
Agad na tumakbo si Cadence palayo. Napatili ako nang paputukin na ni Zak ang baril kahit hindi pa man umaabot ng three seconds. Agad akong tumakbo papalapit kay Zak at humawak sa braso niya upang pakalmahin siya.
“Tangina, Zakarius! Kapag ako napatay mong hayop ka! Tama na!” sigaw ni Cadence habang hinahabol siya ng mga balang pinapakawalan ni Zak.
“Zak! Stop it, baka mabaril mo si Cad,” pagpigil ko sa kanya ngunit hindi siya natinag at patuloy pa rin ang pagpapaputok ng baril.
“Aalis na nga, e! Aalis na 'ko, ituloy niyo na 'yung loving loving niyo!” sigaw ni Cadence saka nagmamadaling bumaba ng hagdan.
Napatingin ako kay Zak na madilim pa rin ang mukha... Hindi pala magandang binibitin ang Zakarius na 'to, namamaril.