Over the days, every time I was alone I realized a lot. There are just so many things going on in our lives that go unnoticed. And every time you notice, it's as if everyone is leaving a stain on your personality.
Before, I was just this easy going girl. Not minding the life that's ahead of me. But in the small twitch of my life, it seems like everything has changed. Suddenly my views changed, and the things that I look forward to. So that's how it is. Lots of friends don’t matter. Not all the time, ‘fun’ is good. Sometimes, at least a little sadness is needed to wake you up to the truth.
"Oh I'm gonna get wasted ~" I sang along with the loud music that's booming throughout the whole club.
The hell week ended with nothing turning to ashes on us. So we all got along. And I didn't expect that I would be needing this time of my life. And you know what's best? Not using fake IDs to get in.
People argued on the dance floor. I followed the swing of the people there. The night was getting dark and I didn't care if anyone had stepped on my foot. I drank a lot and danced a lot. A familiar song played after the happy song. It's the pop song who's singer used to right songs for her exes. I joined in the singing and sang it out loud while holding the glass filled with what. When the song hit the chorus I screamed at the top of my lungs.
"You take my hand and drag my head first, Fearless!"
I jumped and laughed with the girls who’s dancing with me. The wine spilled into my hand but I didn’t stop.
So baby drive slow ~ I wanna stay right here in this passenger’s seat ~ The music kept going.
“You put your eyes on me ~” It was as if a dagger had suddenly stabbed me in the chest with the questioner, as if this song was right for me. Damn! I suddenly became depressed and swallowed the glass I was holding.
Without any emo-emotions I walked back to our table and pretended to sit next to someone.
“Oh? Why are you crying? ”
"Huh?" I shouted as I fell on the couch.
Someone wiped my cheeks and that woke me up. I saw Aiden’s face. He’s looking at me seriously.
“Aiden,” I called him with a long tone. I already feel dizzy. I can’t barely open my eyes but I know I’m still not reaching my limit.
“You’re hella drunk, Jade. I think you should go home. ” he said.
“Let her go, Aiden. That’s what she needs. ” I heard Olivia's voice.
I sniffed and wiped the tears. I still wave my hand because I can no longer say what I want to say.
"Are you broken hearted?" my classmate asked I don't know very well. “
Huh? Me? ” I asked with exaggerated tone. “No! Over my dead body! ”
The night deepened.
"I really wanted tequila and then they gave me beer." I heard my self sounding so ridiculous. Crying on Olivia’s shoulders.
“Shut up, Jade. You're crying over this petty thing. There's the tequila. What else are you crying about? ”
"Olivia, just shut up." Si Aiden. They comforted the two of me and Aiden. The other friend of ours I no longer see.
"I'll take you, Jade." I cried more not minding their words.
"Fuck. This is the music’s fault."
I sat properly and wipe my face that’s full of tears. Suddenly the music changed. From the sentimental and slow song the loud beat boomed on the whole club again. I quickly stood up and gasped at the music.
“Fuck. I want to go home, Jade. Aiden please stop this. ”
I saw Olivia leaned and closed her eyes. It seems like she has taken a nap. Aiden is looking sleepy as well. He tried to hold my hand to stop me but he failed because he’s drank as well.
I laughed and went to the dance floor. This is the best feeling since that shit happened. I jumped and waved my body endlessly, not minding if the strap of my dress was falling to my shoulders already.
"Hey miss," I grinned at the guy who greeted me. This is not the first guy for this night.
"Hi handsome." I encircled my arms to his neck.
I felt his hand on my waist and we danced to the same rhythm. He smells expensive. He’s tall and his body is not average.
“I’ve been eyeing you since a while ago. You look hotter when you’re drunk. ” I giggled when he whispered to my ears.
"You look hot too, mister."
He grinded his body to me. He’s burying his face to my neck and I kept on dancing. I suddenly felt severe dizziness. My stomach grumbled like crazy. I stopped and touched my lip. The guy looked confused, I just waved my hand because I feel like if I talk I’m gonna vomit.
I staggered down the hall, to the bathroom. I was no longer restrained and the toilet really attracted me. I puked like I'm almost gonna puke my organs. I felt great remorse. This is it. This is the part where regret always comes in.
After I rinsed I went out. In front of the door, I saw the guy a while ago, waiting. He smirked when our eye met. I smirked as well, wiping my mouth. Even before I could speak, he claimed my lips. Fuck!
I feel like I'm going to swell up because of the violence of my collision with the wall where he's pinning me now. This guy is persistent huh? I flirted with some men a while ago but this is the only man who had the guts to kiss me.
"You want to go to my place?"
My mouth parted. I smirked while playing with his hair.
"Where's your place?" I asked with a flirtatious voice.
“Come with me,” he said and kissed me once again.
I giggled between our kisses. The next thing I knew, the man was pulling me out without strength. I don’t know? Maybe we’re going to his place? I don’t know anymore. I’m just so tired and limp. It’s been hours of dancing, drinking and screaming. This is what I get.
“Make it fast. I want to cum inside you. ” I laughed when I heard the guy.
He’s now opening his car. Like a mirage, I saw the man on the concrete holding his jaw. I pouted when I saw a man with my blurry eye sight.
"Stop it!" I was unable to hold my head because of the extreme dizziness.
"What's your problem bro?"
“Go home barren, you beast! ”
Erato? I clung to the man's car because I felt like I was going to fall. Even though my vision was blurred, I could still see how Erato would repeatedly step on the man I was with before. That’s when I kind of realized.
"S-stop!" He didn’t stop.
The guy stood up and tried to throw some punches at him. But I think Erato had the advantage because he’s sane and the man is drunk. Instead of recovering, the man hit his head on the windshield of his car.
“God! Erato stop! ”
I shouted and held his tensed arms. He looked at me panting. I’m half awake doing all these, as if I can do something to stop him.
“You’ll kill him. Stop it, ”I said trembling.
He’s always angry. But for some reason, his anger now is different. It was anger reaching his muscles because I could also feel his shivering. He groaned and dragged my hand.
“I can really kill Jade! You don't know what I can do! ”