Turning devoid of emotions, my mind was vague yet I could feel the ferocious fire burning in my body, indicating that I have lost it all.
I am losing myself by the desire for vengeance.
They say taking revenge is not right but forgiveness is not the right option either.
My child committed no sins to die even before it’s birth and I am certainly not going to forgive him for the he broke by his fucking zeal.
After a week, I was finally discharged from the hospital. “Prince…” I called him, taking his hand.
“I don’t want to go to Silvester Palace.” I said, lowering my head in dolor, biting my lips.
“It’s okay, we can go to the farmhouse.” He offered sweetly.
“No, Take me to Alroy Mansion.” I said. He smiled before giving me a nod as we went to the Alroy mansion.
We went as Nathaniel hugged me quickly, “Hey… you okay?” He asked, taking my face in his hands and kissing my forehead.
“Yeah.. somehow.”
“You don’t have to worry about anything else now, Cinzel. I will take care of everything.” He assured me, holding my hands.
“Thanks.” I whispered, passing him a smile. He grinned, giving me a side hug.
We sat down, I laid my head back on Prince’s chest.
Snuggling close to him, not wanting to lose the sound of his harmonious heartbeat, he held my shoulder, giving me access to lay on his chest.
“Did you find out his location?” Nathaniel asked.
“Yes. I did.” Prince hummed, taking my hand.
“He is hiding in the countryside.” I swallowed hard, tightening my grip on Prince’s hand.
“It’s okay if you don’t want to come.” Prince assured, kissing the back of my palm.
“I want to.” I whispered, sitting up.
“We will leave tomorrow then.”
The next day, my heart was thumping uncontrollably but this is the path we have chosen and what we will live from now on.
Surrounding a farmhouse, me and Prince were standing outside of it, holding out hands, my heartbeats were hurting me but I chose this.
We will lose a lot by this desire of revenge but since people were present by our side?
Nathaniel hates Prince but I love him so he never lays a finger on him. Penelope hates us already for killing Zaniel. The person genuinely happy for both of us was Astrid.
“Let’s go.” Prince said, giving my hand a gentle squeeze, nodding. I went inside with him.
He let go of my hand and took out his gun, I did the same even though I was not going to shoot still. The place was empty, we were looking around.
But, found no sign of life but the condition told us someone was definitely staying there and it didn’t take us long to find Zaniel all alone on the rooftop with an insane smirk on his face.
“I knew you’d look for me, Prince but I didn’t expect you to survive, Cinzel.” Zaniel said he was standing unaffected with his hands in pockets.
“I will never forgive you for this.” Prince snarled, throwing his gun away.
“Who says I want it, huh? You guys deserve it.” He said and began to laugh evilly, disgusted at his wickedness, I took a step back but Prince grabbed his collar and punched him hard.
“You took it away from me!” He shouted and began to fight him.
I glanced at the tear hanging in the corner of Prince’s eyelids, ready to lose his posture, pushing him down.
Prince began to punch him again and again. Tears pricked in my eyes, hitting the wall while covering my mouth when Prince began to cry holding his collar.
“Why did you do this.. Zaniel?” He asked breathlessly.
“I.. hated you.. I hated her… I hate you all..” Zaniel coughed up blood.
“What faults did my child have that you killed him too?!” Prince cried.
Pulling him up and kicking him with tears streaming down his pain, hurting badly to kill the person he watched grow in his care.
“That it was your child! This fucking slut left me for you.” He growled, glaring at me, I gasped as my hands began to tremble, falling on my knees.
“You are beyond saving.” Prince hissed, pressing him on the floor and getting off from him to get his gun and end his breaths as quickly as possible.
He couldn’t bring himself to give him a tormenting end.
The moment Prince turned his back on Zaniel he took out his gun and was about to shoot Prince but once again, my hands moved on their own and I shot him, killing him right at the moment.
My first kill which gave me no remorse.
I wasn’t devastated but it left a scar on my heart that I took the life of a person and now I have to live with that weight on my chest…
Prince stopped and turned to me. I threw the gun and convulsed badly, “P-Prince.. He.. he.. H-he… tried to.. He..” I tried to speak but the heavy lump in my throat didn’t let me.
Rushing to my side, Prince’s arms welcomed my cold body, “Hey.. it’s okay. It’s over.” He whispered, kissing my hands.
Holding the collar of his shirt, I put my head on his chest as my final destination where I could receive my only solace.
Closing my eyes while shaking terribly as Prince continued to console me by the sign of our new start, away from all the jeopardy,
“It’s over. We have done it.”
Looking up at him, I asked inaudibly, “We can run away now, can we?”
“We can and we will.” He whispered, kissing my hands.
My lips also curled upwards along with a tear, looking at the crepuscular sight of the horizon, mumbling, “So, it’s truly over…”
• 1 Month Later •
I was packing but then I heard Nathaniel yelling over the phone as he was the one who arranged the settlement in France.
"Fuck you, Sebastian! All I am saying is to let Alphonse. Amsterdam is the safest place for my sister and Brother-in-law- No, no- if you won’t let him stay, you and I are going to have a problem- You wouldn’t want that, would you?- Hmm. That's what I thought."
He cut the call furiously, cursing under his breath as I rushed to him.
"Why are you yelling over the phone? And who is this Sebastian?" I asked nervously.
"You wouldn't want to know. Leave him. Beasts shouldn't be mentioned. I was only arranging you guys' protection." He sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose.
"I see. Thanks." I smiled.
"You are my sister, of course, I will do anything for you… even if it means talking to him." He whispered, giving me a side hug.
"Seems like you hate this Sebastian guy." I giggled.
"Everyone hates him, he deserves it. Anyways, leave him. He is not important. What is important is that you guys are going to start a new and happy life from now on.” He said, putting his hand over my head to give me his blessing.
"Mhm… I am happy that it is finally over." I hummed in agreement.
"Bless you, may all happiness bow before you. I will see you guys later."
“Where are you going?” I asked, holding his arm.
It used to feel strange before but now holding him was calming and protective. A big brother who would always protect me and be there for me.
“I believe there is a pile of work you are leaving behind for me to finish.” He chuckled, waving his hand and leaving to do the packing.
“Mama!” Sky bumped into Nathaniel.
“Careful, little princess.” He chuckled, patting her head.
“Are you leaving, Uncle?” She asked innocently.
“Yeah. I will come to meet you guys later, okay?” He smiled, ruffling her hair and left as she ran to me.
“Mama! I don’t want to leave, I will be lonely!” She whined.
“Minnie and Jake will come to meet us. Don’t be sad.” I pat Sky’s head, she was getting sad because we are moving out.
We are moving from NYC to France, we will settle down in Amsterdam and live our lives peacefully there- thanks to Nathaniel for arranging that.
“Really?” Sky asked with her face lit up in glee.
“Yes.” I smiled as she began to cheer and went to get her stuff. Penelope moved out with her husband and now Astrid is going to live here, all in this Silvester Palace.
Well… not alone. Astrid asked Prince to make this palace of blood into an orphanage and Prince agreed so now they will call it, Silvester Orphanage.
We are completely cut off from Penelope, Prince was sorrowful but there’s no way around.
“Mama!” I called Mama who was helping me with the packing. We have our flight tomorrow so I called Mama and Papa to spend some time with them.
“What?” Mama asked, folding the clothes.
“I am going to miss you a lot.” I said, clinging to her arms.
“Me too.” She smiled.
“Cinzel..”
“Hmm?”
“Thank you for still considering me your mother.” Mama said, kissing my hand.
“Huh? What do you mean? You are my mother.” I said casually, pulling away.
“Not Biologically.”
“Mama. You are my mother, the one who brought me up, the one who loved me, scolded me, you are my mother and nothing could change this fact just like…” I paused, turning to look at Sky who was playing with kids instead of packing.
“I am Sky’s Mother.” I smiled.
“So stop thinking stupid things and help me pack.” I grinned, getting up and packing as Prince came.