Author's Note: SPG scene ahead. Be guided as you continue!
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Hindi ako makasagot. I found myself trapped in a trance. I can't mumble a word and it's intentional. I don't want to say any words because my emotions have betrayed me two years ago. I can't let it betray me again. I've had enough.
"Hey . . ." Liv came again. I only look away. I am not going to meet his gaze. I am not going to fall for his game again. I am done with him.
He is about to mumble again when the host started to invade our awkward moment. It was that specific moment that I thanked God for having this bitchy host.
"Oh, siya! Napapasarap na kayo diyan! Ano, kasal niyo? Kasal niyo?!" The host banter and the people around us laugh. Maski ako. Liv only look at me with all of the disappoinment on his eyes.
Doon ay kusa akong kumalas kay Liv. Narinig ko ang mahina niyang paghinga ng malalim noong alisin ko na ang kamay ko sa kanyang dibdib. Acting cool, I smile at the people around us first before I decided to stay out of the spotlight.
"And finally! This is the moment for our newly wed couple! Let us welcome them for their first dance as husband and wife!" The host said while gesturing a lot of energy on her system. Sa ilang minuto ng pagsasalita niya ay halatang wala siyang kapaguran. "Wala ba kayong mga kamay?!"
The visitors are clapping their hands. My friends are yelling and shouting as if they are currently watching a crucial do or die basketball game. Ako, naisip ko na lang ang pumunta sa comfort room. I have to calm myself. I have to leave. Alam ko, if I continue to stay close with Liv, he will not stop telling me things that is only dangerous for my fragile heart.
"Oh, saan ka pupunta girl?" Jopay asked me as soon as I reach our table. Hindi ako umupo, nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad. Pinigilan lang ako ni Jopay.
"Hmm, sa CR lang." I pray to God that conviction is on my voice the moment I say it.
Jopay scrunched her nose. "Okay ka lang? You looked . . . stressed. Inaway ka ba ni Liv habang nagsasayaw kayo?" That was the point she crossed her arms.
I quickly shook my head. "No, ano bang sinasabi mo? I am just going to pee, babalik din naman ako."
Jopay threw me her squinted eyes. She is still speculating that's why I was the quickest to just walk away from her. Kilala ko ang babaeng iyan. Ramdam niya kapag bothered ako. At hindi talaga siya tumitigil hanggang sa malaman niya kung ano ang dahilan.
Noong marating ko na ang corridor kung saan matatagpuan ang comfort room, agad kong hinanap iyong para sa female. Good thing, agad kong nakita iyong female sign na umiilaw thru a green light.
I was about to enter it when I felt someone's hand on my arms. I am blinking as I face the person who grabbed me.
And then the air seems to leave my lungs when I met Liv's sad eyes. His broad chest is moving upward and downward. He is biting his lips as if preventing it to tremble as his eyes are betraying him to cascade his painful tears.
"Baby, please. Just give me the second chance and I will never commit the same fucking mistake anymore." His voice is fragile and husky. Mula doon, ramdam kong pagod na pagod siya. Iyong stress niya, parang naipon hanggang sa naging isang malaking bola ng problema. At ngayon, iyon ang pinapakita sa akin ng kanyang mga mata.
I look away. I swallowed hard to calm myself. Kasi aaminin ko, there's a spot on my heart that screams bliss the moment I felt his palm on my arms. The familiar softness and heat of it is making me reminisce those special moments we had two years ago.
When I turned my gaze at him again, I was about to drop the bomb. I was about to tell him that what he is requesting will never happen on this lifetime. Pero natigilan ako nang bigla, nakita ko kung paanong mabilis na lumapit sa akin ang kanyang mukha. Hanggang sa maramdaman ko na lang ang pagdampi ng kanyang labi sa akin.
At first, my eyes are widened as soon as I felt his tongue grazing my lower lips. Then I blink. And I hate myself when one moment after, I responded to his kiss. It felt like I was drunk, I can't think clearly. Like I was paralyzed by my hidden longing for his lips. As if under his inevitable spell, it felt like I want him more than him wanting me.
Noong pinutol niya ang paghahalikan namin, pareho kaming habol hiningang nagtitigan. I was there to only mumble, "Gosh" thru my mind. Because deep down I knew, I am doom. I am going to regret this but I still continue. This time, I was the one who grab his face. I kissed him hard. The kind of kiss that's giddy. I want him. I really want him tonight and the tequila I drank earlier must be the one to blame here.
Wala akong ginawa noong unti-unti niya akong hinila papasok sa comfort room. Wala pa rin akong laban noong sa pagitan ng paghahalikan namin ay narinig ko ang pag-lock ng pintuan. And then, that was the moment when Liv carry me thru his sturdy arms. Pinaupo niya ako sa sink at doon, muli niya akong siniil ng halik. Isang halik na nagpapadama ng labis na pangangailangan.
"Please, if you don't want this to continue, just say it." He told me in between our hot kiss, I am just here sitting and caressing his masculine body as I crave for his lips more.
He moved his face away from me. He is catching his breath as he told me, "The last thing that I want is you telling me I harassed you." There is an iota of pain on his tone. Hindi ko iyon ininda.
Hinila ko siya sa kwelyo. My voice is close to whimper as I told him, "Don't stop."
And that seems to fuel him.
Before I knew it, his palm are grabbing my breast. He is massaging it in a manner that only him who can make it worthwhile. Kasabay iyon ng marahan niyang pahaplos sa hita ko. I moan because of the sensation. He still know my weak sides. He is still professional with the way how he kiss me on my neck.
Hanggang sa maramdaman ko na lang ang kanyang mga kamay sa dress ko. Itinaas niya iyon dahilan para bumungad sa kanyang mga mata ang puting lace panties ko. Doon ay bahagya akong tumayo para mabilis niya iyong maibaba.
And swear, I never knew that me being exposed infront of him would give me this borderline burning sensation thru my cores. Muli niya akong inalalayan paupo sa sink. Habol hininga ako habang pinapanood siyang alisin ang sinturon niya. Nagmamadali siya noong ibaba niya ang kanyang pantalon hanggang sa kanyang tuhod. At ganoon na rin ang black boxers brief niya.
I hate myself for biting my lower lips the moment I saw his long shaft again. It is now proudly erecting thru my lustful eyes. And I can't help myself but to be giddy for it to come inside me.
Muling hinawakan ni Liv ang mukha ko. He run his thumb on my cheeks. "I never made love to anyone after you, baby. This is going to be the first time after two years."
Noong inilapit niya sa akin ang mukha para muli akong halikan ay napasinghap ako nang may mainit na naramdaman mula sa ibaba ko. Napapikit na lang talaga ako ng bahagya niya iyong idinidiin sa akin dahilan parang tumama iyon sa gitna ko.
Liv broke our kiss for a moment. Hanggang sa binuka niya ang mga hita ko. Matapos noon ay pareho kaming tumingin mula sa ibaba namin. And from there, I saw how he point his hardness towards my cherry. And I gasp hard the moment I felt it to enter me little by little. Napapikit na lang talaga ako ng mga mata nang maramdaman itong sumagad hanggang sa pinakasensitibong parte ng pagkababae ko.
"Liv . . ." Hingal ko nang maramdaman ang kanyang labi sa leeg ko. Ngayon ay gumagalaw na siya pasalubong sa katawan ako. At wala akong magawa ngayon kung hindi ang damhin na lang nang damhin ang sarap na pinaparanas niya sa akin.
"Shit . . ." Napayakap ako nang mahigpit sa kanya nang unti-unti, naging mabilis ang kanyang pag-galaw. Narinig ko na rin ang malakas niyang paghinga noong angkinin naman ng labi niya ang labi ko.
"Come for me, baby." He told me in between of our kiss. "Come for me, I am fucking close . . ."
He doesn't need to demand me to. I already reached my climax the moment his pace started to go rough. He started to be giddy as he assault my burning system with his shaft.
"Fuck . . ." Hingal na hingal kong sambit habang damang-dama ang pawis sa buong katawan ko. Bumagsak ang likod ko sa salamin ng sink habang patuloy na dinadama ang makamundong sensasyon.
"I'm coming, baby." Liv told me one last time before he moan loudly. He is eyeing me like a hungry eagle as I felt myself reaching climax again. Sabay ang pag-ungol namin noong mas naging marahas ang paggalaw niya.
And before I knew it, it was a one last thrust before he stopped. He entered me so deep and I felt his hot liquid inside me.
He came inside my womb.
I was on my euphoric state as I realized it. At ganoon na lang talaga kabilis ang ginawa kong pagtulak sa kanya palayo sa akin.
The pleasure he gave me is so quick to subside as rage is the only thing I felt as I saw how his juice to drip down my thighs. "You fucking came inside me?!"
Doon niya lang din iyon na-realize. Mabilis siyang nagkisap-mata hanggang sa makita ko kung papaano napalitan ng takot ang kanyang mga mata. He is about to come near me when I stopped him.
I raised my hands to pushed him away. "You know what? Just leave!" Napasabunot ako sa aking buhok. Ang tanga ko! Ang tanga-tanga ko! Heto na naman! Nagpapakatanga na naman ako!
But I was surprised when he quickly grab my arms. And then I felt his warm embrace as soon as I leaned my head on his broad chest.
That specific moment, I felt how his heartbeat turned fast. Then under his almost breathless tone, he told me, "Never again."
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Author's Note:
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