My whole life has been so of loss of destruction I've never been the first in anyone's life I’ve never had a love of my father he's always preferred my friends than me he's always left me to corner like I'm not even his son. When I first fell in love, I thought I was discovering the world, but I had the worst disappointment of my life she left me and got pregnant with another when I fell in love for the second time was the same thing she made her choice and chose him and left me. Just years later she looks at me and I still remember it as if it were today.
She was so beautiful and kissed my lips and I happy judging that I was the chosen one I believed she meant to be sorry that she loved me and wanted to try life with me she simply gave her smile of contempt and said to me:
"I'm pregnant and you're not the father, you don't have to have that smile on your face because I would never get pregnant with you."
At that moment I felt like nothing like crap as if I was nothing like I was nobody and as if I was paying for my parents' mistakes and I did not doubt because I never did evil to anyone I was always a good son a faithful friend a good student sang in the church choir and what I received in return only, stoned injustices. And with that I grew up being that I am, and I don't regret it and one day I'm sure I'll be happy and whatever it takes Mia was going to be mine.
When she said looking into my eyes that I would never have a son of mine I had to keep my pride and the rest of my dignity and go out and let her be happy, but it wasn't like that.
"Do you love him because you still come to me? Because sex with you is the best. So, it's just sex?"
She despised me, but every time I wanted to have the best orgasm it was in my bed that she was with me that she spent the new year and not with him. I looked again at her who spoke so smiling. Like this family and I wonder what family she was building married to one and sleeping with me, but at the same time I saw the sadness I closed my eyes and my thoughts loose again to her.
That new year we had the best sex of our lives and even her pregnant from the other and even she saying he was the father I knew that someday I was going to be a father too.
There Sitting there looking at Mia laughing with my family I was distant, and I looked at the ring on my finger and saw the ring she had given me that Christmas night and I saw that for either I have it and my finger being that she slept with another.
I took the ring off my finger I was going to throw it away and I was playing with it on my finger passing my finger on the stone and on that white gold the sadness hit my chest in knowing that the woman I loved was married to another still gave a son to another that shit man is me who accepted to go to bed with a married woman and thought it was okay because I had to love her so much. Still with that ring on my finger running over that rock I heard the screams of the laughs. All talking at the same time, and when I look crested with him at the tip of his finger and eye on the Ring it was written "I love you."
How well she loved me after all she told me after all the humiliations and say that he was the best at all that he was perfect to have a family to be the father of her children and now she comes with the one who loved me.
Motherfucker wants to have me in her hands. I got up from that couch with a glass of whiskey in my hand and I approached Mia, and I held in her hands I gave my best smile of sadness and she was not understood was not the time to announce the wedding date.
"Family I want to tell you that I'm going to be a daddy. I wasn't telling a lie, I was telling the truth, I was going to be a father one way or another I was going to be a father. "Mia and I are having a baby and the Ribeiro Santoro family is going to grow up.
My father changed at the time and shook his head of denial and for that reason I never used his name and yes, my mother all hated him for everything he did in the past and today holds hostage to his mistakes he kept drinking all the time and fighting.
"Congratulations Santoro, we're having a baby at home, but you're in a hurry. My mother was moved to hug me and knew it would be a big step.
I heard all the comments from my grandmother's aunts, grandfather my grandfather pulled me by the shirt and smiled.
"Congratulations my son, you'll be happy, I'm sure of it.
"Yes, I'm sure.
Holding that ring on my finger I looked again at it and put it in my pocket and gave Mia a kiss she spoke between my lips.
"I don't understand why you announced the baby?
"Because I'm going to be a father, I'm sure we'll be very happy.
Then I was deciding my life now I was deciding I wanted to have a family and that she was going to stay in my past didn't deserve me to suffer for her and she would never have me in her bed from that moment a new Santoro is born.
"I love you, Mia!
What was your plan? Be happy with Mia or get revenge for the past?
Between celebrations, hugs, and kisses everyone happy smiling that night I discovered many things about me, about my past and finding that I needed a new path to my life and so be new Santoro. I'm going to be the mayor of the city and I'm going to show her that you made the wrong choice and if she wants him to be happy.
"A toast to my future wife and to my son and a new family that is being born and we want you all to be a part of our lives.
Everyone shouts:
"Welcome Mia to the Santoro family.
I wasn't expecting much from her, I knew I had no feeling, I knew she loved everyone else that shit because I'm thinking about Rose and today it's been so long that there's no date and on that important date she won't get out of my mind. I shook my head and smiled, I can't just love the wrong women, I decided to give my life a chance to be happy.
"Thank you for being so wonderful to me and not judging me. We sneaked out of the party the celebrations are now, just the two of us, our new life— But I haven't finished yet I have something I needed to tell you and I don't want you to be taken by surprise because you're going to have a political life. She looked me in the eye with a smile, I took the moment to kiss her as she avoided me did not let me touch her intimately and she gave in to the kiss and saw that she was trying just like me.
"Let's go to your room because mine's a mess.
We arrived at the room she was distant the heart belongs to another, but it was with me that she was me and enjoy all the moments next to her when I took off my jacket and threw it on the couch. She smiled and sat next to me and passed her hand in my hair. She seemed to try to get up the courage to tell me, and I certainly knew why I know everything about her life.
"I wanted to say so many things to you that you are a wonderful man. But we can't get married, you're going to be a politician and I haven't been through anything very good.
"You don't have to tell me I already know. I chose you.
"You don't know the half of it, Santoro.
"Nothing you say is going to change my mind. Especially now that we're having a baby.
"Then you don't joke, I'm serious and looking at me.
She was apprehensive, I saw the fear in her eyes, and one was a sweet woman, full of life full of virtues she had some flaws, but most were all quality and nothing you did not go over she would make a great wife and mother. "I... I used to be a luxury escort.