Martins pov
The harsh stench of alcohol fill the air as i walked into the living room,making my heart fall in disappointment , sinclair was seated at the end of the couch with a glass of liquor in her hands, just inches far from her feet a shattered bottle laid as dominant as the woman who didn’t even notice my worried presence.
Walking up to her, she still didn’t flinch, as the only movement was her hands bringing the dry him up her brittle lips.
“ What did the officer say?” sinclair asked, she had sent me to the station an hours go, same throughout the week, all in search of nessa, “ there's no report, she is in any form of danger or traveled through an airline” i said , she pours herself more liquors,
“ nessa decided to read my messages and ignore them, that's really nice”
“Am i a bad mother?” she asked, pouring herself more drink, “ take it easy , you are not a bad mother, just a reluctant one” i tried taking her source of liquors but she yanks it away immediately, making loose drops fall helplessly on the floor.
“ leave it, i need it” she said gulping a mouth full ones more, “ no you don't, nesa wouldn't be happy seeing you like this” i replied pulling it out forcefully,
“nessa?, nessa you say, even if we had no bond together, she shouldn't have married that son of a bastard” she said through clenched teeth
“ they are not married not when I have something to do with it, and you gave her no choice, you never reached out to her” i could see the tears pooling down her eyes already, tears of regret , “ i don't know, i don't know martins, fuck …”
her glass falls helplessly to the floor as she cries into her damp palm.
“I will think of something, , just have some rest while i go out there , trying to find her and talk some sense into her, she doesn't stop sniffing instead, i felt her warm tears making my clothes a little bit wet, she wouldn’t stop, “ sinclair hold a on” taking my phone a message pops up.
“ Take mom out of her house please, hurry !!”
Sender nessa
Why would nessa send such, “ I change my mind, would you like a ride, just round town?” i asked, she waved her head in rejection, “ i don't want to go anywhere” sinclair wasn't a woman that could be easily swayed, , when she's not in mood for anything, but if this message as coming from nessa there must be a reason.
“ maybe we could go to the station together, the lieutenant would like to see you”
“ quite lying martins” she rebuffed, shoving me, “ fuck you” she whispered, but her husky tone was tuned enough to bring her curses to my hearing, the rattling noises of bottles, followed by the shattering noises of clash aroused my reflexes as I pulled her in, “ fuck quit drinking already!”
Holding her firmly on my chest, as I started at her hot red blurry eyes, she glared at me with hate and pain
“ dont you fucking understand , you kept all this away from me, why does everyone think I cant comprehend anything , even my daughter hid it away from me, and here you are , here you are martins, i thought i could trust you” she said,as tears pool down her eyes.
“ So don't you dare tell me, what the hell i should do with my time?”
Hands down she won, picking up phone, with my fingers crossed, i hope nessa is with her cellphone, ‘ ‘impossible’ i replied,she replied with three question marks, and that was all.
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Nessa pov
“ just two seconds with your phone you are out, calling for help” his fingers wrapped firmly on my neck, as he pinned me on the elevator door, his teeth tenaciously gritted against each other,
“ fuck ado_nis”
Struggling to breath, yet weak to beg for freedom, “ why do you have to be so fuckin stubborn “ my kneee weaken as the burning sensation overwhelmes me, slowly sagging to the floor, as I loose my desire to leave.
My body slums to the floor as he firm hands let go of my sore neck, “ fuck babe” he pulls my helpless body up, plunging me againt his hard chest, caressed with endless hours in the gym, “ I am sorry, so sorry” as always, he never gets tired of that word, his antidote to my stupidity.
Warm tears finds their way out of my eyes, as my heart cries to the pain too deep to reach, he holds me at shoulder length, caresses my silken cheek with his thumb, more tears pooling down my eyes as he pats my face, what have you done nessa?, how long would i watch him deteriorate into someone i hate, while i ghost out, like i am no longer leaving.
Will things ever be better ?
“ i am so sorry babe, i am just scared you would leave, you've been acting too weird lately” his firm hands hold me at arm length as his lips quiver, as they utter those obvious lies, “you sent martins a messa, i know you did, you had deleted it before now, and.. And”
Pressed to his body once more, my motionless heart finally felt a thud, as he mentioned martins, i had betrayed a friend, a friend so hard to come by, he would never forgive me, i don't deserve pity, neither do i deserve his help.
The ride downtown was long, knowing adonis had bought a new apartment off the radar of the inspector, it had come to my notice that mom, had the uniform men searching for me, but adonis had made me write a statement, with a video proof that i am fine, cooped with some bribes.
Now i am packed at the entrance of my mothers house, “ you are cool with it right?” he said, smiling his boyish smile , known for making everyone gleeful, but all i see are his overstressed cheeks and those eyes, that didn't fit his face, and his widely parted teeth, that were almost transparent, due to excessive washing, he spends a fortune on them anyways,
“ why are you quiet nessa, don't let, my _Our effort go to waste”
“ cheer, up already, i told you i am sorry” he said, this time in a more authoritative tone as he fundles the gear in his huge palm, a familiar scene from last night comes in mind, they were still hickeys on my boobs, “
“ lets go”
He climbs out of the car, slamming the door hard and fast making me flinch, as I wake from my trigger daydreams, and just the clicking noise of the door opening, it comes to my realization, this is the only moment i have to make all this stop.
Am home finally, where i belong.,