Ivana tried to fight me off but the more she tried the more the kiss deepened.
I took her hands, clasping them together and raising them above her head while I worked my tongue into her mouth.
Ivana tried effortlessly to push off but I pinned her not with my hands but my body.
This was not my intention, I have not loved a girl before, Ivana was the first girl I gave my heart to and it wasn't when she came to live with us, I had given my heart to her unknowingly that day bumped into her as a kid.
When I got a lot of beating from my father after saying I miss my mom, I will close my eyes and the person who comes to my dream was that little girl who smiled at me.
It was a one-time meeting as a kid, but her smiles that sunny morning had lingered in my memories.
I was not going to lose her because of this, if I do I don't think my heart would ever love anyone again, not even myself.
I part my lips from hers giving her a chance to gulp in air because I have kissed her for some minutes taking her breath away.
I was either to surrender but she wanted to flee so I pressed on, holding her face this time and placing my mouth on hers after she had taken a little air in.
I sucked, bit, locking every part of her mouth, if she won't listen to me then she should listen to this.
"You are the only girl that turns me into one Ivana," I said the words as I parted my lips from her briefly before covering her lips again.
holding her other hand, I took it down to touch my trousers and I saw her eyes dilated at what she felt.
I know I shouldn't be doing this when she doesn’t want to, but I want to pass a message, seeing that she stopped struggling for what she had just felt under my trousers, I part my lips from hers.
"I love only you Ivana," I felt like crying right now as I said these words while her pants took in air to her nostrils. "I don't want to lose you.
I searched her eyes and they were on mine, she was not pushing me off but listening right now to my sincere words.
"I have nothing to do with Ava, yes she loved me while in the States, but I don't love her, the only girl I have loved ever since was you!" I pressed my lips together as I watched a single tear roll down Ivana's cheek.
"I am so sorry so don't tell me to stay away from you, I can’t be able to do that_" There were no words to say anymore.
I waited in silence for Ivana to say something since she was silent, I waited for her words and searched her eyes but she said nothing.
I was getting so scared, scared that she was still going to stay away from me, scared that there was nothing I was going to do.
Now I regret leaving Ava, I had thought taking her away from Ivana's sight would help keep Ivana from having the thoughts that I was in love with Ava, but I was wrong, it had only made her misunderstand me more.
I was about to pull away since I was down casted and losing hope, was it over just like this?
To my surprise, Ivana held my collar and pulled me close as she planted a kiss on my lips.
Her eyes were closed as she held me that way, I wrapped my hands around her shoulders and took over.
We had to be careful since this could lead to something else and my mother was downstairs but right now our head was not straight as we made out, kissing breathlessly.
I lifted her and she wrapped her legs around my waist, her hand nuzzling my hair tracing it down the back of my neck while my hand was on her bottom as I pressed on it while kissing her.
Although I knew nothing about love, I knew something about kissing and also touching and feelings.
While I was with Ivana I lost myself, honestly, I was not thinking straight, my head was in a daze, a daze of Ivana's love, a daze of the fact her lips tasted sweeter than cherry.
I led her over to my bed and kissed the nape of her neck as I gently let her down my bed.
I worked my hand down the top button of her shirt, just a touch the button opened and I had access to the swells of her breast.
I glanced at her face but my eyes were filled with desire, the desire to prove that I can make love to her even if I was not good at loving.
I kissed her lips and worked my lips down the swell of her breast as my tongue touched the soft swells and I heard Ivana moan and I felt her body tremble.
I paused since my hand had walked it way over above her thigh, she was wearing a skirt which gave me free access and I felt the dampness down there.
I swallowed hard and glanced up at Ivana, she was wet just by my touch and she was trembling.
"Have you never been touched before?" I asked her and Ivana pressed her lips together as she gently shook her head in response, that was when I realised, just like I haven't had a woman, she hasn't had a man.
I took my hand off her thigh glancing up at her face, her expression changed to a confused gaze when I gently buttoned her shirt.
"Why?" She searched my eyes as she sat up from the bed, I pulled her into a hug, she was not only a treasure to me, she was someone special and I shouldn't take her this way.
Knowing she was still perplexed I leaned back and looked at her face. "I want to treasure you, Ivana," I caressed her cheek with my hand. "You are so special to me that you make me think of a future…" I don't know the reason but I felt I was meant to be with her and there was no need to rush something that is yours.
I gently kissed her lips seeing her eyes glistened, she must have understood what I meant, this time I was not going to take it back.
"Listen carefully Ivana," I started softly as I looked into her blue eyes. "You belong to me and no one else." This time I did not say it aggressively, I told her clearly and softly like we already had an agreement and a smile spread through her lips.
I smiled back, she got my message, I was hers and she was mine, I won't let anything or anyone tear us apart.