As much as I didn't want to remember or else cry suffering every moment, we live I was being betrayed by my thoughts and the heart so far away when I felt touching my skin tighten my shoulder I was scared. Something that was wrong for a long time and I knew that in one way or another at any time this was going to come to the fore I was going to find out I didn't need to chase because every lie it is discovered and every secret as much as you keep in the box end up coming to the fore and that day it was not going to be different to discover the past sadness and disappointment.
"You? It's that woman again she didn't get out of my head from the first time, something in her bothered me, but what screamed in her face was suffering. A beautiful brunette woman with captivating eyes held on to my shoulder and took a deep breath and turned to look at her eyes. "Why are you chasing me?
"I just want your good if you're pregnant don't have this baby he doesn't deserve to have children.
"What are you talking about, who are you?
"I'm just a victim of that family, and I'm sure you will be, too.
"But explain to me I don't understand what you have to tell me?
" Ask who is Rose Gutemberg and look for me, he will use you for his campaign and be careful, he can not know your
baby.
What did this woman have to tell me and what do he mean he couldn't know about my baby? I take a deep breath and feel fear passing my hand over my arm. When I looked at him was red, he suspected something strange and hugged me. And I’m sure he saw her leaving and I'm not going to let her tell me.
"What was it to be pale? I stood away watching him touch me, but I needed to know the truth and I wasn't going to let it for after I'm true and no more lies. " Mia?
"Who is Rose Gutenberg? I'd rather you tell me the truth than I know from someone else's mouth because I won't forgive you and enough is enough of a liar in my life.
"Calm Mia I have no problem in hiding and I tell you everything. He looked to the side after all was at the door of the pharmacy and small town everyone would know he holds my hand. "Let's have coffee and I'll tell you all about it. We went into a coffee shop he held my hand and didn't seem to hide it from anyone, so he didn't have another woman in town that was a good thing and we arrived, he ordered a coffee for both of us, and we sat down and waited for his justifications.
"She's my first girlfriend give me, we were going to get married and she lied to me, saying she was pregnant. I faced my parents to marry her and assume the baby was all set for our wedding and she cheated on me in a recorded confession saying that the baby wasn't mine.
"But did you come to talk? Are you sure about that? Because you know very well that recorded confessions are not always true.
"Yes, and the baby was my best friend's so that's what I knew, I just walked away from it and didn't want to know anymore and didn't hear any explanation because I saw the explanation of a person who lied to me his whole life.
"And your friend, what happened?
"Let's not talk about him, I don't want to talk about my past only brings me bad memories only sadness and fears.
"Do you love her? She's a woman who's left her heart broken and we always have something to clear up.
No, no, no, no Because women always want more and always choose the one who has the most money and fuck.
"I see you are very hurt and tell me.
" What happened in my entire life I was second choice my father who always left me aside my mother always treated me like a baby and the women I loved have always chosen my friends and I have always been the second option and now that irony of fate even in your life i am the second option.
"You don't have to be anyone's second choice. Let alone mine I never hid from you my feelings did not hide from you that I was in relationship that even if for him it is not a relationship for me was, I think we better cancel this marriage.
"No, of course not... He's been desperate, he's already held my hands. I need you can't leave me.
"It can't be like this; Santoro can't be like that. And you have something else to hide because if I find out I won't forgive you.
"No, my past belongs only to me and to no one else as well as yours belongs only to you and to no one else.
"All right then let's go I need a bath and take my meds for my pain to pass.
I wanted to be alone, I wanted to go into that room and breathe and think about what I was going to do because the night was dinner and schedule the wedding, I didn't want to make any hasty decisions.
Santoro's mother and all his relatives were talking loud and screaming for him and I stared, but he didn't say a word. Everyone was excited at the table prepared for the engagement and by the way the night was going to be long, and the perfect family was showing that they weren't that perfect. I realized that his mother who commanded everything and saw him distant from his father already the mother treated him like a baby and like a king they gave mysterious looks and smiled. I went into the bathroom trying to recover and praying to be negative because if it's positive, I've screwed up my whole life.
Getting pregnant with a married man took a deep breath and did what I had to do: I had to be a woman at that moment, go over fear and take on my mistakes and that's what I did. I sit waiting every second that passed I became more apprehensive and afraid and even then, I wanted it to be all lie I sat down and stared at the cell phone screen written Max.
I couldn't talk to him at that moment, he was the last person I wanted to talk to, I had to forget about him and let him stay there in my past, but it was so hard. I looked again at the screen of the phone, took a deep breath, and opened my eyes to see the result I was paralyzed without breathing and almost fainted I fell into bed.
"Can't it be?
Between mistakes and hits Mia was lost with this novelty. What's it going to be?
Between mistakes and hits, doubts fears and anxieties wrong words cursed words and now I did not know what to do how to solve this situation I took a deep breath walking from side to side I looked at the screen again and I see written Max and do worse shit of my life I turn on and at the first touch I hear his voice on the other side the strong breath was like i felt him on my side because he had what to be like?
"I'm pregnant with him." The cry came amid the joy and despair of knowing that that moment was mine and his and no one else's.
But does he deserve to know he's having another child?
I shut up and hear his voice, I wanted to tell him and tell him how afraid I was of that moment still holding that test in my hands I breathe. And I wanted to yell at him that I was going to give him a son and even he distant I wanted to share that moment with him the only man I love. I was excising at the news, and I confess that I wasn't sad, and it was as if God was giving me an opportunity to be happy again.
"I love you, I'm still waiting for you, I'm sure you love me too. Mia? I turn off the phone and open the door I needed to put an end to this end all this, but how was I going to do that as I was going to tell you That I was pregnant with another?
I tried to think of the best way to tell you, but I'm not going to hide anything, I have nothing to hide. And I met him in the hallway, and I was surprised by a big smile.
"Are you better?
"Yes, I was going to look for you, could we take a walk while dinner is not served, please?
"Yes, come and I'll show you where I studied.
We went down the stairs and he was very happy, he talked about playing games with friends and with his cousins his aunt gives a scream I was so far away?
"We're going for a walk, but we won't be long.
" A pigeon couple all in love.
His mother said smiling I tried not to get into their game, but it's pretty annoying how much they were trying to please me and at the same time I'm sick of it all. His family showed to be happy, but something was wrong there because only his father was silent with a sadness on his face. He never smiled or even spoke to me; on the contrary he always avoided me.
We arrived in a huge square had a skate track with fruit trees and a small school all colored he smiled, and we sat on the bench. I was looking for the words to tell him and tell him so I wouldn't hurt him. But then I find myself standing there in front of him and I remember that I owed nothing to anyone and he always knew about my relationship with Max so no more hiding.
"And here I studied, and I made my best friend and my enemy.
"You talk like that gives me anguish as if you have done something or something happened. But I don't want to think about it right now and I want to tell you that we can't get married. I stand up and stand facing him with a tight heart. "It's not fair to you or to me or to the situation. I sit again and take a deep breath has come out everything I needed to say.
"As well as what is happening do not hide anything for me, please, enough of being passed back I want the truth not to hide anything please. He got desperate, knelt before me on the bench and held my knee. I could not deceive I had to tell the truth I took a deep breath and let go of the truth to him without a point, without fear, without anguish and with the certainty that everything would change. "Tell me please.
"I'm pregnant.
He just walked and lifted the path, passed his hands by the hair and I got up. I knew I was going to have that reaction. That's the reaction of a man betrayed from a man who sees he's losing the woman he loves, but he still didn't love me, and I didn't betray him because our lives were separated, and it happened in a way that even I couldn't explain. I wasn't going to apologize, let alone feel bad, so I'm free and he came into my life knowing there was another one.
I looked again at him, and he turned to me and breathed and held on to my two hands and pulled me into his arms and hugged me so tightly stroked my hair and kiss my forehead. I get scared by your reaction, I thought I'd scream and say horrible things to me. But he wasn't kind and understanding, his face still smiled.
"I take baby, but please don't let me.
Oh my god! What reaction was that? How does he assume the baby he would be the father of my baby why would he do that? I can't mean that much to him that he doesn't want to let me go.
"Why all this?
"Because you're the one who brought me the urge to breathe again and want a family after all I've been through. He held my hand—so don't let me give you a chance to show that I can be good and that I can have a real family, please.
I didn't have the guts to say no, I didn't have the guts to say he wasn't the man I wanted, and, in the end, I let it happen I was a coward and at the same time needy to know that my son was going to have a father and it wasn't going to be like I was.
It's all right. We can follow, but any time you talk that the baby is not yours and treat it differently I'll put an ending and remember it will come first in my life in your life because if not I do not want to.
"Yes, he will be my son, and no one will ever take away that he is not my son.
I looked on the phone and saw the message I wrote to Max, I looked twice and the third time I breathe I needed courage to tell him I was pregnant. But what would change if he knew he was married to someone else I can't be vindictive at that point.
"Max, I'm pregnant..." Sends...