Sinclair point
Seated on the couch as the demons chanted in my head, my thumb numb from all the twirling around, as my hands held the glass crushing it hard in its embrace, my eyes blurry from my restrained tears same as my sore throat that had gotten used to the burning sensation of liquor.
“ Sinclair” martins whispered, or maybes yelled, his facial reaction showed otherwise, maybe I saw differently, either way, his eyes were red, he had been pacing around for all I can remember but neither he or nessa are far from the social calamity.
I don’t want to see him but my demons threatening to surface the moment there's no one to tame it was all that glued my butt to the chair and my palm on the chilly glass
Ding!
The elevator door chimes, pulling my trapped self out, as my eyes fell on a familIar face, and a cocky smile I would never be quick to forget, “ hello miss Brandon” a tall man said, his hands held nessa waist, or maybe a replica of nessa as she totally sank in that outfit, “ hey mom” a crooked mouth voiced out.
Seeing his hands holding her waist possessive breaks the chain my liquor had created over the days,
“ nessa where the hell have you been!, who the fuck is this man” throwing the glass at them, he was quick to dodge, just so lucky his goodlooking head was my target.
“ Sinclair hold on” martins holds me place trying to push me in, but god damn it,
“ leave me the fuck alone martins, this stupid girl, after all I did for you nessa, you did this nessa !”
Martin's mountain of a body pins me down, “ sit the hell down Sinclair!” He yells, this time way louder than I have ever heard him yell, his eyes were popping red now, his hands clenched into a vein popping ball, “ don’t you utter another word Sinclair “ his whispered trying so hard to keep some of his words unspoken.
With Terror settling in his eyes, I watch home stump toward nessa who stared at him, with tears in her eyes, “ nessa come here you are going nowhere” tugging her hands he drags her away from the man she had brought hip me, “ hey remove yourself hands from me fiancé” he tries to pulls nessa hands, but martins wears way too quick to punch.
Cooling my demons.
As a smile creeps on my, that’s my man
Now that’s he’s busy with that bastard, my eyes dart around the room, there I find nessa staring at martins beat her fiancée up, she does nothing about it, why would she, she was the one who brought Shame to the family.
“ nessa tell them” I hear that strange man Say, pinned by anxiety, and a command my body was so willing to obey, I see nessa mutter gently, her eyes not leaving mine, they were clouded with tears, why would she cry when she wasn’t forced into this.
I could sense the hesitation in her muteness, “ nessa tell them” adonis muffled as martins held his collar suspended his feet on air gently, all eyes were on nessa now who didn’t say a thing, “ get the fuck out of my family’s house martins said loosing his temper as I flings him across the room.
“ nessa is pregnant, and either you like it or not our marriage is two days from now, isn’t it right, nessa!” He yells trying to stand up his feet.
What !
“ what the hell is he saying nessa!” Martins strides towards her now, pulling her chin up, she doesn’t say anything, instead more tears pool down her chin, she can’t be pregnant for the Hansleys, my daughter would never be part of their family neither would she carry a child to start their lineage ever.
“ nessa this better not be!” Standing from my chair, my palm hits her hard on her face, making martins push me away, “ what the fuck is your problem sinclaire, let me take care of things for one’s in your fuckin life would you!, the world doesn’t revolve around you!”
“ she’s my daughter!”
“ you are not my mom”
Nessa said standing from her seat, pulling both i and martins attention, she has the guts to reject me, “ I am ashamed to call you my daughter, curse the day you were fuckin born”
I utter those lies that broke my heart, as I watch the world fall apart before my own eyes, as nessa stares at me, her eyes totally clouded by warm tears, everything felt slow for a second
“ I hate you mom, I fuckin hate you”
A hard thud by my hearts send me taking unconscious steps backward as I felt myself die inside, the liquors effect had finally faded off, as it comes to my realization I had just acted under the influence of Alchohol,
“ nessa”
Martins tried holding her, but she pushes him away, running towards the elevator door, while the young man who had accompanied her stared at me, with a satisfied grin on his face, “ bye miss Brandon” he said trying to hard to maintain a decent smile through his slight cut and bleeding lips.
But just behind that smile layed a proud smug smile, a smile a person gives a defeated opponent. Fuck I just watched myself walk out of that elevator, I can’t let her go, yelping from the couch, rushing towards the elevator as it closes.
“ I am sorry nessa” just half way, I watch him curly his hands around her, as he placed a kiss on her forehead, “ it’s too late miss Brandon” nessa Curled in his warm embraces trying so hard not to make eye contact with me, before I could utter a word it was completely shut.
“Nessa?”
My legs lost their balance just when I thought I should get a grip of myself, “ did she do this to hurt me, is it too late?, should it be too late?”
“ Sinclair, take a look at what you have, why do fuck are you so selfish!”
Watching the restless being who had his hands rested on his face, selfish?, how dare him call me selfish, she ruined my life, just by taking that mad move, now she’s going to be a mother, she’s pregnant for a hansley
Did I fail to raise her well?
where did it all go wrong, when did all this happen… she.., she was ok, right?
She hates me now
“ fuck you sinclair, you alway think like you have all your shit covered but you are just one lost woman, sometimes you behave too fuckin childish” shattering noises of glass makes my hair stand, “ I had it all figured out, fuck I had everything figured out, I had nessa back home and now you chased her away because of your stupidity!”
“ you don’t act like a mother”
“ you don’t deserve to be one, fuck you”