Time flies so fast, It's been a week since the video got viral. It's no big deal for me and my parents anymore. Maybe, we know if when we make that big deal that means we will be defeated by them.Well, I received many death threats from Tamara's fanbase. They ship Magen to Tamara easily! Ang daming kumakalat sa mga social media na mga edited pictures nila. Hanggang edit lang naman!
They attacked me too, they message me on every social media account that I have! Kung ano-ano ang mga pinagsasabi nila and I just seen their messages. Minsan naiinis ako at gusto ko sila replyan but I don't want to join their clan. The keyboard warriors clan. So, it funny how I pissed them because they know that I didn't care at all. Go on... do whatever you want. The level of this issue is only on the lower part and it will puff nothing away from my previous experiences.
"Stop accepting that death threats," mahinahon na sabi ni Magen.
I lifted my head when he entered my condo. Well, we want to catch up. Hindi pa ako totally nabigay sa mga sweet words niya. Napanguso ako nang mapansin na nakapang-alis siya. Minsan kasi kapag napunta siya rito ay nakashort and t-shirt lang kaso ngayon ay nakasuit siya na kulay black. Ang gwapo, nakakainis.
"I just want to know what product they buy..." paliwanag ko bago buksan ang box na nasa harapan ko.
Nandito ako ngayon sa sala while seating on the carpet. Maraming nakatambak sa gilid ko na box na puro pinadala sa akin ng mga so-called bashers ko. Well, I didn't intend to read their letter cards. Agad ko nalang tinatapon sa basurahan na nasa gilid ko rin. I just want to see what product they buy. Mostly kasi ang laman ng box ay mga ine-endorse ko. Tsaka hindi ko sila sasawayin 'no! Baka nga tumaas pa sale ng mga products dahil sa kanila. They spend their money to hate me! Too bad.
"Kakalabas lang nitong product na 'to ta's nabili na agad nila?!" hindi makapaniwalang sabi ko habang tinitingnan ang durog na makeup set sa loob ng box.
Magen didn't say anything. He just sat on the single couch while staring at me. Wala siyang ginawa at parang hinahayaan nalang ako. I saw how his jaw clenched when he looked at the boxes.
Halos isang linggo narin akong nakakulong dito sa condo. He even cancelled all of my schedule. Baka raw kasi ay may manakit na naman sa akin. Well, Hanz told me to go out when everything is fine. Hindi na ako umangal kaya sa mga araw na lumilipas ay ganito ang ginagawa ko.
"By the way, why are you wearing like that? Saan ka lalandi?" may panunuyang tanong ko kay Magen.
"Pinagsasabi mo na naman?" hindi ako umimik at umiwas ng tingin. "May pupuntahan lang ako saglit pero hindi ako lalandi. Tsaka na ako lalandi kapag nakauwi na ako dito mamaya," and then he smirked!
Kinagat ko ang labi ko at umirap. I no longer bothered to look at him. I stretched my body before standing up. I was about to put the boxes in the trash bag when Magen stopped me and he threw them himself.
Pinanood ko siyang yumuko habang pinupulot ang mga kalat. They way his muscle move looks attractive. Amoy na amoy ko rin ang mabango niyang pabango.
"Saan ka nga pupunta?" tanong ko ulit.
Bumaling siya sa akin ng tingin na para bang nag-aalala. "Mint wants to talk to me regarding the business," he explained reason why I nodded.
"It's already 3 o'clock P.M. Babalik kapa dito?" alanganin kong tanong.
Baka kasi gabihin na siya. Ayaw ko naman na ipamukha sa kaniya na responsibilidad niya ako kasi wala parin naman kaming label. I just want it to be lowkey. Masyado pa kasing mabilis at ayaw ko muna magpadalos-dalos. He stood up properly and put the trash bag beside the door.
"Pupuntahan kita mamaya. I'll come home here maybe before 6 pm I'll cook for you too so don't bother cooking. Sasaglit lang naman ako sa condo ni Mint," paliwanag niya.
"Ako nalang magluluto---"
"Honey... ako na. Matulog ka nalang kung gusto mo at gigisingin kita kapag nakauwi na ako," pilit niya bago ako titigan.
"Isama mo nalang ako,"
Natigilan siya dahil sa sinabi ko. Para bang hindi niya inaasahan ang lumabas sa bibig ko. Maybe he thought it wasn't safe for me to go out because Tamara's immature fans might show up again.
"Okay but you must stay beside me. No more buts..."
"Did you agree right away? Don't you howl first? because it might not be safe?" salubong ang kilay kong tanong.
He must be worried about me, right? Because I might get hurt and what if something bad happen to me?!
His brows furrowed to when he licked his lips. "You are with me so you're safe. Hindi ko hahayaan na may makapanakit sa'yo habang nasa tabi kita at kahit na wala ako sa tabi mo ay wala parin akong hahayaan na makapanakit sa'yo. Don't worry I will never allow Tamara's fan touch you even one strand of your hair..."
Natameme ako dahil sa sinagot niya. I bit my lower lips to shut my mouth. Pakiramdam ko kasi sobrang mapapatili ako sa sinabi niya.
Akmang tatalikuran kona siya nang hawakan niya ako sa siko. His smile is playful and look like he was teasing me.
"Where are you---"
"R-room..." putol sa tatanungin niya.
Napatigil ako sa paghinga nang titigan niya ang mata. Para bang sinusuri niya kung ano ang itsura ko. I avoided his gaze because it's really uncomfortable!
"Why? Kasi kinikilig ka?"
Sino'ng hindi kikiligin sa kaniya? How can he utter a sweet words without lapses?! How can he easily shake my world with those words?
Hindi ako umimik at nag-iwas ulit ng tingin. Grabe! Yung puso ko ay parang tanga dahil sobrang bilis ng tibok. Sige... mine po kay Magen.
"Dito ka sa harapan ko kiligin," natatawang sabi niya.
Heto na! Luluhod na Magen. Tama na please.
Nagulat ako nang bigla niya akong yakapin sa baywang dahilan para mapaatras ako pero agad niya ako na nilapit sa kaniya. He moved my head on his chest while hugging my waist.
"Hear every beat of my heart. Kinikilig din ako..." natatawang sabi niya.
Napapikit ako at napangiti habang pinapakinggan ang tibok ng puso niya. He pinched my waist reason why we giggled. Nakakainis naman!
Gusto kong maiyak dahil ngayon ko nalang ulit naranasan ito. Beside him, I know I am whole. Words are not enough to say how different I feel. Right now it doesn't matter to me if, in the end, I get hurt. I don't want to waste my time whining if what will happen next while I'm pushing him away. This time I want to take the time with him and live happily because when I was with him there seemed to be nothing wrong.
I realized that the more I push him away, the more miserable my life would become. Kung masasaktan na naman ako at iiyak ulit ay hahayaan ko nalang because that how to love sail round.
"Magbihis kana..." utos niya nang humiwalay sa yakap sa akin.
I pouted and made a puppy eyes. "Why are you wearing a suit pala if sa condo lang tayo ni Mint pupunta?" kunot-noo kong tanong.
He shrugged and chuckled "Just wear something formal..."
"Bawal ba 'yung pangparty na dress? 'Yung sinuot ko no'ng una kitang makita..." I tried to pissed him but he just smiled!
"Wear everything you want. Kahit magbra at panty kalang---" agad ko siyang hinampas sa braso kaya siya natigilan.
"Ang bastos mo!"
Nanlaki ang mata niya habang pinipigilan ang hampas ko "Honey! Ano'ng bastos do'n!" kinulong niya ang dalawang kamay ko sa loob ng kaniyang suit.
Napangiwi ako nang muntik na matanggal ang butones ng kaniyang panloob. Sobrang bilis ng kalabog ng dibdib ko. Ilang inches nalang ang layo ng mukha niya sa akin kaya mas lalong nanginig ang kamay ko. I could also smell the menthol smell of his breath hitting my forehead. Napapikit ako nang maramdaman ang dami ng labi niya sa aking noo.
"A-ang sabi mo kahit magsuot lang ako ng bra at panty!"
"Hanggang tingin lang naman sila and I know that you won't wear that when I'm with you because I know that all your attention is focused on me and it doesn't matter to you what you wear. Tsaka maganda ka naman sa kahit ano'ng suotin mo..." malambing niyang sabi.
Hindi kona siya pinansin pa dahil pakiramdam ko ay kinikilig na naman ako. Shit! He really know where's my tickles! Alam na alam niya kung paano niya ako mapapaamo! I went into my room and changed. I just wear a backless dress and have plunge chest v cut part. It's not very revealing so it's okay. Besides, maybe someone will see us and take a picture of us, I shouldn't lose. Kailangan naka-aura parin!
I will slap to their face that I deserve Magen! Yes!
"Why you have lipstick?" I tried to hide the irritation in my voice.
Nandito na kami sa loob ng kotse niya and I was looking around because it's boring! Hindi ko inaasahan na may makikitang lipstick sa sahig.
"Ha?" takang tanong niya.
Umirap ako at yumuko para makuha ang lipstick na nasa sahig. I forced a smile before sitting properly while showing him the lipstick I got. Wow! In the branch that I actually endorse!
"This!" inis kong sabi bago ibato sa likuran ang lipstick. I heard his laughters reason why I furrowed my brows "Ang kapal talaga ng mukha mo..." I whispered and I was sure that he heard it.
"Selosa..." he whispered back.
I can't look directly at his beautiful eyes and soft smile. It makes me weak!
"H-hindi!" angal ko.
Napapikit ako dahil sa bahagyang pagpiyok. Damn! He just laugh softly while shaking his head!
"Hindi..." he mocked reason why I slapped his arm.
Natatawa niyang pinatong ang kaliwang siko sa bintana ng sasakyan bago mabilis akong tingnan. He's looking at the road while smiling. Gwapo!
"Kanino nga? Bakit mayro'n kang lipstick ng babae sa sasakyan? Don't tell me Tamara is the owner of that lipstick?!" bintang ko dahilan ng pagngiwi niya.
He parked the car, tinanggal niya ang pagkakaseatbealt ng kaniya bago ako balingan. Wow! His smile is damn powerful!
"H'wag mo ako lapitan..." galit kong sabi bago tanggalin ang seatbelt.
Akmang lalabas na ako ng sasakyan nang hawakan niya ako sa siko. He pulled me closer to me and the last time I know. His lips is touching mine.
Napahawak ako sa magkabilang balikat niya nang mas lalong lumalim ang paghalik niya sa akin. I felt his touch on the back of my head. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. His soft lips rubbing on mine feels good. I groaned when he bit my lower lips. Hinampas ko ang braso niya bago dumilat. Sa bawat paghagod ng labi niya sa labi ko ay ramdam ko ang pangungulila. He kisses me harshly looks like he was craving for it. I wrapped my arm on his neck. Hindi ko alam pero natapon na ata ang lahat ng hiya ko. I sat on his lap without letting go of his lips. Damn you, Magen! I miss this!
Humiwalay ako saglit para makahinga. I bit my lower lips when he wrapped his arm on my waist while staring at me. Sobra ang kalabog ng puso ko habang nilalabanan ang titig niya. He even pinched my waist before planting a kiss on my neck. Napatingala ako dahil sa kiliti.
"Magen..." mahinang tawag ko sa kaniya nang halikan niya ang panga ko pabalik sa labi.
He just answered a moan while grinning. Damn this man! He was good at this, huh?!
Nang maghiwalay ang labi namin ay parehas kaming naghahabol ng hininga. He smiled seducetively before touching my lips. Pakiramdam ko ay magsusugat ang labi ko dahil sa kagat niya!
Natatawa siyang ngumiti sa akin at kumindat bago may abutin sa likuran. Pakiramdam ko ay sobrang namula ang pisnge ko. I was about to go to the passenger seat when he tighten the way he held ny waist.
"I bought this lipstick for you. In case of this kind of emergency..." umawang ang labi ko nang tanggalin niya ang sealed ng lipstick.
I swallowed hard when he put some of lipstick on my lips.
"Halos araw-araw kong dinadalaw si Mama sa bahay para lang pagpractice-san kung paano maggan'to. Baka sabihin mo na naman may ibang babae ako 'tsaka binili ko 'to para sa'yo. For emergency nga, katulad ngayon..." natatawang sabi niya habang nilalagyan ng lipstick ang labi ko.
He held my jaw softly. Naiiyak ako dahil sobrang hindi ako makapaniwala.
"Did you buy all of the lipsticks that I saw just to use it when... you know?" nahihiyang tanong ko bago umiwas ng tingin.
"Binili ko 'yon para pagkatapos natin mag-MOMOL ay hindi ko masira fashion style mo,"
Ngumuso ako, halos mapatalon ako nang biglang may kumatok sa bintana.
"Magen!" akmang hihiwalay ako nang higpitan niya ang yakap sa baywang ko.
"Ay! Naglalandi pa pala! Kaya pala ang tagal! Ang landi mo talaga Kuya!" rinig kong sigaw ni Mint nang ibaba ni Magen ang bintana.
Mint is just wearing a white sando and backetball short. Nakasuot pa siya ng sumbrero at may bitbit na sama ng loob... bottled water.
"Susunod ako do'n. Masyado kang atat makita ang gwapo mong kuya!" natatawang sabi ni Magen.
"Kadiri ka!" sinipa pa ni Mint ang pinto ng sasakyan ni Magen bago tumakbo.
"Tara na," aya ko.
He nodded, pinakawalan niya ang pagkakahawak sa akin. I saw that he put the lipstick inside his pocket. Napaisip tuloy ako... may part 2 kaya?
Lumingon-lingon pa siya sa paligid habang hawak ang baywang ko. Siguro tiningnan niya kung may group of people ba or fans ni Tamara.
We're now here at Diamonds hotel. Halos hindi ko mabilang sa daliri ko ang mga bumabati sa amin na nginingitian lang namin. Some of them is taking a pictures. Magen pressed the 12 floor button when we entered the elevator.
"Do you remember Rain?" he asked out of the sudden.
I immediately nodded "Of course, kahit hindi kami masyadong matagal na nagkasama no'n. Hindi ko 'yon makakalimutan," he was there when I needed someone!
He nodded and smile "He's Phoebe's Husband now..."
Nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya "What?! Si Phoebe and Rain?! How?" natatawang tanong ko dahil hindi ako makapaniwala!
Imagine! Back then Rain have a feelings for me and I have many insecurities when it comes to Phoebe! I didn't expect that they're going to end up together!
"Hindi naman ako chismosa, Honey. Basta nalaman kolang kay Mint no'ng tumawag siya sa akin nung nakaraan. Ngayon kolang naalala,"he said while hugging me.
Agad kaming lumabas ng elevator nang makaabot na kami sa 12th floor. Mint opened the door while smiling at me.
"Grabe! Walang pinabago! Ang ganda parin!" Mint proudly said.
Inupo ako ni Magen sa isang high chair. He kicked Mint's ass when Mint was about to hug me.
"Sorry, I don't talk to stranger.." maang-maangan ko.
I just want to pissed him but he just threw a pillow on me. Muntik na akong mahulog sa kinauupuan ko dahil sa malakas niyang pagbato.
"Mint naman!" angal ko bigla kasi akong kinabahan!
"Ibabaon kita ng buhay, Mint." inis na saway ni Magen bago ako lapitan at yakapin.
"Papanget ng ugali niyo!" Mint uttered.
I just rolled my eyes while laughing. Pinalipat ako sa sofa ni Magen and he sat next to me while Mint sat in front of us, singe couch. I just listen to what they talk about. I don't understand so I feel like I want to go to sleep! Saglit lang sila nag-usap. Gusto ko nga sana tanungin kung naglolokohan lang ba sila. Kasi naman! Pwede naman na sa cellphone nalang mag-usap or video call!
"Saglit lang pala pag-uusapan niyo dapat sa cellphone nalang kayo nag-usap. Nakita ko tuloy si Mint!" kunwaring angal ko nang tumayo si Mint dahil may nagdoor bell.
"Angas mo talaga, Heart! Mapanira ka parin ng pagkatao. Maging thankful ka nalang kasi may nakita kang gwapo!" Mint uttered proudly!
"Ako lang gwapo sa mata ni Heart, Mint!" gataw ni Magen reason why we both laughed.
Mint raised a middle finger "Papangit ng ugali..."
Nawala ang ngiti sa labi ko nang may mga pumasok. One girl wearing a formal attire and one boy wearing a casual attire while holding a camera entered Mint's condo.
"Who are they?" tanong ko kay Magen na biglang tumayo.
"Reporters..." simpleng sagot niya na nagpakunot sa noo ko.
"Why?" takang tanong ko.
I know the answer but I want him to answer it using his mouth.
"I can't sleep properly. I have many sleepness night because I was worried to you. Gusto kona ayusin 'tong issue. I want to live happily with you..."
"Layla Jean Aquino..." pakilala ng babae bago umupo sa sofa na nasa gilid ko.
"Peter Francisco..." the guy introduced and stood up properly.
Magen and I also introduced ourselves to them and shook hands.
"Totoo ba ang issue na nasasangkot sa iyo ngayon? May relasyon ba kayo ng rising star celebrity na si Tamara?" Layla asked Magen.
He held my hand, pinakita niya sa camera na magkahawak kami ng kamay. Pakiramdam ko ay namula ang buong pagkatao ko nang halikan niya ang likod ng aking palad.
"I waited for this girl for many years and there's no room inside my heart for any girls," he answered.
Don't worry Magen because there's no room too inside my heart for any guy out there.
Tumango-tango ang reporter "Ano ang ibig sabihin ni Tamara sa instagram story niya. Kitang-kita sa picture na magkahalikan kayo. Sinasabi mo parin ba na walang namamagitan sa inyo?" mahinahon ngunit maintriga na tanong ni Layla.
"Tamara kissed me. I didn't kiss her back. My Honey's... I mean," natatawang huminto si Magen nang mapansin ang awkwardness. "Heart's Mom is the owner of the resort. Kung gusto niyo ay kukuhain ko ang copy ng recordings just to make everythings clear,"
The reporter nodded "Bakit hinayaan mong hawakan ka sa braso ni Tamara kung gano'n?" nakagat ko ang labi ko at tiningnan si Magen na diretso lang ang tingin sa camera.
"Alam ko ilang beses kona nasabi sa 'yo 'to Tamara but I want to repeat it until you accept my apology and until you stop bothering my girl. I'm so sorry again Tamara if I used you to seek information about Heart. I was desperate that time so you received a false hope," Magen sincerely said.
Tumango-tango naman si Layla at binalingan ako ng tingin. "Ikaw Heart... ano'ng masasabi mo sa sinabi sa'yo ni Tamara na galit siya sa'yo? Marami rin na mga fans niya ang galit sa'yo 'diba?"
I smiled at the camera "Well, Tamara if you hate me then hate me..." I said without filter. "Wala na akong magagawa d'yan but you're a influencer you must think properly. I didn't do anything bad towards you. I just give back to you the favor. To Tamara's fans, don't waste your money and time just to hate me. Your parents are working hard to give money to all of you so don't spend it buying some of my endorsement products and putting it inside the box with a death threats. Stop judging or criticizing someone without knowing the person. This issue is not a big deal to me. The comments and opinions with hurtful words? I'm pissed but I'm not hurt at all. Kasi sobrang deep nang naranasan ko kumpara sa kung ano ang nangyayari ngayon kaya wala na 'yon sa akin. I hope you learn from your mistake. Don't criticize someone easily because not all of us are strong enough like me. Thanks," nakangiting sambit ko.
"So, please... stop sending Heart a countless death threats. Stop messaging her on her social media account. Stop attacking her in public or even in private. Leave my Heart alone. She's doing fine and she doesn't deserve any harsh and harmful words for anyone. I agreed to this interview because I was worried and mad to everyone who keeps on barking at her. H'wag niyo na kami guluhin ni Heart. Tamara, I know my mistake so know yours too. That's all," Magen seriously said.
Nagkandatitigan pa kami at nagulat ako nang bigla siyang ngumiti sa akin at kumindat kasabay ng pagkagat labi. Agad akong nag-iwas ng tingin lalo nang marinig ang mahinang tawa ni Mint na ngayon ay nasa tabi ng cameraman.
"We're thankful for accepting our invites for this short interview. Since, gusto rin namin malaman ang side niyo. Thank you very much Heart and Magen for giving us the opportunity to handle this interview..." nakangiting sabi ni Layla.
They said goodbye so Magen and I drove them out the door. I was thankful too because it was clear that what was happening was not really what Tamara and Magen had. Kung mayroon parin na mga fans ni Tamara ang magpapadala ng death threats ay hahayaan ko nalang.
I was about to go back on the couch when Magen slammed the door loud. Nagulat ako nang mabilis niya akong binuhat at maingat na sinandal sa pintuan. My face heated when he wrapped my legs on his waist! Nakacycling lang ako!
"Mag--"
He didn't finish what I was going to say because he quickly attacked my lip. I groaned again when he bit my lower lips. He look like a crave man! Pinikit ko ang aking mata at niyakap siya sa leeg. He kissed me harshly! Ang wild nakakainis!
Napatingala ako nang dampian niya naman ng halik ang panga ko pababa sa leeg.
"I really love you, Honey. Hindi kona kakayanin kung isang beses ay makakawala ka na naman sa akin," he whispered softly and stopped kissing me.
Siniksik ko ang mukha ko sa kaniyang leeg. I really love him and I can't imagine myself taking a path without him.
Dawn Magen Villafueno many times turns my heart into pieces and this time he turns it to the heart that seems to have no scars.
If loving him involves crying then... let me in tears.