Chapter 30

Sloan's POV

I shouldn't have left the room. I should have stayed until we worked out shit out. But I couldn't take it anymore. It was all too overwhelming. And it was at that moment I realized just how much anger I had been carrying.

It wasn't like Carter made me do it. He's never made me do anything. But I realized that I had been hiding my feelings from him, to not put more pressure on him. And it all just bubbled up inside me and came out.

Which isn't the best.

And I realize that's it now something I have to work on. I pulled my phone out and I dialed a number that I didn't I'd ever call again. But they always knew how to bring me back to a level head.

"Hey? Everything okay?" Sean's face flooded the screen, concern etched across it.

"Yeah...I think." I sighed, sinking deeper into the couch I was on.

I had decided to lock myself away in one of the many sitting rooms, Byn and James had. Their house was fucking huge, and I'm kind of scared I'm not going to be able to find my way back to the main floor.

"Come on, Sloan. You can't lie to me." From the looks of it, it seemed that he was sitting outside. And no one was around him.

"Are you serious about rebuilding with Carter? Or are you just saying shit?" Before I could cast my cares onto him, I needed to know first and foremost if he was to be trusted. His eyes went wide and looked taken aback and almost hurt...

"When have you ever known me to say shit I don't mean?" He retorted, attitude heavy on his tongue.

"I didn't mean-- It's just too many people have disappointed Carter, okay? And I can tell he's kind of excited about it too." I couldn't miss the way Sean's face lit up softly, and that was answer enough for me. He was excited too.

"I know I've been a dick. I know that. And I will spend the rest of my life making up for it." Sincerity was heavy in his words. And fuck...I believed him.

"Okay...I believe you. But if you do some fucked up shit again..." I let my voice trail and let my eyes do the talking. Sean let out a laugh but I could smell his fear through the FaceTime. He might be a big bad werewolf. But I was a Tiger.

"What's going on Sloan? Something wrong?"

"Look, I just...Carter gave up his alpha position to you, and that's great. Neither of us wants to deal with the fucking curse. But that doesn't mean you have to."

I had been thinking about that, over and over again, since Carter forfeited his role. Even though Sean and I had our issues and things to work through, I still care about him. And I would hate for him to be in a position where he is forced to give something important up.

"What if it's your mate, Sean? What if that's your sacrifice? Or it's kids? A family? You don't know." It felt like I was pleading, borderline begging. But I needed him to see what he could be giving up. No alpha position is worth it.

"I know...and I've been doing a lot of thinking. I'm going to turn it down." A smile stretched across my face and relief flooded me. "And I'm going to leave. Move into the human city for a while."

Relief gone.

"What?" I could barely get the word out as I looked at him. We don't interact with humans. They have their lands, we have ours. They have their rules and so do we. They wouldn't understand the life of a shifter, and I could never understand not having Loren with me.

"Yeah...I've been looking at houses. Thinking about buying one and just working a little job, just until I can figure out the next steps. Addi is moving with her mate, and I don't want to be alone with my parents so...this might be the best option."

"When are you leaving?"

"Well...I think this weekend. I'm ready for a fresh start." Fuck. That was soon. But from the cadence in his voice, I could tell he was sure about this decision, that he'd thought it all through.

"Maybe Carter and I will visit you. You just let us know where you are." Even though I knew both Carter and I would hate every second of it.

"Yeah, I'd like that."

There was a soft knock on the door and Carter's beautiful face peeked in. I couldn't help but smile when I saw him, it was my body's natural response to him. Regardless of if we just had our first disagreement.

"Hey, I'll talk to you later, yeah?" I asked Sean and he nodded. I hung up to phone quickly and I watched as Carter walked fully into the room and closed the door.

'Am I interrupting?' He asked, staying firmly planted a decent distance away from me. I hated it.

"No. Never that." He nodded and began to fiddle with his fingers, he was nervous. "Come here, please," I said softly and I saw relief flood into his eyes. He practically ran to me and straddled me on the couch.

I wrapped my arms around him, and he did the same as he buried himself into my neck. I rubbed my hands lightly up and down his back letting him know I was no longer mad or upset. I was never mad at him, just the situation. I understood his point of view, and I hated that I did. But it felt like he wasn't seeing mine. Partly my fault, I hadn't told him. I'd been holding it all in, and Carter never asked me to do that.

"I'm sorry I wasn't understanding you. You have every right to not want to drag this on. For it all to be over." My voice was mumbled. I didn't even try to lift my head from his neck. But unfortunately, Carter pulled back and looked down at me. My hands moved and rested on his thighs.

'I'm sorry too. And you're right, I think I've been ignoring it. But that doesn't make it any better. You see things that I don't. And I trust that you have my best intentions. Do you forgive me?' After he signed he placed his hands on my chest, rubbing them up and down.

"Of course, I forgive you lightning. Do you forgive me?" Carter smiled softly and leaned forward, connecting our lips.

I tried my best to keep my hunger at bay, but these days it was getting harder and harder not to take him the way that I wanted. I thought the kiss was going to be quick, but Carter slowly started to deepen it. His hands still moved up and down my chest, and mine gripped his thighs tightly. I let Carter have control of this, not wanting to push him until he said he was ready for me.

He pulled away from my lips and started to pepper kiss down my neck. A stiff grunt slipped past my lips as he sucked on my marking spot. Fuck I hoped we marked each other soon. Carter scooted onto my lap even more. Pulling us impossibly closer. His ass settled right on top of my growing dick.

He moved my neck to the shell of my ear. Tugging, pulling, teasing.

"Sloan," He moaned as he slowly moved his hips agonizingly slow.

"You want me?" My lust-filled voice made Carter shiver against me. His hands gripped my shoulder tightly.

"Yes," Carter pleaded, and it didn't add to my already hard erection. I smashed my lips back onto his, and instead of going slow and steady. I was devouring him. Taking him in all the ways I could.

The kiss was getting dirtier by the second, saliva dripping from our mouths. As our tongues rubbed and tasted each other's mouth. Carter had wrapped his hands around my neck, holding me close, nails digging into the back of my head.

My hands found a way to his ass, squeezing him hard through his sweat. I felt his erection against my stomach and I knew that this wasn't enough. More. I needed more. I'm a greedy bastard. I shoved the back of his sweats down and grabbed his ass firmly.

His soft skin against my calloused hands only turned me on more. I remember the last time I was here, and how he reacted when I touched his ass. And right now, I was going to play with it. I pulled one hand away and reluctantly stopped kissing Carter, but only for a second. I lifted two fingers to his mouth and pressed it on his lips.

"Suck. Now." I gritted out as I looked at a flushed Carter. He obeyed immediately and took my fingers to his mouth.

He sucked them like he was sucking my dick. Fuck. Now I'm thinking of Carter sucking my dick. I pulled my fingers from his mouth with a heavy groan. I needed to get control of myself. And fast. Carter wasted no time pressing his lips against mine again as moved my soaked fingers down his ass.

Carter absentmindedly spread his legs open further until I found what I was looking for. I gently pressed my finger against his hole and Carter bucked. A soft moan escaped him. I slowly began to circle his rim, just for him to get a feel of what I was planning on doing.

"Sloan," He moaned my name again, and I knew what he was wanting as he pushed his ass back against the tip of my finger.

"What baby? You want me to fuck you with my finger?" I teased him, and a heavy whimper left his mouth.

"Yes, please. I need you." As the words left his mouth his hands moved from my neck and down my sweats. Before I could even process what was happening, Carter grabbed hold of my hard erection and started stroking me.

"Fucking, hell." I gritted out. The feeling was indescribable as I felt his warm hands around my cock.

I snapped back to reality, trying not to get too wrapped up in the fact that Carter was giving me a handjob. I slowly began to prod his whole, nice and slow. With each poke, he relaxed more and more into it. Once I felt like he couldn't resist, I pushed my finger in, nice and slow. It was tight and warm and I couldn't imagine what it'd feel like when my dick was finally inside him.

Carter gasped out once I was fully inside him. He squeezed the base of my dick as he leaned his head against my shoulder, getting used to the feeling. I pulled out and pushed my finger back in and Carter groaned loudly. He then stroked me at the same speed as I did.

He took his head off my shoulder only for a second as he looked down at my dick. For a second I was confused until I watched him spit on my bright red head and coated his hand and my dick with it.

And it fucking set me off.

I started ramming my finger in and out of him, and Carter matched my thrust by mimicking it on my dick. Carter's moans and whimpers flooded my ears and it only turned me on more and more. But it was when I twisted my finger slightly to the side and Carter let out a deep moan and squeezed my dick with a painful grip. Which turned me on even more.

It only made me want to go faster. Harder. Rougher. I ran my finger over the bump over and over again. Carter was a mess on top of me. He was moving his hips to meet each thrust while also stroking me at the same speed.

"You're going to make me cum all over you." I groaned as I felt myself getting closer to the edge. Carter had my dick angeled to where when I did, it would hit his face.

"Face it towards, your chest or I'm going to cum on your face." My words were choppy as I still worked my fingers in and out of Carter's amazing hole. But instead of moving it away, he moved his face closer. A loud whimper escaped him.

"Oh I see, you want me to." Fucking hell. He was perfect. "Beg me." The words flew out before I could stop them. But I wasn't ashamed.

He looked up for a moment, his eyes half-lidded as I still assaulted his ass with my fingers. His mouth hung open and he leaned back even more to be seated on my hand.

"Sloan...cum on my face. Please. I need it. I need it badly." He said it so confidently, so unashamed and I could feel my release bubbling up. And the way Carter could barely keep his eyes open he was close too.

"Then you better lean forward, baby." Carter did immediately, grabbing my dick in his hand again. "I'm about to ruin your pretty face." With a loud moan at my words, Carter began to shake and his hole tightened even more around my finger as his release found him. The sound of Carter's moans was enough to have the white-hot pleasure fill me. I came with a deep growl as I watched my cum cover Carter's face. He opened his mouth and cum his his tongue and he eagerly waited until I was all done.

As he leaned up to look at me, he swallowed what was in his mouth and licked his lips clean. But my cum still coated his chin. Something deep and primal erupted inside me. I needed my dick in his mouth now.

I felt myself get hard again and Carter noticed. I could feel my eyes start to glow, the need to claim Carter was burning my insides.

"Get on your knees now." Dominance rolled off my tongue and Carter obeyed immediately. He was on his knees before me, cum still of his fucking tongue. Goddess help me.

"Suck." I motioned to my dick and Carter's eyes flared. Our mutual arousal clogged the room.

He leaned forward and grabbed the base of my shaft, already achingly hard again. He flicked his tongue out and licked the head.

"I didn't say play with it. I said suck." Carter whimpered at my command, he loved it when I talked to him this way. I wondered what else he'd like. "You have cum dripping from your chin." I moved my thumb to wipe some of it off and then I pressed it onto Carter's lips and he licked it up greedily.

"My little cum slut." I was pushing my limits with that one, but the way Carter moaned around my finger and sucked harder on it was enough to know he loved it.

"You like it when I call you that, don't you baby?" I pulled my thumb away and he looked up at me through his lashes.

"Yes," He whispered, his cheeks flushed. He moved his eyes back down to my dick and he looked so fucking eager.

"Then suck me like your life depends on it, my little slut."

Carter leaned forward on his knees within seconds, taking me deep into his mouth. I could barely focus on what pattern he was doing or where his hands were. All I could feel was his mouth on me. Him sucking my soul away. My grunts were loud, but the sound of Carter slurping my dick was louder.

"Fuck baby, I'm going to cum so much." I cupped his cheek as he continued to work. His face looked blissed out, his lips swollen. "You're going to take it all, aren't you? You're going to like me clean like the cum slut you are."

Carter whimpered so loudly that it vibrated from the tip of my dick to the bottom of my balls. I could see his body start to shake and a muffled moan hit my ears as I watched Carter's leg shake.

He just came from sucking me off.

That was enough to push me over the edge, and without warning, I shot my load into Carter's mouth. And he swallowed it all. So fucking fast. And even as I stopped shooting, he kept sucking and licking, wanting every drop.

"So greedy, baby."

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Guys this was my first time ever doing this kind of kink I was nervous writing it. I hope it's not bad. LOL!