Cecilia
Dario seemed so sincere and willing that it felt good to accept his proposal even if it was too soon. But I couldn't not give him and us this chance even though I had to protect myself because I know the most cruel part of his personality.
- I accept but I have my reservations.
- I understand! Tell me what you want and I will do it.
I don't want to get hurt in this story because I have already given my heart to Dario once, belonging body and soul, and I suffered in the end.
- You have to be totally surrendered and willing for this relationship to work out, so I want you to be honest with me, not hiding anything from me even if it risks our union, because trust has to be the main foundation of our relationship. I want you to be a good father, starting today not to involve Valentine in the mafia, I know that you cannot do this forever but at least you can let him be a child and grow up understanding that everything in life has specific stages, including to follow our world.
Dario listened carefully to everything I was saying while he continued to crouch down calmly stroking my legs, these movements are turning me on to extreme levels. I'm not made of iron and since Tomas died I haven't had sex with anyone else.
- Another point, this may be the one you are most reluctant to make even so I will say, I will not accept betrayal and deception if you do anything against me or against those I love you will have to leave me alone, besides, no more killing innocent women, this madness has to stop if you want to be with me you have to stop this killing once and for all. If you don't comply with my reservations I want you to know that you can't come after me or my daughter, I will only keep in touch with my Valentine, you must forget me as long as you live!
Dario bowed his head as if he was thinking about the last part of my reservations, it is a risk for me, who was once his victim, to accept him so easily, so I decided to protect myself even if it means banishing him from my life forever.
- I accept your reservations but I also have mine! If our relationship develops well, I want to marry you without any delay, no engagement and none of this crap that will delay what is inevitable, I want you to be mine quickly. You will go to Italy with me and Valentine because as you know I can't stay here for long I notice how important my presence is there a few minutes ago, and you must tell Melina the truth. Preserving the memory of Thomas as her father is paramount to you, I understand this but I am her father, I want to play this role as I do with Valentine.
For me your reservations were understandable, the worst part would be to have to leave, my family is very important to me and I know that it will be difficult to be away from them.
- I understand your reservations, if you comply with mine you will have no resistance from me!
He hiked up my dress to waist height, playing with the straps of my panties, if I didn't stop him soon we would be fucking like crazy on his bed, from his expression you can tell he really wants to fuck me as much as I want to fuck him but it wasn't time yet. I take a deep breath in order not to go crazy and do something stupid, I hold his hands and slowly take them away from my body.
- Although I really want to have sex with you like crazy, it's still too soon! Let's take it slow, I'm not in a hurry and I hope you're not either.
Dario manages to get me totally off track and he knows it, a control that I don't know how he still has after so much time.
- I will respect you but know that you desired her with much more intensity and craziness than in the past! Today it won't happen but you can be sure that it will be difficult to stay away after being sure that you also want me as I want you.
After this statement and what I felt by having him so close to me I knew that it would be difficult to stay away from him. I go to my room still trying to understand what happened, I was feeling like an idiot for having been so weak in relation to Dario but I can't deny that he still exerts a very strong power in me.
As much as I don't want to confess it I know that I still feel something very strong for him even though I don't want to, I start to walk around the room from one side to the other trying to understand what was happening to me. I lay down on the bed to try to sleep but sleep didn't come, I was already going crazy so I decided to leave the house going towards the beach, I know it's late but I won't be able to sleep with this amount of confused thoughts in my head.
I sit by the sea admiring the starry sky and the immensity of the waters in front of me, I close my eyes to start meditating when suddenly I feel someone sitting beside me, I know very well who it is.
- Old habits die hard, don't they?
I remained silent in the Buddha position with my eyes closed, but if before I couldn't think and reflect properly, imagine now with Dario here.
- I imagine he couldn't sleep, and neither could I! For the first time in my life I am totally apprehensive and I must confess that I am afraid, before I was absolutely sure that you would be mine as long as I lived, but I was wrong. I made a lot of mistakes with you, and now I don't know how to win back your love and trust. Besides all that, I miss your body and what we were like when we were together.
I kept quiet while listening to Dario, he never opened up to me, I guess he really wants to show that he is changing.
- I have to confess something important, I read your notebook!
- How could you invade my privacy like that? How could you invade my privacy like that?
It was impossible to continue in my attempt to meditate because I was very upset to know that Dario had gone through my things, when I left the mansion I had to rush to take advantage of the fact of Dario's wedding so I didn't have time to get many things including the most important thing, which was my notebook.
- I thought I was dead for this reason that I read, this notebook was my only link with you during all these years, I spent hours reading your confessions admiring your drawings feeling nostalgic for what I could have lived with you.
- At that time I was at the peak of my feelings for you, like a silly teenager! I still didn't have any notion of what I was capable of when I fell in love, especially because I didn't know what you had done with Florence. It seemed that he loved her very much from the footage recorded on the tapes, were they happy?
Dario came closer to me, holding my face affectionately. He played with a lock of my hair, looking at me in a different way, I confess, very beautiful, he had never looked at me like that.
- We lived in times of war, any light or purity, even if false or true, brought happiness. Looking back I think that deep down I always knew that Florence was not true in what she said she felt but I didn't want to believe it, perhaps for fear that the peace and happiness I had with her would end. But to be honest I have only been truly happy once in my life, it was when I had you by my side, before having you my life had no meaning, and it got worse when you left, leaving me to suffer with the consequences of my actions. I was not only happy but also loved but I did not know how to give value for it so I will do everything to show you that you will not love alone as before because now I can say without fear, I love you. Cecilia!