After my mother's funeral and I started putting together my things that was still in the clinic and still had to do some things and hurts all the clothes, the jewelry the gifts she got I gave to her friends from the hospital I was still suffering from all that hurt with my life now I'm a person alone I have no father I have no mother I have no love of mine life and I see that I only have my son.
Max has his life, but it was so important that he is with me in this moment of sadness, I felt so safe that I felt so loved. But at that moment I needed to move on with my life and arrange my wedding, as much as Santoro's mother was doing everything, I needed to see my dress.
"And why are you thinking about it now?"
Maite was with me the time I gathered everything and left my little room and when I went into hers the sadness, I cried clinging to those little sweaters. I gathered the photos that were scattered around the room, and I didn't want to cry anymore, I didn't want it to affect my baby when I was leaving the director called me and hugged me tightly.
"Mia, you know how important you are to our Clinic, your mother was a wonderful person and you have become our family, but I have something she asked to keep and just deliver in farewell to you.
"Oh, I’m so sorry. Thanks for everything, it's a hard time, but she went to rest and I know how much she was suffering.
"Yes, darling. After everything that's happened, if you want to take some time off for you, we'll understand.
"Yes, I'm going to need to rest, and I'm getting used to it in days. But I'll be back, director.
I put the box in the back seat of the car, she hugged me after an hour when I was home, I took a medicine I needed to rest I was tired, destroyed to think and cries.
I woke up scared of Maite calling me, I tried to open my eyes, but I couldn't I was destroyed the body looked like it was run over open my eyes tired still complaining.
"Maite, I need to sleep, I'm too tired. My body hurts.
"Santoro came into the room and better get down.
Oh, my God, I’m so sorry. Did it have to be today?
I got up discouraged and just put on my robe and with my hair tied I went down I still so I passed my fingers in the belly and squeezed I was creating a craze to caress the belly with the tip of the finger. When I arrived, I was scared to see he was terrible with bandage on his face and his hand bandaged and his forehead with two stitches. I approached him and he got up, approached, and shook my head without understanding anything.
"What happened to you?
"I crashed the car, but I needed to see you, we need to talk.
" Do you want a cup of coffee? He was acting strange walking from side to side and shook his hand one at the time. " Santoro? She was distant.
- We could enjoy and spend a few days on the beach, so you rest, relax and talk quietly about some things I wanted to talk to you do you think?
"Then it would be a great one, I need so much rest.
"So, let's go so we talk and I'll tell you everything that happened. I need you, Mia.
"I'm going to get my purse, and I won't be long.
"My suitcase is in the car; I'll wait for you downstairs.
"Have you ever planned all this, Chris?
"Yes, I want to get away from everything, but I want you with me. He kissed me and left.
I went up was to get my little bag, I wasn't going to take many things because I was going to stay only a few days I needed to walk forget everything that was going on, but I looked at that box on the table and why not take it and why take it. I was in doubt. I'm giving importance to a box I smiled.
I packed the small bag and looked at the small box, but I did not have the courage to open the box, I wanted to rest after I would think of something, think about all this I want to distance from suffering I want to isolate myself and think of my baby in me. When I came down he was apprehensive, hugged me and gave me a kiss on my forehead, left a small note for Maite and we left seemed to be running away from something.
But on second thought we were running away from the pain and the world, in a way we were both he and I have secrets and mysteries and maybe these two days together will be better for both of us.
He was distant, he was looking for the words to say he smoked too much, and he hardly even smoked when we were together he was nervous, a bandaged hand and his forehead with stitches didn't say much about it when we arrived at his house. He prepared dinner and we sat down.
"My mother said you agreed to do the wedding in Veneto, I'm happy and you're happy with the wedding?
"Yes, I am you are a wonderful person, has brought me good things, but what happens to you walks away? He's been gone for two days.
"I was resolving some backlogs from my past Mia. I don't want any of this to get in our way and I want to say something to you.
"I want to talk to you too, maybe we should tell the truth. Not all truths are to tell. But some things are better that way. He turned the wine held my hand as soon as we ate, and we lay in the room I lay in his lap that caressed my hair my phone kept getting message I did not open any was max he was too euphoric sending too many messages I did not want to know I had already decided. "Santoro, I have decided that I will marry you and even if your past is as bad as you told me. There are a lot of things you don't want to talk about mainly your ex-girlfriend, let's leave everything behind and everyone forget.
"Are we going to start being the baby again and I think you are?
Yes, I’m sorry. Mia, we can abandon all the past if you want to forget everything to Rose the Max. "I know max is the father of your son and that you love him, but if you want to leave all this in the past I will. He breathed and held me by the waist-- Rose, my mother, all in my past.
"Yes, I think it's better and nothing that happened in the past will interfere between us whatever Santoro is we'll leave in the past because you missed me too I made mistakes and I don't want to suffer anymore crying I want my son to grow up in a home as a father a mother.
"I will be the best father in the world.
"But I believe you need to talk to Rose first of all because your situation with her is different from mine.
He disagreed and changed the subject.
"Mia and I will give him everything I don't have from my father either and I will never make a difference to children we will then pass an eraser on top of everything, and I want you to know everything I did in the beginning. I was tricked Mia let me get carried away by lies.
"Do you still love Rose or her best friend?
"Rose was the great love of my life, it was with her that I discovered what I really was, but it was over. We're going to have a chance at a fresh start for me and for you and our baby.
We spent two days together between cuddling hugs we didn't go to bed he didn't insist he let it happen and I was feeling safe with him who became a great friend an ally for whom I was discovering my ways and we returned to the capital we were changed, and I cried everything I had to cry.
After two days I had to face my past, as much as we decided to leave our past behind, I had to face and one of them was my phone on which I had several messages and I could not open and created courage and open:
"I love you Mia and you can run away, but inside you will always carry a little piece of me."
What did he mean by that?