If you love someone you have to protect them no matter what happened.
Love maybe felt blind but you can still see it through your heart.
That day was the first time I felt heart because I feel his love. Lahat sila nag aalal sa akin lalo na si Calvin because this is the first time that I left without saying something. I tried to hide the happiness because of the warmth they gave me. We need to go back to the hotel because of the cause happened. I don't know if I need to trust that woman or not but believing about being her sister has a chance for me. I know I heard something about the another girl of my father but I never saw her personally. Knowing that she knew my plan is a not good. I even tried to investigate to the state if someone tried to mind my business to the doctors I talked before letting Calvin go there. It won't change a fact that she know everything about us.
She even not say what's the purpose of those cards. Maybe she know every little secrets I have. I don't care but if she tried to do something to us, I might do something she won't like.
"What are you thinking?"
I already want to stay in this hotel forever because as the night comes, the air was so cold to the point I needed to wear a jacket while sitting on the balcony.
This serves our second night here but my mknd flies in Manila. I needed to know everything about her. If teaming up to put down the Vice President will be my purpose to know about her, maybe I can grab it. I never trust any one except this guy on my side.
"What happened to you? Where did you go?"
After I sip from a cup of coffee I looked at him innocently.
"Nagpahangin."
Muli akong tumingin sa paligid bago muli siyang lumingon ng hindi ko marinig na magreklamo siya sa ikli ng sinabi ko.
"Lets leave this place. I can buy tickets now," seryosong sabi niya.
"You two will go and its final. I'm not gonna say other things anymore. Maybe after things worked out I will be follow."
Napahinga pa ako ng malalim habang muling tumitingin sa nagniningningang mga bituin sa langit.
"If your Mom will still here, she won't let you do things that might damage you in the future. Lets rest. This is enough."
Nanatili lamang akong nakatingin sa kalangitan bago nagsalita.
"I'm not gonna leave this place. My next place to go is the prison."
I seriously said before turning my gaze to him. He still looking at me like there's no tomorrow.
"You really wish to be convicted?"
I sight of what he reacted. I know, we cant be together but inside my heart is crying. I want to be with him and do things I've promised to him before. I remembered how we planned out our future. Maybe we still shouting each other but the love is there.
"Why do you need to do that?"
He asked another questions that I don't want to answer. He can see the feelings I tried to kept.
Magsasalita pa lamang ako ng bigla akong natulala ng mabagal siyang lumapit sa akin bago ko naramdaman ang mga labi niya. Nanlaki pa ang dalawang pares kong mata bago unti unting ipinikit na rin iyon. My tears started to flows down my cheeks.
I hate him. I hate how he made me feel this way. I can't even hold back this tears while he's still moving on mine.
He gets closer that made me put my hand on his shoulder before accepting his lips on mine.
I can heard my own heartbeat because of the kiss.
After a minute he remove his lips on mine before looking at my face that still on tears.
"Whenever you always saying goodbyes I can't breathe normally. You always hurting me like I need to be patience just to be with you."
I tried not to look in his face but he tried to follow my eyes just to look at him.
"Can we extend here? Just two weeks then we will go."
"What you will do for two weeks?"
Pilit kong pinapakalma ang sarili ko dahil sa paghahabol pa rin ng hininga. Ramdam ko ang pananatili ng mga titig niya bago siya unti unting lumayo ng may sapat na lapit sa akin.
"Well, I need to relaxed. I'm gonna tried to practice my profession there if you really want us to stay there. But,"
"I'll be back here to checked on you without telling you when,"
Matagal bago naiproseso ng sariling utak ko ang mga sinasabi niya. Sinubukan ko pang huminga ng malalim bago muling tumingin sa kaniyang gawi.
"That's good to here. Just don't presdure yourself,"
I awkwardly smile before I looked again to the dark sky. Someday, I would find my rest beside him. He maybe my first and will be the last, but I don't care as long as we can still get back together.
I'm not hoping but maybe, If we where not really meant to be I hope he will find a woman that will loved him for the rest of her life.
That cold night, I felt the warmth as he touches my heart. For almost years of rejecting him, I found myself going back into his arms for a second.
I don't want this night ends. Because of my eagerness to find the justice I want, I sucrifice my heart. I suffered to disregard my own feelings. I never thought that this they would be our last trip.
Maybe we really needed time to each other before continuing the real world in seperate ways.
Just for this week and second, I will disregard semptember and I'll be living as Amber, the woman he wish to be with in the rest of his life.
"You need to go and sleep. Do think too much we still have a week and five days."