It was a pivotal moment in my life and that moment of decision-making was over. No more suffering for someone who doesn't want me and made their decisions, I need to enjoy my pain and right now help my mother. I've run to get the treatment and everything she needed and I've been too busy all the time to think about him or anything.
Approaching the nights every Second I blocked from my mind from my heart I will not say I forgot I will not say I stopped loving him for overnight, no, but I just made the decision that he was going to get blocked in my mind in my heart and in my life so he is there in the corner in the box , but I'm following today has a week that I do not see.
This week I met with Santoro, we had lunch together and we spent a lot of time talking about life and projects and I want someone who is with me. Santoro who has helped me a lot and who has shown me another way and I'm beginning to see that I needed to get out of this relationship that would hurt me. I kept 24 hours on my mother's side and today I see that she is much better and with all this helped me to leave him in the past and if I say it does not hurt, I would be lying hurt a lot. Because as much as I'm going through all this, I still miss him wanting to be with him, but I have to think about myself.
"You're exhausted. Santoro hugs me and I feel safe in his arms. "I wish I could help you, but unfortunately I'm a lawyer, but I'm seriously thinking about taking some course so I can help you at the clinic.
"You're going to be a politician and you're already helping me so much that you've spent several nights by my side, you've been a great friend.
"I want to be much more than your friend; I want a chance to be able to show you that not all men are equal.
I look at him and I stared, and I didn't know if I was telling the truth and I could try to give us a chance and see what to give.
"I know how you feel about me, you've been much more than a friend, and after that last conversation of ours you're right, I need to move on with my life and not be thinking about the past. He hugged me and we went into the cafeteria and got a cup of coffee.
"I've been thinking and we can try, but I don't promise to be the best girlfriend in the world, but I'm going to try. He looked at me and smiled and held me in his lap and turned me in his arms, happiness was stamped on his face, but the sadness in mine. I'd hold his shoulder and beg him to stop. "Put me down... You're crazy, you make me dizzy, I'm even out of strength. He hugged me so tight and slowly lowered my body. "Let's start slowly and please be patient.
"Yes, I'm going to be the best boyfriend in the world, and I promise to start we're going to have dinner in town and enjoy a movie theater. After all, tomorrow's your day off.
"Yes, I accept.
I was choosing new directions even though I thought about him knowing I still loved him. I was already solving a part of my life; it was a time of transformation, and I was feeling prepared for a new life.
I was getting ready for dinner I knew it was a big step is knew that there would be the time for transformation and I was in front of the mirror and I see my body I remember That I'm not prepared, but I know it will come that moment that he will want to go to bed.
"What am I going to say?
When I look at the phone, I rang non-stop and I scare and run to see and it was Maite I breathe.
"Friend, I was thinking of you. Is everything all right?
"Yes, my friend. I called to tell you I'm traveling with the ambassador. I sit facing the mirror. "He said he got someone to buy his apartment.
I don't believe it, a friend. He thinks I was going to give him back the apartment.
"Of course, it wasn't a gift, and you need the money.
"I'm in need of that money right now, mine is doing expensive treatment. I look at the huge wooden clock on the bedroom door and I see it was already late. "I also have something new to tell you.
"Tell me you got a boyfriend? She was all excited and screaming on the other side.
After what happened she's different help me and was present. "I accepted Santoro's dating request; I'm going to give my heart a chance to my life again.
"You deserve a friend, congratulations. But please, go slow, I don't want you to get hurt.
"And even Maitê. I said the same thing to him so it's going to be slow.
"Surely friend and if Max truly loves you, he will put an end to this torment and make the decision to be with you. You deserve so much more than being a lover. She was talking and I remembered our last time together—I'm sorry for putting it in your head differently.
"Yes, friend I love you and it will be all right, I'm sure of it. And we're going to laugh at all this together.
"Yes, you will be very happy with whoever you are, and Santoro seems to be a good person despite being mysterious.
"Yes, even though it's mysterious I haven't forgotten about that woman yet and I'm going back to that town and I'm going to find out everything.
"Surely we will never be fooled by a lying male.
" We are going to the city for dinner and then cinema and a couple program.
"Enjoy when I return from the trip we will celebrate and be happy friend.
"Yes, have a good trip.
Even though I knew I still loved him, I was going to be able to give myself to someone else. I looked at the panties I wore and changed put a red one and smiled in front of the mirror and close my eyes and I remember the touches of it on me my opening wets at the time and I get panting and I scream:
"I'm going to fuck someone else for your damn cause.
I heard the sound of the car and ran to the window and saw that Santoro was already waiting for me all smiling, I closed my eyes as I wanted it to be him there in front of me that beautiful smile I left was crested out of nowhere to just imagine him in front of me. He held my hands and sealed me with a kiss.
"You look beautiful!
"Thank you, you were wonderful Santoro. And a perfect view on my door waiting for me. He smiled.
We arrived in the city center less than half an hour we were already having fun he held my hands, Santoro a romantic man and very amusing he knew how to put the subjects on time and withdraw at the necessary time held my hands caressed my hair.
"Today we're going to have fun Mia.
As much as-all that was wonderful he was being better of men I still thought of him I still wanted it to be him my heart and my body begged for it my mouth gets dry my stomach starts to wrap just thinking about him I try to breathe and the breath is failed I put my hand in the hair and I almost faint and the heart shakes I pass my hand on the stomach. What's happening to me?