I appeared cold in front of Roge even my heart still hurt with questions. Matapos kong makababa sa parking lot ay kumuha ako ng isang sigarilyo sa bulsa, sinindihan at inilagay iyon sa bibig ko. Alam kong ayaw niya ang ginagawa ko pero wala akong panahon upang makipag away sa kaniya.
After five minutes ay saka pa lamang siya bumaba. Mabilis akong sumakay na sa motor at ibinigay ang helmet ko sa kaniya ng hindi nagsasalita. Matagal pa bago niya kinuha iyon at isinuot. We didn't talk until we reached the hospital's parking lot. I am determined to end everything in one snap. I didn't need evidence if Rogen telling the truth or not. I need them to tell me ahead of the time. Matapos makababa at makapag part ay na una na akong naglakad papunta sa floor ni Calvin. I know things would be hard startibg today. We need to hurry. As I arrive inside Calvin's room, I saw Doc Wilson checking on him while he is asleep.
"Good morning?"
Tumango lang ako sa kaniya bilang tugon.
"See you in my office."
After the two nurses assist him, they finally have their exit and follow Doc Wilson.
"Where are you going?"
"I'll call you later."
He tried to look at me while his forehead creased. I didn't respond and go outside without saying anything.
We just talk closer last night but it ended up not good. Hindi ko pa kayang kausapin siya dahil baka hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko at may masabi akong hindi na rarapat. I still love him but this is not the issue.
"What's with the look? LQ?"
I ignored what Doc Wilson said and sat in the chair available in his office. I could hear the aircon's fan.
"Doctor Roigie will be the one who'll assist Calvin there. I need to know the process. I think, she already told you."
"You looked more serious today. Yeah, I already checked everything. The Director has eyes everywhere so I think you should see him by now, and tell him your plan? Well, he knew everything, right?"
"I'll tell him later. I'm going to leave the hospital by now. If something goes wrong, call me immediately."
"Yeah, you're busy. Don't worry, I am not doing this for you. That woman might kill me if something happens to her brother."
Matapos ng kaunting usapan ay tinawagan ko muna si Roge na pumunta na sa parking lot para samahan ako. I don't know what will happen there and he knew how to calm me. Even though I am still cold towards him, I couldn't change the fact that I am still care and love him.
Inantay ko pa siyang bumaba habang naninigarilyo. I could smell the smoke in my shirt.
"What's going on? I thought you stopped smoking?"
Agad kong itinapon ang bagong sindi kong sigarilyo at tinapakan iyon.
"Let's go."
Naglakad ako papunta sa dulo ng parking lot.
"Where are we heading?"
Nang makita ang hinahanap ay mabilis kong tinanggal ang takip ng sasakyan at kinuha ang susi na dinala ko pa galing sa condo ko. I want to act cool pero hindi ko maaaring isugal ang pagiging siga kaysa protektahan ang sarili. Matapos patunugin iyon ay sumakay n ako papasok sa loob. Rogen doesn't know I have a bullet proof car. I earn this while being a lawyer. Simula ng maging abogado ay halos malalaking tao ang nakakausap ko dahil na rin sa abilidad kong maipanalo ang mga kaso.
"You own this?"
"I want to be safe."
Nagtuloy lamang ako sa pagmamaneho hanggang makarating kame ng walang humaharang sa daan.
"Why we were here?"
Nagtataka pa siyang tumingin sa akin bago muling tumingin sa ibang mga pulis na nagkalat sa paligid.
I just stared at him and said nothing. I guess he forgot what I said last night.
"A-are you...Are you sure about this?"
I remember what my Mom said about my attitude. I used to do things without thinking abiut it too much. Mabilid akonh magdesisyon sa mga bagay kaya na rin siguro umabot ako sa puntong ganitl ng hindi nalalaman ang totoong nangyare ng araw na iyon.
I disregard the thoughts in my head and open the door.
"Let's go."
Tumingin pa ako sa paligid bago pumasok sa loob. I could see the stares of everyone. Maaaring may ilan sa kanilang nakakakilala sa akin at ang iba naman ay walang pakialam at patuloy lamang sa kanilang ginagawa.
"Surgent,"
Dumaretso ako sa desk ng isa sa mga kilala ko sa kulungan bago siya sumenyas sa.mga tauhan niya. I tried to keep calm but my heart couldn't cooperate. We just follow.him until we reached the visiting room.
"What is she doing here?"
I saw her sitting on one of the chairs and sat beside her.
"You're late. By the way, are you ready?"
Napaismid na lamang ako habang naghihintay sa pagdating niya.
"Hi Doc! How's life? I guess you can breathe now you'll be leaving. Hindi mo na mararamdaman ang presensya ng sakit ng ulo mula sa katabi ko."
"What do you mean?"
"You haven't told him?"
I could feel the intense look of Rogen not until he finally arived. He is getting old. Mas pumayat din ito kumpara ng huling dalaw ko sa kaniya.
"Hi?"
Nanatili ang paningin ko sa kaniya ngunit ang katabi ko lamang ang nagpahinto sa kaniya. I can see his intense look while looking at her. I thought he doesn't remember something but after seing this girl, I guess something came up on his head.
"Shocked? Could you please sit down first?"
"What are you doing here?"
Pinagmamsdan ko laman silang dalawa habang inaalam ang mga reaksyon nito. Magsasalita pa sana siyang muli ng hindi.sinasadyang mapalingon siya sa akin.
"I guess amnesia has an expiration date."
Nagulat pa siya habang nakatingin sa akin. He was trying to avoid talking to me like I never knew he is acting whenever I go here.
"I brought her here. Calvin couldn't go today. This is a small reunion."
Nagpasalit salit pa siyang tumingin sa aming dalawa bago tumigil ang paningin sa katabi ko.
"A-are you-"
"Why? I shouldn't tell her? Until when? That's why I brought her here. Tell her on your own. Hindi kase paniwalain itong kapatid ko."
Hindi ko napigilang maiyukom ang kanang kamay dahil sa poot.
"I need to know. Tell me, is she, my sister?"
I tried to calm myself, but whenever I thought about the past, I couldn't resist it.
"Y-yeah. She is your sister."
To be continued...