The goodbye sat too much, but I did everything I could, ran after begged and humiliated myself and saw no change in this relationship. I made more mistakes I love her above all else, but I had to follow and from today I start again far from everything that makes me suffer. She didn't even open the envelope to see what she had; she didn't give a about me. I was wrong to make her offer my mistress, but I let myself get carried away for the moment. But I was tired I went after a woman who didn't want me maybe it was pride. Because if she really wanted me, she would have forgiven me. I walked through that door crying, tears flowed through my face, the anguish of knowing it was a goodbye that was the end, but I needed to regain my self-esteem and my life.
I needed to be strong to recover by humiliating myself and going over my principles I wasn't going to get it so it's goodbye. I came in crying and got in the car, Roni shook his head.
" Roni went all wrong was a goodbye will be better so even suffering and crying I'm recovering.
He didn't say anything, he kept his mouth shut and took me home I needed to say goodbye to my mother, she was going to travel to Paris. That's when I arrived tired, disheartened by everything that happened, the things I went through, and my heart destroyed. She just left me, didn't even want to hear it, and didn't believe in anything, preferred to stay blind, I'm not going to fight for something that hurts me anymore.
I came disheartened at home, I went into the room with my heart in my hands I needed to sleep, but in my bed after so long without sleeping in my bed today is my moment. When I came in and got scared, I stopped at the time the legs trembled and I ran out of action to see the scene I took a deep breath and found to be in the wrong place.
"Is it happening here?
They looked at me and left me staring at me and I see them looking for an answer and I know that for that scene there was no explanation.
"I thought you weren't going; I came home, I want to. She stuttered. "I've been wanting to talk to you about it yourself, but how busy you are.
"What are you talking about? Shame on you, you're still a married man.
"I haven't been apart, but we can talk and I want to explain a few things please Max.
"And do we have anything to talk about by chance?
Find my mother to kisses and the affections that shit was this I was not understanding I looked at the two, I stopped in the middle of the door, and I wanted to understand the scene.
"Please Max don't be rude, and we've wanted to talk to you for a long time, but we couldn't do that, and we didn't know how to be that fast.
"What do you mean, Mr. Mascarenhas? And Chris is my best friend's father until I know you're still married.
"I broke up, we're going to start a life over all that we've lived in the past and we leave for after that we're going to start over.
What do you mean I don't understand?
" Sit down and I explained to you that your mother and I dated when we were in our teens, your mother is from a better financial situation than mine, she was Sofia's best friend and we were in love living our romance.
"Our Love. My mother smiled by squeezing her fingers.
"But Sofia came one day out of nowhere and said she was pregnant and that I was the father.
"But as you get another girlfriend my mother I didn't understand what fucking man you?
"Me and your mother broke up because Sofia and Lousano invented that I was with someone else and your mother broke up with me and between drinking and crying I ended up in bed with Sofia and I didn't know it happened I just went to find out after she came to me to tell me. I don't remember what happened.
"However, my son was also pregnant with him, and I was going to tell him.
"What roll is this I'm not understanding anything?
I sat on the couch and I kept looking at them both and she shook her fingers and I kept looking and i ran my hands over my hair I understood what she said, but I wanted to hear from her mouth that surprise that made me mute.
"Can't you be a mother?
"Yes, I was pregnant and when I was going to tell him I knew he was going to be the father of her son and ended up marrying Lousano who took on you as a son.
I couldn't believe what I was hearing, I believed that only my life was a fucking lie and I see that my parents were stuck in the lie up to their necks. I got up discouraged and desperate today was being a day of war for me.
"Is it explained why he hated me for all that he did to me of all the evils, punishments, or theft why you didn't put an end to this farce?
"I couldn't torture me every time I said I'd end it all and out sometimes that I'd doit and keep myself in private prison.
"My whole life has been a lie and I've only been used by everyone. No one thought of me at any time.
"We couldn't count Max the two of us were threatening us and his mother was in his father's hands. I held until today my marriage was because your mother was in the hands of his parents, I knew everything he did to her because she told me every day the horrible things he did.
"Did you have an affair after we were married?
No, no, no, no I just needed him and to hear the voice at least after so much suffering and lies that we got involved.
- I found out he was set up by the two of us to break us up, and you were almost ten years old.
"So Chris and his son or someone else?"
"My son Max, you are brothers. But we have forgiven each other to know that we have been deceived. And we're going to be happy together and please forgive us.
In that moment of anger all the hatred I felt overflowed through my pores, my head couldn't think I couldn't understand why my life was a lie. I just looked at the two of them and was going up to my room, I needed a bath and rest and forget about that day. And nothing I did was going to change what I went through, and now I have a brother who hates me and a small world.
"We are brothers, how crazy! Now I understand why everything and my vacation with your family.
- Son forgive us for everything, we just wanted what was best for you. She hugged me and after all I wasn't going to fight anymore, and I wouldn't cry anymore. I walked away and on the first step I look at the two who stared at me.
"Be happy. I'm going away to Rome and starting my life over and you two do the same.
"We love you, my son. She pulled me in for a hug and early to the hug of three.
I could be against at that moment, my mother deserved to be happy and tells that my new father are not yet friends, but maybe one day we will be best friends there are still sorrows still marks, but also love. I love them both and even though I know he wasn't my father I already liked him so today will be different. The other father must be looking for a job somewhere in town. I imagine the young wife soon let so; he'll get another one. I went into the bath and stayed half an hour my life was marked by a lie by sadness I needed much more than it comes out discouraged and I looked in that huge mirror the decoration of my old room is here that I cried and was grounded that lack. I play in the little single bed and stare at the ceiling full of stickers.
My day was exhausting, I lost the woman I love. I've found out I have a new father and a brother who's my greatest enemy. What else could happen to me?
I took my phone and was going to call Meireles I had to know about Dulce and when I noticed the message, I fall sitting on my bed looking scared:
"I need to see you; I think we still have a lot to talk about."
"And why not go?"