Ryan POV:-
I am sure that even if my dreams are shattered, their fragments will always remain yours.
There I saw Rebecca, submerged in the tub. My heart lost its beat. The star which was shining in my sky fell. My emotions got lost somewhere in the darkness.
“No, No, Rebecca… what have you done?” I couldn't make out what happened. What was between us shattered this very instant and I realized I was late.
Everything slipped out of my grasp. I was left in that turn of my life where I cannot return from, where nothing but agony resides.
Silently tears mixed up with sweat and rolled down.
A sudden courage was given to me as I quickly rushed to her and took her out. Nothing came to my mind, I have lost my ability to think, all on my mind was; we need to go to the hospital.
“Please, I beg you, don’t leave me like this, I will do anything you want but stay please. I beg you, Rebecca…”
I quickly took her with me and drove off to the hospital. I was not in my senses. To say I am scared to lose her would be an understatement; I am petrified to lose her.
Just the thought of losing her even before confessing my love to her made me terrified, to lose her before seeing her genuine smile, to lose her before starting my life anew with her.
I don't know what I should do. I don't know what took over me as I called Marianne and asked her desperately to come here.
I was breathing with difficulty, my condition is in a complete mess. My heart constricted as Dad's words caused a commotion in my mind. My love was killing her from inside.
She kept saying that this will take her life but I shrugged her off. I should have talked to her about it.
At this moment, I felt what she should have felt when she saw her sister Jane die in front of her. It's devastating.
“Please don’t die. I will leave you forever, I won’t bother you, end our toxic bond but please don’t die.” I whispered, sobbing to myself.
I waited for the doctor to come, I don't know how time passed, how many beats my heart skipped, how long I was being suffocated, how vast this ravage is but I am desperately waiting for a halt.
‘Please be okay.’
Soon, the Doctor came, I quickly walked to him and asked breathlessly, "Doctor.. Rebecca?"
"Mr Knight, Your wife is out of danger, she is fine. But she is going through severe depression to take such a drastic step in her condition. I would recommend you to take her to a physiatrist soon. She needs mental treatment." He explained.
I nodded and I felt like I had finally caught my breath, I exhaled in relief and put my hand over my chest. A small smile crept upon my lips and I thanked God.
A weight lessened on my heart when I heard she is fine.
"We have saved her Mr Knight but… " Doctor trailed off as I looked at him waiting for him to continue.
"I am sorry, we couldn't save your child.”
My eyes widened in sorrow when I heard it.
“It was too weak to survive the stress, her strain affected it too much.."
Darkness came before my eyes, my energy- which was already so little, drained from me.
"What..? M-My Child?" I asked vaguely, hoping I might have heard wrong.
"Seems like she is also not aware of it, she was about 12 weeks pregnant. I am sorry for your loss." My lips began to quiver, I took a step back.
Losing myself in the depth of misery. My heart ached, tears rolled down, I couldn't speak, I couldn't think. Extreme anguish ate me up. The pain inflicted on me is so immense that no words can explain it.
I.. Lost my child.. Our child..?
And Rebecca is not even aware of it. How will I tell her? Can I even tell her?
Having no strength left in me, I leaned on the wall and closed my eyes with silent tears streaming down.
My very being crumbling apart, the thorns pricked me and bled me to death leaving me with the incapability to feel anything but remorse and destruction.
"Ryan.. W-why did you call me h-here? W-What happened to Rebecca?" Marianne came and asked, worried. I looked at her, my lips quivering, not being able to utter a single word.
"She.. T-Tried to commit s-suicide…" I whispered so faintly that my voice faded away while speaking.
"What? Please tell me everything is fine." She asked desperately.
"Rebecca tried to commit suicide! She tried to find redemption in death! She tried to leave everything behind!" I cried, bursting my feelings out.
I began to cry out loud. Marianne gasped as she began to cry.
"H-How she?" She asked in a croaked whisper.
"They saved her.." I manage to breath out, not having enough courage to speak further. She stumble back and began to cry,
"It's my fault. It's my fault. It's all my fault." Marianne cried. She then stopped and looked at me.
"Can I talk to you alone, Ryan?" I nodded and went with her. I wiped my tears, we were somewhere alone. She looked down in shame and began to say,
"I know Rebecca will never tell you everything about her, that's why I will tell you why she is like this. Because only you can save her. Only you can take her out of the darkness."
"I tried, Marianne.. Believe me I tried.. And that's what happened!?" I whispered-yelled, being tormented drastically.
“I can’t do it. This is all my fault, I can’t stay with her anymore. Look, it happened because of me!” I whimpered, trying not to cry.
"You changed her! You made her what she never felt in years! Please don't leave her behind.. " She begged.
"I wish I never loved you, Marianne! Just because of this, she pushed herself away from me, she took my love for granted just because she thinks that I love you!" I shouted, not even getting what I was saying.
My mind was not functioning properly anymore, I had lost it.
"Ryan, please.. Rebecca loves you! I beg you for her sake, listen to me for once and think about it. Whether you want to try to liberate her again or not?!" She shouted back.
I put my hand over my face and nodded. She swallowed hard and began to say,
"Rebecca.. She was a gifted child.. We all loved her a lot. We were a happy little family living in Cairo. Our mother died after giving birth to Rebecca and Jane. Father brought us up with love.” She began to tell me.
“Everything was perfect, we were not rich but we were happy. And then, at their 18th birthday, Rebecca being smart, she took out a loan and invested her money. She took risks to earn money, but somehow she did it and started her own small company by taking loans and then paying them back…”
To be honest, I wanted to know Rebecca from herself, not from someone else but I don’t have another option anymore.
“She is the one who made the pillars of the Garnet Enterprises. All thanks to her skills, we became millionaires in two years. We were exhilarated, Jane was studying further, So do I.”
“When everything was so perfect then what led to this? What caused her to become mentally disturbed in the first place?” I growled.
“Rebecca helped me for the first time in her life, without caring about her. When I.. I.. Killed my abusive boyfriend.. The reason I don't want to love again.”
I stilled, not expect this from Marianne. Is that why.. She was afraid?
“She helped me to win the case, to prove what I did was out of defense and after it Father began to lose himself in fame and money, he neglected me and Jane, focusing only on Rebecca because she was helping him to make who he was today from the shadows.”
Oh shit, I hate where this is going now.
“No one asked her what she wanted, did she even want to be in business anymore but for Father's sake, she kept doing it.. She was everything a person could ask for, beautiful, dominant, self independent. But then..”
My heart skipped a beat at her pause. This will definitely be something unbearable, “Then what happened?”
“She was 22, we had our vacations in that house in Boston.. We all were changing.. Father losing himself in money.. I am in luxury.. Rebecca in lost hopes and Jane in.. Envy. She was jealous that Rebecca is gaining all the attention and affection..” I gulped.
“It was raining that day… Me and Father were happy, coming back from my first shoot ever in California, we reached our vacation house, it was dark… a heavy rain, the sound of thunder.”
Her lips began to quiver, trying to explain what Rebecca told me, what she witnessed with her very eyes.