— I have not had the courage to confess this sin aloud since the day
everything happened. I know I should have told you the whole truth, but
I don’t know if I can face what I did. There’s no forgiveness for me.
I bit my lower lip so hard that I feared hurting myself even more. No
I managed to hold my anger and hit my fist in your face, Jack
turned his head, accepting the blow without fighting back. When he stared at me
again, I saw the cut in his mouth and the blood fillet
dripping. Jack ran the back of his hand through his severed lip.
— You’re a fucking coward, said you loved me and left me to die. I hate you, hear me? I hate you!
I started punching her chest several times, trying to take out the pain that I
felt, tears blurred my vision. Jack accepted the attack and
didn’t try to stop me, kept hitting him until my fists
throbbing. I stopped with my hands in the air, my breath was swollen and
anger and hatred.
— Why did you do this to me, Jackson? — Got to ask, the voice
embargoed.
He swallowed hard, not having the courage to look directly at us
my eyes.
— I can’t forgive myself for what I did, Hayley, and I was afraid that you
couldn’t either.
— forgive you for killing my parents?
Forgive me for not being able to save you.
I shook my head, stunned, and walked away, running my hands across my face
sweaty.
— You didn’t even try to help me, a single warning and my pack would be
salver.
Jack breathed through his nose, something deep reflected in his eyes, a
kind of feeling I saw the night he told me about his sister.
— Don’t you think I tried to help you? My father died because I chose
you.
My anger faltered. If Jack and I were normal, we would have had a civilized conversation and not a mixture of shouting, punching and cursing.
— I don’t believe you, you liar— spit in your direction,
inflaming.
Jackson approached, and I backed up to hit the wall, my chest went up,
he almost put his forehead on mine and his eyes were boiling. I swallowed
in dry, nervous with its approach.
— Do you want to know the whole truth, Hayley? Well, here it is. The
rebels warned yes, my father about the rebellion, but Leon was a
arrogant bastard who did not believe the warning, but I did not want
risk the life of my intended and much less your pack. At night
next, I snuck out to try to contact your parents, but the
Supremo found out and came after me.
I trembled when he began to speak, there was bitterness and coldness in his
words, but a great sorrow in his eyes. I was silent,
waiting for him to continue.
— Leon found me in one of the forests outside our territory, we
we argued and ended up fighting, fighting a fight. He would not allow
cause a fuss over a simple bluff. We were so
maddened that we did not notice the approach of rebels, we were
attacked by lone wolves, they were in large numbers and we went
losers.
Jack took a break to breathe but kept pressing me in
wall and staring my eyes.
— A Supreme gets stronger and more powerful with his wolves, but
we were alone, he was vulnerable because of me. Leon ended up being seriously injured by the Alpha of the gang and would have been killed
for him, but I could not allow, if the male killed my father, if
would make the next Supreme. Leon was unconscious and could not
make the resignation and pass me to supremacy, then...
My breath got stuck in my throat. Jack squinted his eyes, like
if he wanted to drive those memories out of his head. When he opened
the eyes again, a deep abyss was seen there.
— So I took the blow that killed him. I had to kill my father and take over
the supremacy, it was at that moment that I became the Supreme and the
first thing I did was run away, leaving my father’s body with the
rebels. Do you know what it cost me? All peace, hope and light that one
day existed within me ended that night.
Two lonely tears ran down Jack’s face, he kept the
cracked jaw, nostrils inflated by flustered breathing and I
lost in a whirlwind of emotions, too nauseated to say anything.
— After Leon’s death, I returned home and found a letter
hidden after destroying his room, was the warning of
rebels, he never allowed me to read. In the letter was written
that rebellion could have been avoided if we killed the pure wolves
so that the hierarchy was fair, this was the proposal to end the
rebellion, kill the entire Labonair line, including you. And know the
Last thing I heard before killing my father? That you, Arabella
Labonair would always be a target.
I noticed my face bathed in tears, and Jack was not very
different. A cloud of sorrow and mourning covered his face. He seemed to
bewildered by his own revelation, disturbed by his dark past.
— When I said I couldn’t lose you after all that me
hard to have it, know that I do not see it as a prize to be
conquered, but you are the only light left in my life, if I
to lose again, I...
He couldn’t finish talking, his throat fluctuated when he
swallowed hard. Jack needed a few seconds to recover.
Not a day goes by that I don’t feel the weight of all the deaths that
could avoid, but I failed, Hayley, I failed my family, my people
and with you. That is the truth, that the Supreme is but a coward
fearful that he was not able to save those whom he swore to protect.
Felt like a hand wrapped around my neck tight, me
preventing breathing and thinking clearly, were a lot of information
new and surprising, and even hard to believe. And Jack noticed, how
He always did, knowing me more than I thought.
— You still don’t believe me— concluded bitterly.
I opened my mouth to speak, but he held my head with both hands
and that’s when I felt an unknown and powerful force enveloping me,
something throbbed inside me and a sharp pain took my mind,
lasted a few seconds until being bombarded by images and scenes in
my own head, Jack’s memories, the evidence that everything that
He said it was real.
I saw and felt everything he lived in recent years, the pains and sorrows, the
grief and fear.
And when I came out of his mind, I couldn’t do anything but hold him tightly. Everything was still confused inside me, a lot
had happened in the last days, many revelations and discoveries.
— I’m sorry— whispered in your ear. — I’m sorry I acted out of
so impulsive and left you aside. I made a mistake that I don’t know
if it can be reversed, forgiven.
There was a big noise inside my mind, a confusion
disturbing, but I struggled to silence that sound and focus only on
heartbeat inside my companion’s chest.
— We both made mistakes with each other, we did horrible things,
kept secrets and lies. I know that what I did, by hiding you the
True, it was terrible, but please don’t hate me, wolf.
Moved away enough to look into your eyes, dried up the tears in
his skin and stroked his hair. Jack was silent, enjoying
my touch.
— I can’t hate you, I’m not capable— I whispered when the anger
calmed down. I should have trusted you and would have avoided much pain from
both— completed.
— I can’t blame you for acting alone, you had to learn the worst
way to survive at any cost. But by the Moon, you’re no longer
alone, I will be by your side whenever you need. It’s us against the
world, little wolf.
— Can you forgive me for betraying your trust? — I asked one
wire of voice, hesitant.
— Yes, werewolf, of course. But you can forgive me for having
hidden the truth?
We both had hurt each other, acting wrong,
hiding and lying. But if he was willing to forgive me for
Betrayed him like that, I could try to forget that secret so
obscure, as difficult as it was.
I nodded with eyes full of water.
Jack touched our foreheads, breathing deeply into my face,
his warm breath caressing my skin. The words were there,
rubbing on my tongue, wanting to be uttered, but still was not the
momentum.
Those three words weren’t necessary when the feeling was
sense in the air.
Jack and I were chaos, fire and savagery together. We were two beings
wounded by life, with various scars and traumas, but only
everything, we were two companions who would fight to find the
path to the light again through the darkness. And in time,
we could fix the cracks in our hearts.
— No more secrets or lies between us, okay? I promise never again
doubt or distrust you, Jack.
He nodded in agreement.
— I took an oath when I assumed the supremacy of my father that my
people would always be my priority, but I broke my promise,
because your safety is my top priority. You will always be
first in my life.
Jack fixed his eyes in my mouth and looked at me again.
I want to kiss you, hoarseness in your voice gave me goose bumps.
I held him by the neck, sinking my fingers into his black wires and
silky, pulling them lightly.
— And I want you to kiss me.
Jack wrapped my waist affectionately and held my face,
passing my thumb across my cheek, leaned into my
direction, murmured, filling the chest with air. From the moment we
we met again, we had not kissed and all my being yearned
for that moment.
And when your lips found mine, everything inside me if
vanished. My body relaxed to feel its tongue in my mouth, the
electrifying feeling of kissing him hit me hard, hot,
welcoming and intense.
It would be a long process until we heal the wounds opened by the last
events, regain broken confidence, but mostly,
it would be hard to find lost hope, but for Jack, for mine
family, I’d fight to get back on my feet and even if I fell, they’d be
with me.
A smile opened on Jack’s lips as he walked away, smiled
comeback.
— I missed you, Hayley. The hours away from you were the worst
my existence— whispered against my lips. — And how I missed you
hold in my arms, be able to feel your smell and your warmth, know that
you are safe.
— I’m here now, and I’m not going anywhere— assured. — My place is
next to you.
Always— said before kissing me intensely.